reaching for the stars
amu x ikuto
"If I reach for the stars, will I feel your hand?"
Delicate fingers slid across the surface of the light blue sheet of paper that smelled like coffee and music as she gazed across the last sentence. Her hazel eyes shut with such tightening pain as she bit the bottom of her peach, plump lips to calm her wavering heart from spilling out its pain as unforgiving tears. The cool air silenced everything around her except for the endless thoughts that flowed through her head like a chaotic song. The excruciating pain of want and need was stronger than ever. This had become her life - eagerly awaiting letters that had traveled from Europe straight to her doorstep in Japan.
These letters had become her saving grace, keepsakes that she treasured until the time where their hearts could become one again. She yearned for his fingertips to brush against her cheek, to feel his sweet, rough lips planted against hers, and for her head to rest gently against his chest. Amu longed to hear his voice up close and not through the phone. Perhaps this was her selfish desire speaking but sometimes, it was hard to control such a feeling. His words made her feel like he was right next to her as if he weren't thousands and thousands away.
Oh, how she wished she could see that small, playful smile that would appear whenever he teased her. To smack him on the chest and stubbornly look away as if she wasn't melting in that moment over him. Because she knew that he would eventually do something to lighten her up, to change her grumpiness to something beautiful and happy.
"If I shut my eyes and open them, will you appear by my side?"
She missed him so much...
The last sentence of his letter had her gazing up towards the sky now. Twinkling, vibrant stars were painted across the midnight sky as if they were accompanying her for the evening. Standing up in her spot, she reached one long, wanky arm up towards it as if she wanted to take a star. Slowly, she began to repeat the words that he had written to her in that love letter.
"The sky is like a reflection for day and night. If you miss me so much, be the idiot you are and reach high and with pride, Amu. Reach for the stars and so will I. The stars will connect our hands together and your hand will be in mine."
Reaching as high as she could, she shut her eyes while fresh tears started to glide down her soft cheeks. Hugging the letter close to her heart with her other arm, she tried her best to stop her trembling but she could not help it. She had fallen too hard, so deep that her heart yearned so badly for him. With nothing but the stars to waver her loneliness on this cold night, she could only whisper one question to herself.
"Are you reaching for the stars too, Ikuto?"