2/24/15

It had always been a dream of mine to be a make-up artist/hair stylist. I'd also been a fan of the WWE ever since I was a kid. When I graduated beauty college and got a job doing make up and hair for the superstars and divas, I was in heaven.

I'm a slightly heavy-set person and was always criticized by my parents not only about my body, but also my health in general. The health part I understand, but when they added the looks was when I got defensive and just started eating more junk food out of self-loathing. When I got to the WWE, I was still self-conscious, but not like when I was home.

I made a lot of friends, one of them being Seth Rollins, who I actually had developed a crush on. While he played a crazy, justice-seeking jerk on screen, he (as well as Dean Ambrose and Roman Reigns) was a really sweet and caring guy. There had been rumors going around that he actually liked me as more than a friend which I found hard to believe since my parents would always say, "No man will ever want to be with a fatso like you." which I really took to heart.

It was getting close to Christmas and Layla invited me to a party she was hosting which would consist of the whole roster. I accepted promising myself that I wouldn't pig out on whatever sweets they were likely to have. When I got there the whole roster was there, just like Layla had said. There was dancing, food (and as I predicted, sweets) and there was going to be a "special" game towards the end of the night which made me nervous.

When things started to settle down, Layla had us sit on the floor in a circle and said that we were playing 30 minutes in heaven which made me want to gag. Coming out with a garbage bag which she said was filled with WWE t-shirts, Layla explained that whoever's shirt you got was the person you would be going into the bedroom with. If you got a group's shirt, like The Prime Time Players, you can choose the person from that group.

As soon as she said that, I knew this was a setup. She probably put a Hounds of Justice shirt on top and was gonna have me go first. God, help me!

It turned out that Layla was going first since this was her party (phw). She reached into the bag and pulled out a Daniel Bryan shirt. We all started laughing as Layla made a face like she had swallowed something sour. She and Daniel went into the room, but we all knew that nothing was going to happen. Thirty minutes later, they came out (Layla kind of running out).

I ended up being the third person to draw which lessened my nerves slightly. I reached into the bag and pulled out a Hounds of Justice shirt, just like I feared I would. I did a fake hiccup as I looked over at the boys who happened to be sitting next to each other. I clutched onto the shirt, took a breath and said, "Seth Rollins."

Roman and Dean slapped him on the back as he got up with a small smile on his face and walked over to where I was sitting and offered me his hand. I took it and got up, dropping the shirt as I did and followed him into the room where he closed the door with a soft click.

I sat on the bed and said in a quiet voice, "I knew this would happen. We don't have to do anything if you don't want to, Seth. I know those rumors aren't true and you're probably embarr-"

I was cut off by Seth's soft lips as he leaned down and kissed me suddenly. I was too shocked to do anything so I just sat there as if I was made of stone until he broke the kiss. Getting down on his knees, he took my hands and said, "Cynthia, I'm not embarrassed about anything because those aren't rumors going around the locker room, they're facts. For the past couple months I've wanted to tell you that I want to know you on a deeper level than just being friends. I want to know you as a partner. I want you, Cynthia and I know how self-conscious you are about your looks, but that doesn't matter to me one bit. I care about what's on the inside and while I know that phrase gets use a lot, it's true."

By the time Seth had finished his speech, tears were falling down my cheeks and I was fighting back sobs. I pulled my hands back and got up from the bed and walked over to the window where I covered my face and sobbed gently. I felt Seth rubbing my shoulders from behind. I knew we didn't have much time so I got it together and turned to face him before saying, "You know why I'm so self-conscious about my weight? My whole life my parents would harass me about it saying that no one wants to hang out with a porker and no guy wants to date a fatso. They'd say it constantly and I did a lot of 'emotional eating' because of it. They thought they were motivating me to shed the pounds, when really they just made everything worse. I know I have friends now since coming to the WWE, but I still hear the voices of my parents saying that no man will want me. Even today it stings."

Once I stopped talking, I fell into Seth's arms and sobbed. He held me and whispered that he was there for me and that my parents were dead wrong about everything. I guessed that we had ten minutes left alone, so I thought we should take advantage of them. Seth must've read my mind 'cause once we were face-to-face again, he kissed me the same gentle way he had earlier this time I kissed him back and put my hands on his shoulders as his slid down to my hips.

Seth started guiding me forward until I fell on top of him onto the bed as we continued to kiss. His hands were now going up my back trying to take my sweater with them. I pulled away and said, "Not here. They're gonna open the door any minute." and right when I said that I heard Layla on the other side yell, "Five minutes left, you two!" I looked back down at Seth and whispered, "Told ya."

Seth frowned and said, "Want me to come to your room when the party's over?"

I blushed and got off of him before saying in a quiet voice, "If you want to."

Seth stood up and placed his hand on my cheek and said, "Until then." before sliding his hand to the side of my neck and kissing me on the lips again. I was just getting into it when the door opened and Dean and Roman stood in the doorway with evil grins on their faces. I hid behind Seth as they started laughing. Seth flipped them off and lead me out to the main room where everyone else was sitting with smirks on their faces.

A few hours later, I was in my room in my PJs reading when I heard a knock at the door. I marked my book and went to the door and opened it to reveal Seth Rollins in the same clothes he wore at the party. "Hey," I said sheepishly.

"Hey yourself. Mind if I come in?" I stood to the side letting him in and closed the door behind him. We sat on the bed facing each other, me feeling slightly awkward.

"So, did the girls give you a hard time after the party?" Seth asked breaking the ice.

I laughed lightly and said, "Not nearly as bad as what we gave Layla. It wasn't 'cause of Daniel, but her reaction when she pulled his 'No!' shirt from the bag. What about Dean and Roman?"

Seth shrugged and said, "Kind of. Really it was the fact that I waited so damn long to let the cat out of the bag."

I raised my eyebrows and said, "So you were telling the truth back there."

Seth gave me a look and said, "Cynthia, you know me better than to lie about something like my feelings toward people. You're letting your parents plant stupid thoughts in your head."

I bowed my head and covered my face feeling stupid for listening to my parents for all these years. I felt Seth wrap his arms around me and kiss the top of my head. I wrapped my arms around his waist and buried my face into his chest. After staying like that for a while, Seth cleared his throat and said in a gentle voice, "Cynthia, how can I prove my feelings for you? I know that telling you isn't good enough, so what do you want me to do?"

I looked up into his eyes and they looked serious. I pulled away from him, got up and told him to close his eyes. When he did, I took off my pajamas then told him to look. Seth opened his eyes and when he got a good look at me he got up, walked over to me and ran his hands slowly down my body from my shoulders to my thighs. Keeping his hands there he said, "Truth be told, Cynthia, you're beautiful. Your parents just need to shut up and leave you alone"

Before I could respond, he took my face in his hands and kissed me with more passion and meaning than before. I was shocked at first, but that was immediately replaced with desire. Seth placed me on the bed before taking his sweater off along with his pants. He got on top of me and went from kissing my lips to my neck and from there he went down my body, trailing kisses along the way. Once he got below my abdomen, he looked up at me as if asking permission to take off my panties. I nodded so he slid them off along with his boxers.

I was scared since this was my first time and I knew it was gonna be painful, but I trusted Seth not to intentionally hurt me. He seemed to of read my mind again 'cause he ran his thumb over my cheek and said, "I promise to be gentle."

I smiled slightly and braced myself. First time he went in, it hurt like hell. I groaned and grimaced until he pulled out and whispered, "Tell me to stop and I'll stop. We don't have to do this if you don't want to."

I took a breath and said, "No, Seth. If I don't' get through it now I never will." He looked at me with worried eyes, but once I kissed him passionately on the lips and whispered, "Go ahead, you know you want it as much as I do." he went back in. It didn't hurt like before, but I couldn't help wincing as he moved inside. About half an hour later, I was laying on his chest wondering what the maid was gonna think when she saw the blood on the sheets.

Seth ran his fingers up and down her shoulder, still with that worried look. I sat up and said, "What's wrong, Sethie?"

He turned on his side to face me and said, "I just keep wondering why some parents are so mean to kids. Some people say it's to toughen them up for the real world while others like yours say it's motivation for the kids to change for the better. I mean, yeah there's discipline, but even that gets pushed too far with some people. It's just not right."

I took his hand and laced my fingers with his. I sighed and said, "it is wrong, but outsiders can only do so much. What we as victims need are people like you. Someone we can vent to, someone who'll offer a shoulder to cry on and so forth. It's really the cycle that should be worried about. If I'm to have a child and they somehow get fat I'll try my frickin' hardest not to treat them like my parents treated me. I won't guarantee that I won't be hard on them, but I believe that my parents' words will not leave my mouth. They didn't help me and I doubt they'd help anyone."

Seth looked like he had just been fired from the WWE. I couldn't help but laugh which seemed to wake him up. "Wow, Cynthia did you take psychology while you were at beauty college, or what?" he asked in amazement.

I smiled and said, "No, but I did read a lot on the subject in my spare time."

Seth nodded and said, "So, where do you think we stand? Do I still have to prove my feelings for you or do you believe me now?"

I cuddled up to him and said, "I believed you when you didn't act grossed out by my exposed body. I'm sorry I didn't believe you before, Seth."

After putting his arms around me again, he kissed my wrist and said, "All that matters is that you believe me now. And if you want me to I can help you shed the pounds. I promise not to criticize or harass you about your weight or anything unless you ask for my opinion."

I smiled and kissed his cheek then replied, "I'd like that very much. I know I need to lose weight for health reasons and I indeed need some help. Thank you for not walking away from me when I broke down those couple times today."

"I'll never walk away from you unless you tell me to. I love you, Cynthia Hayes, no matter what."

Tears welled up in my eyes and this time I knew it was because I was so happy. "I love you too, Seth Rollins. And just so you know, these are happy tears this time." I said with a laugh.

Seth smiled and said as he wiped up my tears with his free hand, "I'm happy that you're happy. Do you want us to be official or wait a while?"

I laughed again and said, "Yes, I want us to be official. Just, if I tell you to walk away please come back when the dust settles."

Seth gave me that look again and said, "We really need to work on getting your parents' vile out of your head." I sighed and nodded before sleep suddenly came over me.

One year later, not only had I lost sixty pounds, but Seth and I were married and I had completely cut my parents out of my life. We also have a two month old son named Ronald (or just Ron). I'm still doing make-up and hair for the WWE though I did have to take pregnancy leave which kind of sucked. I'm the happiest I've been in over 20 years, and I believe there will be more happy years to come.