This story is gonna be Jackie's untold story of her senior year, and it's gonna come into play with the season 7 fiasco. Most of the story will be in the form of her diary entries. I'm not really sure how long it's gonna be, but I do want it to stretch out to graduation, and maybe after? I really will try to keep up with this, but I get really distracted, and I'm praying that writers block will stay away. Enjoy!
Summer of 77'
Dear Diary,
I can't believe this, I Jackie Burkhart am now soon to be Mrs. Kelso! It's a dream come true, but not one of those strange dreams where nothing makes sense. It's more of a fairy tale, and I'm Cinderella. No wait! Sleeping Beauty, definitely her, she had the best hair and cutest Prince. Michael was so romantic tonight, he chose me over any other girl, I love him so much. He's supposed to call me later tonight, and I can't wait to discuss what kinda ring he's gonna get me! Nothing could break my spirit, although Donna not answering her phone is starting to irk me. Like, I have the best news of my life, and she's off with Casey. Ugh she needs to get home soon, so she can envy my life. I'll write more later, right now I have some seriously chipped nails that need to be filed.
Summer of 78'
Dear Diary,
Oh God, just reading my last entry makes me want to hurl. And Jackie Burkhart does no such thing. Okay, I guess it's a metaphorical hurl. Anyway, I haven't written in here in over a year now. A lot has changed I guess. Michael ran away to California with Donna, and hooked up with random beach trash. I hooked up with Steven, and then we started to date, but Michael did not take that lightly. Our whole relationship was third-wheeled by Michael trying to break us up. He succeeded, even after I told Steven I loved him after I was confused about my feelings. It didn't help when he thought he saw Michael and I fooling around on the couch. I would have never done that to him, I know what it's like, and... Well I was supposed to make a choice between Steven and Michael. It was never a decision, I've only wanted Steven for awhile now...but I can't take him back. Not yet at least.
He betrayed me, and I just can't take him back and yet. I have to fully forgive him before we get back together, otherwise it'll tear us apart.
Ugh, no. We'll be together, that little doubt doesn't matter. The last few sentences were scratched out.
Not waiting to see if Donna followed me upstairs, I raced towards my (our) room. Practically shrieking with excitement, I plopped down on the bed. I took a deep breath in to try and calm me down, but I still couldn't hide my smile. But why should I? This smile is award winning, and hasn't been seen smiling this big in too long. I flipped my hair after that self-compliment. My smile is still shining proudly on my face, and my breathing is as intense as a panting dog. Like a cute dog... a poodle! Those are so adorable! Just like me! The only difference is that I'd never get a perm. Enough time has passed, and I think it's safe to pull out my "journal", from inside Fluffycakes, sneaky I know, and begin a new entry.
Dear Diary,
Guess what? Steven and I are back together! I made the decision to finally tell him that I chose him, and... Well actually things got kinda complicated because he got mad at me for making him wait all summer for a decision , but all is well in my kingdom cause Michael (yeah Michael) helped get us back together! Even though he made everything way more complicated, it did work out in the end. Oh, and he's said I've changed and become too intellectual for him, so he's over me! This is great, that means he'll leave my puddin pop alone! Everything in my life is just perfect! All the poor people in the world don't even bother me right now by their lack of hygiene and style! Although, with the new school year coming up, I'm kinda worried about the time I'll be missing being with Steven when I'm at school. Donna's going to Madison, so I won't get to see her either, and I hate all my other cheerleader friends. What if- It doesn't even matter because I have Steven as my boyfriend, and I've just missed him so much!
Dear Diary,
So today was the first day of school, and well it was a little uneventful. I mean, I'm not typically interested in anything really school related because, hello I have better things to stress about. Seriously. Anyway, it's my senior year, and I mean I obviously knew this year would be different due to Steven, Donna and everyone else already have graduated. I still have the girls on the cheer team, but all they want to do is talk about themselves, and that's what I like to do, so you could see how this doesn't work out. Whatever, they're good company, especially when recommending new beauty regimen.
The girls aren't really in any of my classes though because right now I'm in a bunch of advanced classes. Ugh, those weren't even my idea, but Donna the Lumberjack, had to interfere with my plans to get by with my looks, and convince me that a few harder classes won't hurt. Yeah right! I was doing just fine in the regular classes, really well actually, I just don't really care about my academics. It's so dumb! I know that I shouldn't rely on y looks as much as I do, and I'm trying. Honestly! But God, I don't have to be a genius to prove that I'm more than flawless human being! I'm Jackie Burkhart. Point Place High be damned.
Don't even get me started on the three syllables' I received today. I'm expected to write notes during lectures, and then go home and write more notes over the assigned chapter! There's no way I have time to do that, cheer, date Steven, give Donna style tips, and remain a social status! And that's only my history class that's created this dilemma, I still have advanced lit, advanced physics, and I'm taking pre-cal! This is too much! I don't even think Donna took this many advanced classes in her entire school career! Steven is gonna have a field day with this. He'll probably call me a nerd, and then convince me to drop them. I don't even have him to be there to listen when I'm facing this.
After a moment of hesitation to write more, Jackie crossed out that last sentence.
Oh! I forgot to mention lunch, anyway now I sit with Pam Macy, Shelly and the rest of the cheerleaders. It's a little less than ideal, but who else am I gonna sit with?
What? I can't believe I even thought that. I'm Jackie Burkhart. Everyone with a vagina wants to be me, and everyone with a penis wants to date me...or do me... Ew. I've been hanging out with a male dominated group for too long. I need some more girlfriends. But I don't understand why this matters to me. The thing about lunch, my real friends graduated, but I still have a year to go. If I'm gonna be completely honest with myself, I was kinda lonel- No. I was not lonely. That' just no… I knew today would be different, it's simple I have senioritis. I'm just so ready to get out of here that I interacted it, so now my days are gonna be unbearable! Oh God, this is so unfair! I just want to have a perfect senior year, and then have more time to spend with my Puddin. I was starting to let out, a high-pitched whine when I remembered my diary, I mean my "journal". Getting back into my train of thought, I picked up where I left off, but not before aggressively scratching out the last sign of doubt on the page. It never existed.
This year, I Jackie B. Burkhart promise to make friends with the other cheerleaders. I really should have more girlfriends. Wouldn't it be nice to have other Me's walking around? It would be a gift to the gene pool. But then I would have to compete with other Me's, and I'm not really sure that we would like each other… I have to go though because I need to go see Steven, he promised to throw me a private pity party since I had school today! Steven can be so sweet, but he better prepare himself when I unleash the fury I have against my new classes!
So how was that? I feel like it might be a little all over the place, but I'm really trying. I just wanted to project my thoughts concerning Jackie's senior year. I mean, she must have been kinda lonely right? In the show, if I'm correct, they only had two times where they showed her school life, after season 5. She divorces her cheerleader friends in season 6, so who did she have left after that? Jackie never seemed show her insecurities, so that's what I'm gonna focus on. Does anyone kinda see where I'm going with the connection between her "journal", and being honest with herself? Well Diary entries should get longer, I just don't think that Jackie would've like writing a whole lot when she was dating Kelso. Comments and suggestions are welcomed!