It was happening slowly and yet too quickly for words. At first we were talking about our lives growing up, and then he said something about everything from my home world being smooth. His fingers were gently stroking my hand, then my shoulder, and then dropped to my other shoulder as he kissed me. Feelings like a thousand fireworks exploded behind my eyes, yet I never stopped feeling his lips on mine. Seeking something forbidden, something that they could never have. To live in this moment forever would have made me the happiest woman alive.
Suddenly something shot through my head. I was kissing Anakin! Not only was he a Jedi, just short of a Master itself, but he's also my bodyguard! Anakin, who I watched grow up from my throne, who I love, but never could. I broke the kiss off and said the first thing that came to mind. "That shouldn't have happened." He let go of my shoulder, and turned a little away from me to look at the sea. "Sorry." Was all he said, but I could tell he was offended.
I could still feel the kiss burning my lips that night. I couldn't sleep, so I threw a robe on and walked out of the hall. Anakin's room was two down from mine, and I slipped in without making any noise. Anakin lay there in a sweaty, fevered sleep. I heard his quiet mutterings, yet I remained focused on him. He was hard toned, after years of training. He had a few battle scars, but nothing else. His face had somehow remained innocent after all this time. I pulled my hair back and gently kissed his lips, now cold with the night. For a moment he seemed calm, and then started to mutter again. I slipped out the door, not a word to him.
I did that every night while were together. I know it calmed him down; he always seemed to sleep better with me around. It was little things, like taking care of my people, that allowed me to notice how loving he could be. But he remained a little distant all the time, not wishing to offend me. How I longed to tell him, but what could I say?
Sweetest, forbidden love,
Abide by me this night,
Let the candle burn away,
Let the stars shine bright,
For neither makes a single sound,
And so I need it be,
For this time is only meant for you and me.