I've been 'revamping' my stories for a LONG time now. Editing, adding things in and taking things out, improving my writing. I think I am finally getting ready to re-post my old stuff. I decided to start with this one-shot I wrote I don't even remember when.

This is wrong, very wrong. Actually, now that I think about it? Wrong might not be strong enough a word for what this is. When I stop to think about the pain that will occur if this gets out, the inevitable nuclear fallout, I almost reconsider, I almost say no. Almost.

Then I think about how careful we are, so careful and the rush I get? It's intoxicating. The feeling that this moment could be it, that we could get caught…it's what pushes us both forward. Of course, there are feelings involved as well, but neither of us is really ready to think about that.

I can't even remember when it started. I think it was raining outside…yeah…it was raining. I was driving back to the dorms when I saw her walking, getting soaked. So, being the good guy and friend that I am, was, I offered her a ride. Then, before I knew what I was doing, I was going to her room whenever she was alone or she was coming to mine when my roommate was gone.

I did bring up ending it once, but the look in her eyes made me stop. That was the day that I will remember forever, the day that I broke our number one rule, don't fall in love. I'm not alone in that, she does feel the same way but, like I said before, we aren't really ready to face that yet.

If anyone found out they would call her a slut and me a horrible friend. I don't make these screwed up social rules, it's just how it is, and I can't bear to watch that happen to her. Do I feel guilty? A little bit, yeah. But then he goes and does something stupid, or takes her for granted, and the guilt goes away, for a while.

Looking at her now I can't help but wonder what it would be like to walk down the hallways holding her hand, but that can never happen because she's with him. She did tell me that Kate is getting suspicious but I'm not too worried about that, a few well-placed lines and Kate will go back to fighting with Pogue about something or other.

Being with Sara is actually easy in a way. The only thing that I'm currently worried about is whether or not Kate and Pogue are going to cut their date short. It's been known to happen, on occasion. I gently get out of her bed and get dressed. While I'm putting on my shirt she wakes up, "Are you leaving?"

"Yeah, I've got to get going. Not sure when they'll be back."

She nods, "Good point, I'll clean up around here."

"I'll see you tonight at Nicky's okay?"

"Sure. Kate said she might stay at Pogue's tonight."

I smile and nod my head. My hand is on the handle when she stops me. Leaning up on her toes she kisses me, "See you tonight."

I nod and leave her room. Jogging up the two flights of stairs and down the hall, I pause outside of my room and make sure everything is where it's supposed to be. Walking in I see my roommate at his desk watching something on his computer. He turns when the door opens, "Where the hell have you been?"

"Around."

He rolls his eyes, "We need to get you a girl, Baby Boy."

I just look at him and nod.