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DISCLAIMER: GLEE AND IT'S CHARACTERS BELONG TO FOX AND RYAN MURPHY
Another Friday another Glee club meeting. All the usual suspects we're in their chairs and waiting the arrival of their Glee club director. The band was doing some last minute tune ups while the group just mingled. Fifteen minutes later in walked Mr. Shuester who was all smiles as he clapped his hand and got everyone's attention.
"Alright everyone who's ready to sing?" He asked the group who all just stared at him with bored expressions. "Anybody?"
"Mr. Shue if I may." Rachel didn't even bother to wait for a response as she stood in the middle of the choir room. She looked over at Quinn who shook her head and looked down at her hands. 'Alright.' Rachel thought to herself as she tried not to let the tears get the best of her. "Fellow Glee Club members…. I know that…. That I'm not the best person to deal with…. Given my diva tantrums."
"That's an understatement." Santana muttered which earned her an elbow to the gut by Brittany who shushed the now grumbling Latina.
"Go ahead Rach." The bubbly blonde motioned for the small girl to continue.
"Thank you Brittany." Taking a moment to collect herself, Rachel took in one last breath. She gave Quinn one last look, almost like giving her one last chance to come clean. But once again the blonde just kept looking down at her now clammy and pale hands. Santana looked from Quinn to Rachel as if trying to figure something out and when she did the words that slipped out of the Latina's mouth we're almost disbelieving.
"No fucking way." She whispered to herself but Brittany heard and leaned over.
"Isn't it great S. Q totally loves sharing sweet lady kisses with Rach." Santana didn't answer but suddenly months and months of lame ass excuses and even more lamer family moments that the blonde had said she needed to take care of seemed to make a lot more sense now.
"Members of New Directions…. I Rachel Barbra Berry have an announcement to make." The room went silent. Kurt and Mercedes rolled their eyes at Rachel's usual diva like behavior.
"Are you planning on telling us anytime soon Rachel?" Mike asked making Tina nod.
"Sorry… I guess my theatrics got the better of me." Clearing her throat Rachel stared at the group making sure to keep eye contact with all of them. "I'm…. I'm gay."
Silence. Followed by pandemonium. That's what the choir room was like on the day that Rachel Berry came out. One after the other the group of kids all spoke over one another as they tried to make sense of what they had just heard.
"Are you sure Rachel? This-this isn't just a ploy to get attention?"
"Dude." Puck, Mike and Sam all said at the same time.
"Not cool." Artie and Tina joined in.
"Seriously." Everyone turned to look at Brittany who was standing at the top of the risers with both of her hands clenched into fists that where resting on her hips. "Why would you ask a question like that Kurt?"
"I'm just making sure Brittany. Rachel has deceived us in the past." The boy countered.
"So she's done some crazy shit back in the day." Santana spoke up catching everyone's attention. "I seriously doubt her joining the Ellen fan club is a ploy, I mean she isn't that crazy…. Are you that crazy Berry?"
"No." Rachel answered without hesitation. "This isn't a ploy." She said looking straight at Kurt. "I'm not doing this for solos." She made sure to look at Mercedes then back at Santana who saw nothing but honesty in the brunettes eyes along with something else. Something she couldn't really name. "This is who I am…. I love women well woman as in singular."
"Bro." Puck stood up and walked over hugging the small girl. "Don't trip girl I got your back if any one tries to fuck with you just let the Puckster know and I'll put their ass in check." He made sure to look right at Finn who held his hands up.
"Thank you Noah, but your physical use of violence something I'm totally against with by the way won't be required. Finn and I have long broken up and we're actually good friends. But uh."
"What's wrong Rachel?" Tina asked speaking up. Puck hugged Rachel tighter neither of them except Santana noticed the way a certain blonde glared at the two and the intimate way the two Jewish teenagers we're embracing.
"I'm sorry…. I'll just sing now."
"Oh Rach." Brittany bounded down the risers and pulled the smaller girl into a bone crushing hug. "It's alright Rachy. Q's just being a jerk." The blonde whispered into Rachel's ear making sure that the smaller girl was the only one that heard her. Rachel just stared at Brittany with a look of pure shock but then realized that this was Brittany and she could tell when people we're up to something.
"Thank you Brittany…. I sure hope your right." Rachel smiled her gratitude making Brittany smile as well. Once the blonde was back in her seat, Rachel cleared her throat.
"Over the past couple of months I…. I fell in love with a girl…. A girl that showed me so many wonderful things….. And then one day she left. Without a reason so I chose a song to describe how she left me. Some of you might know this and since I'm singing about a girl I thought I'd tweak it so it really fits." She motioned for the band to start and after a little delay the guitarist started to play.
I thought I saw a girl brought to life
She was warm, she came around like she was dignified
She showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldn't be that girl I adored
You don't seem to know, don't seem to care what your heart is for
But I don't know her anymore
There's nothing where she used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That's what's going on, nothings fine I'm torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn
So I guess the fortune tellers right
Should've seen just what was there and not some holy light
To crawl beneath my veins and now
I don't care, I have no luck, I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things that I can't touch, I'm torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn. torn.
Torn
Santana kept her eyes on Quinn. Yes her attention was still on Rachel but her eyes we're glued to the former head cheerleader who had yet to have some sort of reaction to what Berry was singing. She looked over at Brittany who was also staring at the smaller blonde but her girlfriend's face had a look of sadness. Clearly the blue eyed girl thought that the midget and the biggest repressed lemon in Ohio we're a good match and as much as it pained her to admit it the past couple of months had been way smoother in glee because of whatever it was that Quinn was doing to keep the hobbit happy.
There's nothing where she used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That's what's going on, nothings right, I'm torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm ashamed bound and broken on the floor
You're a little late, I'm already torn
As soon as the last note was hit Quinn jumped out of her seat and fled the choir room. She needed to get away, she needed to think. Something that couldn't be done at all with Rachel standing in the middle of the room, not after she had sung that song to her. She was halfway to her car when she heard somebody shout her name.
"QUINN." The voice repeated. She didn't know why but the voice sounded a little bit like Finn. Not wanting to take a chance and have an awkward encounter with the boy that Rachel rejected for her Quinn quickly slipped into her car and drove off leaving Finn in the middle of the parking lot. Back inside Rachel watched as one by one the group left the choir room. None of them saying a word to her as they passed by. Tina gave her a smile but that was about it. Once she heard the door shut Rachel broke down.
Her legs had finally given out and the brunette found herself a sobbing mess in the middle of the choir room floor. Once again she found herself in the very same spot where Quinn and her had first given into their attraction.
SONG TORN- Natalie Imbruglia