Sick Little Fantasy
Summary: One-shot Were you really just some figment of my deranged mind? I refuse to believe it Rikette
Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts. The story was inspired by The Spill Canvas's Natalie Marie And 1cc
I never really have gotten what I wanted. Sure saying that makes me sound like some poor little emo boy but in all honesty it is true. Ever since the Heartless came my life went downhill. So I'm having a hard time believing you were real. It was just a little fling. I know it happened. Sometimes I hear them say that I've lost my mind. I may have; I may really be insane but you were there. You were real; you had to be.
I can remember what it felt like to touch you, to kiss you. I can feel your breath on my skin. I can feel your fingertips, light as feathers ghosting across sensitive skin. I can feel the way your body pressed up against mine. I was able to feel you. You had to be real. I just can't remember you.
Did I really just imagine you? Were you really just some figment of my deranged mind? I refuse to believe it. You loved me! I know you did. I didn't conjure you up in my desperate need for acceptance and human contact. Your really were there. You made everything all right for me. You gave me back the life I thought I lost. I can't be insane. I refuse to believe it.
But if you are real then where are you? Why aren't you here with me? Oh gods I'm not insane. I can't be. I'm alive; I'm sane. But why can't I remember you? God why can't I remember you? I remember the touch but I don't remember the face. I remember the words but I can't recall the voice.
Have I truly lost everything, even my sanity?
They say you were just a sick little fantasy. I want you to be reality! Tell me damn it! Are you real? Were you ever really there Orette? Tell me I'm not mad! Where are you? Oh gods I really am insane.
They're saying you're dead. They are saying you were always dead. They're lying. Gods they have to be lying. This can't be happening. I- you, you can't be dead! You can't be gone! Where the hell are you?
Were you ever there?
Were you ever there Orette?
Maybe they are right. You are just a figment of my tainted brain.
Don't ask me to explain becuase I really have no idea what is going on. It is up for your own interpertations. This was just pure insanity (though I sorta like it in a complete WTF? way...)
So tell me what you think I'm really just not sure of this. If you hate it please tell me.
-Frozen-Passion-