Story of a Girl

Chapter 1

It was a hot summer morning. It was January 1 2005. NEW YEARS DAY. Sakura Kinomoto really didn't care. I have never cared about anything in the world. She woke up to the beeping of her alarm clock; I still use one because I'm always late for my appointments. Then I heard the phone ringing "God that's for Aiko again!" the phone always rings and it bugs me to hell.

Aiko my older sister by 3 years was one of those "POPULAR GIRLS". She was going out with a basketball player from school. I didn't get it, like what's the point. A girl goes out with a boy and suddenly she gets popular? I had never had a boyfriend and I really don't mind, I liked being by herself, not lonely.

I opened the door and I found my sister talking off at the phone, saying things like 'Oh my god, really? Or that's sweet', like all that mushy stuff, it made me cringe. I didn't like Aiko's boyfriend, he was such a dick. Makoto Mayers tried to be nice to me but I just didn't care.

I walked to the kitchen and saw my mum cooking something, like a cake. Why couldn't she just cook something normal for breakfast? Her mother Akina said 'Good morning darling'

'Hi mom', sitting at the dining table and I asked 'What's for breakfast?'

'Just cook something for yourself, or have toast, remember you're on a diet, just watch what you're eating'.

She was right I was on a diet, but I hated it. I was a bit overweight, but I made progress losing 3 kilos in the first month, which would sound slow, but that's how I work.

'Are you going somewhere tonight?'

'Yeah, I'm going out with some friend ... Sakura can you help me mix this?' I stood up from the dining table and walked there.

I helped her mother mix the cake mixture 'Are you going to leave us any?'

'Yeah'

Her dad just woke up and he was in the backyard cleaning something up. I really hated her dad. Only if I could swear to him I would, so loud that he would get the point. But he was those kinds of dad that goes insane when you saw something wrong, or do something wrong. My dad was always on the computer and that's what he does. Eat, go to the computer, toilet, sleep, that's pretty much all.

Today I was planning on spending my day with my bestest friend in the world, Syaoran Li. I've known him since we were born; we used to be next door neighbors until he moved to another suburb. I took a shower before leaving and when I got out of the toilet my sister was going crazy and I said to her 'Screw you Aiko'

She pushed me out of the way 'Just move Sakura'

'Good morning to you too'

I never got along with my sister because she was just a bitch. I hurriedly got changed because I was running late to meet Syaoran who was in Blacktown Station. We were planning to just go out and watch a movie or something. I rushed outside running to the station and I found Syaoran smiling at me and he said as I was walking normally to him 'You're late again, what happened to your New Years solution?'

'Shut up Syaoran , so where are we going?'

'The City, I heard that Amusement Park was done and we could go there if you want'

'No, that's boring you know I hate theme parks'

'I was wondering if you wanted to try something new, come on', we got on the train and they sat next to each other and passed the other stations.

While we were on the train, a group of guys were looking at me. I thought to myself "Why can't they look at themselves?" I whispered to Syaoran 'Those guys are freaking me out'

'You want to move?'

'I don't mind, I just don't like the way they're staring at me'.

I took out my IPOD NANO and we started listening to songs. We had the same taste in music and that made things easier for us. I put it on Yellow card –Gifts and Curses.

Finally when were in the city, they walked out together and it was busy. I said 'Let's go a shopping centre'

'I don't want to go there'

'Come on'

He finally gave in and he said 'Just as long as I don't have to help you pick anything'

'Your gay, Syaoran , come on I just want to get a milkshake'

I got something from gumballs and I enjoyed it, I offered some to him 'You want some?'

'No thanks'

We saw a photo booth and I asked 'Can we do one?'

'Sure'

They got in and put money in and he said 'Do the first one as a nice one'

They posed for the first picture well and we posed well. I had to admit we looked cute together. He looked at me in a way and I have never seen that look. I asked 'Is anything wrong?'

Smiling at me 'I met a girl during Christmas Sakura'.

I stopped hearing what he told me and asked 'Who is it?'

'A girl younger than us, she's in Year 9 this year, she's a great girl'

'Why didn't you tell me earlier?'

'Would that have made a difference?'

I admitted 'No, but I'm your best friend, I've known you forever and when you like a girl I expect to know that', I started walking away and at the corner of my eye.

He asked me 'Why are you being like this?'

'Like what?' I said

'Your being like this, the normal Sakura that gets jealous'

'I love you'

I saw Syaoran stop when he was about to say something when I said those 3 words. He asked repeating what I said 'You love me?'

'It came out wrong Syaoran ', I tried lying to my only best friend but I knew he knew I was lying.

'Why didn't – uh', he was too shocked to say something, instead I started walking away. He went after me and he asked 'Why are you just telling me now?'

'I don't know, we're too different Syaoran , I mean our relationship is different from everyone, if I told you, its would ruin everything', I avoided looking him in the eye.

He walked beside me and it was an awkward feeling. I could feel this tension between us. I apologized to him 'I'm sorry'

'I'm the one that should apologize, you just a – lets just forget about all this'

I thought to her "But I don't want to forget the feelings I have for you".

I felt the air starting to get sticky so we went inside the restaurant in case it rained and Syaoran said something to me that surprised me 'I just want you to know that I used to have feelings for you, but that was a long time before'

'I know, I could tell you felt awkward around me sometimes'

We sat down and I looked at him, he looked a lot better years before. We used to go into the forest when we were younger and just swim there. But things were different between the two of us. Even though it only has been 20 minutes, it felt like I admitted my feelings for him ages ago.

I don't know what to do now; it felt like he didn't want to be around me anymore and to make it worst, I felt awkward around him. It was Naoko Reynold's fault, and I was blaming her, but I had to admit I did most of the bad things.

So school was starting in two days, I didn't know if I wanted to talk to him. I wanted to call him so many times but I didn't know what to say, there wasn't much I could say now, just for things to calm down.