This is probably really terrible, I've never written angst before and should probably just stick to what I know (or give up, whatever) but I had this in my head this morning and wanted to give it a shot.

It probably isn't that good, but I put it here anyway.

Not forcing you to read it

It's set after the series but before the movie, this is what I was thinking after I finished watching the series and it made me really sad I'm actually quite ashamed to say

Ash

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Their mission had started out simple

Find the philosophers stone and return their bodies back to the way they were before the incident

For the first time since their journey began, Ed started to think

He thought about everything they had given up, the list seemed to go on forever. A never ending nightmare that he knew he could never wake up from, even though he begged to

He screamed too, but his inner demons wouldn't allow him and he knew that it was impossible

His body was simply too tired to allow him to wake and see the sunshine

Everything they had gained

What had they gained?

Nothing.

It was all for nothing.

It didn't take a genius to work out that they had lost a lot more than they had gotten in return

But Ed wasn't even allowed to learn his lesson

Equivalent exchange

In the beginning it had been the only thing they knew for sure, now it felt like the world's greatest evil

The entire human race's joke on them, and now everyone was laughing.

Started out as the cause of all their problems, and then accelerated their downfall at gushing speeds that never wanted to slow down, no matter how loud you screamed

And in trying to regain everything they once had, they lost the only thing that they'd had had from the start

The one thing that had kept him sane from the beginning

The one thing they had promised to would last forever

They were all each other had, nothing could tear them apart

That was what he had told his brother countless times

Everytime a call had been just a bit to close, everytime his brother was scared and needed help

He felt like such a liar, everything had torn them apart

It wasn't fair, why did they lose so much and never get anything in return?

How had he been so blind?

There was no way to fix all their mistakes; there had never been a chance of that

There never would be a chance

He knew that now.

The only thing left to do was sleep

and to realise that they'd been doomed to fail from the start.