I have basked in my own shame for years at this point wondering if i am still the good person i was or if i have become a certified bonafide bad person, the bad person i have built a caricature in my mind over the years as a way to pedestal myself above those who either most definitely are or are not above me
am i spiritually bankrupt or just temporarily misguided
a hand reaches from my gut to my mind telling me to implode
i do want to continue, i think