Letter 86
AN: This was written for the 550th BL thread at the FanForum Spoilers board. Brooke wrote Lucas a letter after receiving a phone call from Peyton and deciding to return to Tree Hill.
Dear Lucas,
As I am sitting here looking at the New York City skyline, I hope that this letter finds you well. It has been a couple of years since we last saw each other. Each day since then I have been focusing my attention on my company, which is expanding with each day.
I wished for my company to become successful and it has beyond my wildest dreams. I have come to realize in the four years since I left Tree Hill that having a successful multi-million dollar company is not everything. Traveling all over the world, the celebrity, and the upscale lifestyle should be enough but I come home to an empty apartment. My dinner table has multiple place settings but every night it's just me, myself, and I at the table. Over the years, it has gotten more and more unbearable. It has gotten to the point where my smiles mask my feelings of loneliness mixed with a profound sadness.
I admit that I have not kept in touch with everyone like I should have. My consistent excuse of saying that I have been busy with the company comes so easily. With that being said, I spoke to Peyton the other day for the first time in what feels like an eternity. We talked mostly about missing all of it. When we were in high school, we all were in search of something more. Tree Hill was just Tree Hill. Now I have come to realize and appreciate that Tree Hill is much more than a small town that I grew up in North Carolina.
Although my memories of Tree Hill are not all rosy, I found that the majority of my positive memories of home were moments of my life that I shared with you. I remember our first date at The Blue Post. What's your take on tattoos? Remember that Luke? Every time I look at my tattoo, it reminds me of you and that night. That night you confirmed once again that I did not have to be the person that people thought I was. Instead, you opened the door so I could be my true self even if that meant admitting my passion for Weird Science. No matter how much time passes; I will always miss your presence… and how you make me feel. Your encouragement more so than anyone else's has made me feel like I can do anything. We have been through a lot you and me; I don't know what I would do without you Lucas Scott.
The truth of the matter is that I am still trying to figure this all out but a sense of real belonging, friends, family, and of course, love is what I'm seeking. Love is what it's all about. I have realized that with everything that I am fortunate to have, it is not enough. Talking to Peyton that night made me realize that I need to come home. My coming home will presumably have consequences but I think it is worth it. I have the possibility to fulfill my hearts desires.
Brooke