Chapter 1:// Goodbye
It was raining. For some reason, it wasn't the same. People were walking to their cars, dressed in black, laughing, smiling, and holding their backs to me. They all knew it was my fault. If it hadn't been for me, she would still be alive and smiling. Probably with friends, or Jacob. They all wanted me to die. I took they're little angel away and I deserved to be punished. The only problem was, that I knew it better myself than any of them.
If I hadn't left, she wouldn't have started riding motorcycles.
If I hadn't left, she wouldn't have been cliff diving.
If I hadn't left, she would have been more careful.
But the truth was, if she hadn't come, then I wouldn't be more dead inside than I had been for the past hundred some odd years.
If she hadn't come, we would be not eating lunch right now, envied by the school.
If she hadn't come, life would be normal and I would still be out casted by nearly everyone, including my own family.
If she hadn't come, I would have been alone.
I wouldn't have had to leave.
I wouldn't have fallen in love.
And she would still be alive, down in Jacksonville.
As I stood, waiting for everyone to leave before I left again, I saw a newspaper and picked it up. It was open to the obituaries. There was a picture of her. She was smiling and looked happy.
Bella Swan 1989-2007 Beloved daughter and friend to all.
I winced and looked away. Soon we would be together again and we wouldn't have to deal with any of these human trivialities.
I stepped back into the waiting room. The only person left in there was Charlie. He wouldn't even look at me. The casket was closed. There was the stench of death. I had already checked, they still haven't found her body. They would be burying an empty casket tomorrow. But I already knew she was dead. There was no way she could have survived the crash of her motorcycle off the side of a cliff into a lake current almost as strong as a hurricanes. She was dead. I had lost the love of my life and it was all my fault.
Chapter 1:// End