7 Years And 50 Days
SUMMARY: this takes place 7 years and 50 days after Edward left. Bella never jumped off the cliff so Alice never came and Edward never came to check on Bella. After a few years Jacob imprinted on another girl and Bella's left all alone now. Wait; is that Edward back in town??? ExB???? JxOC R&R plz!!!
A/N: I know that this has been used a lot lately but I like this song called 7 Years And 50 Days and this fanfic is like the song sort of. I am NOT a Jacob fan so if you Jacob lovers are reading this you probably won't like my story. And to go along with what I had in mind jacob doesn't have to stay with the pack-even if he's supposed to be the real leader.
Disclaimer: if you ever think that I actually made these characters and the twilight series then you are sadly mistaken :'( They are all made by the great, the talented STEPHENIE MEYER!!!!!
Another Disclaimer: I do not own the song 7 Years and 50 Days either-that belongs to Groove Coverage.
SAM
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BPOV
It's been 7 years and 50 days since he left me.
The hole in my chest did not get any better.
Since Jake's gone now I have no one.
I went to college in Forks and am still friends with Angela. She and Ben are still together and it hurts to be around them together.
I try not to think about him often, but it's inevitable at times; I just don't know how I made it so long without him. When Jake was still here I didn't have those dreams-nightmares- a lot but now with nobody the nightmares came back-with a vengeance. I now have two different ones.
Jacob left about a year ago and I haven't heard from him since. I know that he feels bad about the imprinting but I still don't know why I havent had contact with him since. The other werewolves are still here but it's not the same without Jacob. Seth and Emily finally got married, I was invited but I didn't go to the wedding because it hurt too much to even think about it.
I wish I could be stronger about this; I mean, it's been 7 years- you would think if he actually cared about me he wouldn't have left in the first place-but I can't help wondering-hoping he would come back.
I wonder where all of them are now, probably going to some university again. I miss Alice a lot too. I wonder if she found out more about her human life. I wouldn't put it past Alice to go to all lengths to recover her lost information.
I can feel the hole waiting to rip itself open harshly again. I have that gnawing feeling inside of me, wanting his presence, his embrace…
No I think to myself. I have to finally get stronger over that feeling. I can't, just can't, think of that life that could have happened, that I could have had.
Here the hole comes ripping itself open, tearing me apart even more. I begin to cry and start holding myself together-literally.
I can't bear another moment of this excruciating pain, but I have to I just have to. What if he comes back and wants me? It's a long shot but isn't there any hope at all? What if he does? What if he really does want me? What if he says it was a mistake? But if he really did come back would I be able to trust that he was here to stay? He could just come and up and leave again, look at how fast it happened. I brought this pain on myself, because of one mistake I made it made him leave. It was all my fault that he left; he stopped loving me because he finally saw how stupid and idiotic I am and realized that he didn't want to stay with me forever.
I can only blame myself for what he did. I knew that it wasn't possible for him to love me forever. Maybe he was just thinking that he loved me when, in actuality, he didn't give a damn about me. Mind over matter is what he once said.
I wonder if I can ever heal.
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A/N: ok, so do you like it??? Please review!!! It makes me happy!!! Almost as much as Candy Mountain does:D
SAM