I want to run. I cannot feel my heart anymore, do not wish to anyway. I want him to kill me. Just a little longer, and he will.

I am still alive, just. I fall to the floor after being thrown through the window. Seishiro-san........ I.. loved........... you......

And yet, those feelings were returned with betrayal. The nurses hurry, after seeing a young teenager being thrown through a glass window into an empty room, it would be expected.

But I don't care. I can't care, I won't care. I want it to be the way it was; Seishiro-san, Hokuto-chan and me.

Hokuto-chan won't be saddened. It's impossible to be saddened by my pain, there isn't really much to like about me, and she will get by.

The hospital lights blaze and I hear them, all talking, yelling, whispering, even Hokuto-chan's scream when she sees me........

I can't feel the pain that I should be feeling. The pain in my heart is too powerful, too horrible compared to the pain as your bones snap.

I want it to end. And it does. I drift inside my heart, watching the moments of happiness between us, living them all once more.

I slowly forgot about the pain I felt, because I was inside my heart. It was so peaceful, No one to bother us, just the three.

But then, just one day, I heard Hokuto-chan's voice from far away.

"Subaru................... Please come back........"

But if I come back, it will be reality again. I can't live with that................... My heart felt like it was going to shatter.....................

And later on, I got a giant surprise.

The scenery changed from the scene I usually got to a place covered in cherry blossoms. I saw two people there, and closed my eyes.

But when I opened them again, there was only one person. I put my hand up to my face in an effort to keep the cherry blossoms out of my eyes.

In the persons arms was someone that looked so much like me.......... maybe it was me, maybe this is the same dream that I had a while ago.

And then the man turned around. Seishiro-san. And then I realised.

"NO!!!" I screamed and I tried to run over, tears spilling from my eyes. It was a nightmare, just a nightmare.

I was suddenly with Obaa-chan, and I was screaming Hokuto-chan's name. I got to my feet and I was on the floor again, Obaa-chan embracing me.

"Subaru-san, what's wrong? Subaru-san!" She exclaimed. I just looked up at the roof, tears appearing in my eyes as I closed my eyelids.

The phone began to ring, and she got to her feet and picked it up. She listened, and then dropped the phone in shock.

"Hokuto-san is-" She began, unable to finish. I already knew.

"He killed her didn't he?" I asked, already knowing the answer by the expression on her face. I walked over top the window.

"I'm dropping out of school," I announced.

"Subaru-san?"

"I won't be able to find him like this, the sakuazukamori. I will find him. Because I, and only I, will kill him!"

My heart has cracked, and the only thing that is keeping it from breaking is the hard coat of ice covering it.

And when I kill him, I'll die as well. Because I'm not going to kill him. I want him to kill, no, I need him to kill me.

I know, short. But I hope that it was worth the read, and that you enjoyed it! Thanks for reading!