Ai no Unmei

Revlis:

Uhhh….how should I do this? (thinking) Anyways, hi minna-san. It's my first time writing something like this….because 1. I am rookie and 2. It crossed my mind a few times and 3. I am not a die-hard fan of BL…just so you all know and 4. I just happen to like BL…I'm more into the story between the couple rather than the kissing or sex or shipping although I ship at times between two boys that I happen to like so to be clear I am not a full fan…I am NEUTRAL unlike a friend of mine who is a real fujoshi…..

I'm not sure if I'm gonna write any lemons here but only if it is needed because I'm not familiar in that area…I may have to based my scene from other stories but I won't copy them…that is illegal and may clearly anger the original author….hope you guys understand….

Please tell me through a comment on how my story is for you guys and feel free to suggest events….I might, just might consider incorporating your suggestion in my story but I write what comes into mind first before editing….

Warning: Possible lemons…..It is yaio….anime is Junjou Romantica and shipping is Misaki to Shinobu so Uke to Uke but it could either become Seme Misaki to Uke Shinobu or the other way around or Semi Misaki to Uke Shinobu…..I don't know how will this turn out and theme for now is romance and general…my only limit is my imagination and I'm tired of seeing the same old ships and couples…let's try something new….anyways here goes.

Chapter 1: It's gone

/ "Haru-san, I lo…love you." I shyly said.

"I love you too, Misaki…." He huskily whispers in my ear and breathes into my neck, sending my body into fire. He was radiant than the sun, he makes my day but then…..the colors….it's fading.

"Haru-san?" He responds with a peck on my lips but the spark wasn't there.

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Light…...bright light blinds me so suddenly and I find myself in the middle of a grayish, dull room then memories flash. I soon realized that they were mine. My memories flash one after the other, some so colorful and others so dull specifically the ones where I have my moments with...Haru-san. It wasn't there anymore, the love I used to show him. It….it was just...gone. /

I don't know when it started but it used to be colorful…the way we touch, kiss, make love and spend time with each other. I used to look at him in a loving way, now; I believe I've lost it. I've changed, he's changed..…we've, I don't know, fell out of love for each other.

Now, where was I? If you ask, I was at the apartment, lying on the bed that Haru and I share. And Haru-san? He was in the living room, reading a book. I stand up and walk outside the bedroom into the living room. Haru-san was on the couch with a book in hand, whenever I looked at him, I would just stare and admire everything about him but now, things have change and all I can see was how I used to look at him, a close friend. We were too busy that we didn't have time for each other anymore. He's always gone, designing things, Haru's an architect and I, on the other hand, am a full-time editor and graphic illustrator at a publishing company.

I sit down beside Haru-san and he didn't notice me. Not even a sideways glance where I would blush furiously and look away, shy. "Time for an experiment…" I thought. I snatched the book out of his hand and straddle his lap. I crashed my lips unto his, at first it was gentle then I felt Haru-san lick my bottom lip but...he pulled away. He looks away from me and I was sure that we've lost our touch.

"Haru-sa….I mean Haruhiko, can we talk?" I stand up and sat across from him on the floor.

"Uh…sure…" Haruhiko retrieve the book from the floor and put on the table.

"So what do you want to talk about?" He asks

"About…us….." I answer and look him straight in the eye. Without losing eye contact, I continued, "We weren't like this before, you know, we used to have it…that spark...and now… "

"It's gone…." He finishes my statement and I nodded.

"Yes, it's gone. We're dull to each other now, it's not the same…..what I'm trying to say is, Haruhiko, is that…I believe we should….."

"Stop this…" We both said it. Realizations spark between us and to both of our best interests.

"That kiss earlier, there was nothing there…it was like a normal kiss now, when it used to send my body tingling. Haruhiko….Haru-san…I think we should break up, seriously...not just space." I said and looked him in the eye to show him that I'm not changing my mind.

"I…..I think you're right Misaki…recently, I've been waking up every day feeling different than how I used to. You're right, Misaki. We should." Haruhiko holds out a hand to help me stand up.

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"Haru-san/Misaki…I don't want this anymore." We looked each other in the eye as we said it. And surprisingly, we smiled and what's more is that I was happy about it like I was able to lift something heavy off my chest and Haruhiko looks relieve as well.

"Haruhiko, I'm moving out." He nods then I run off to the bedroom to gather my stuff and hopefully seeing tomorrow with colors rather than dullish color I've seeing.

I stood at the open front door waiting for Haruhiko and as soon as he appears, I hugged him with all my might. "Thank you Haruhiko…for everything." He, as well, said the same thing as I did. I smile pretty wide and I pick up my things to go back to my house where Nii-chan and his husband are currently living. As I walk away so does Haruhiko, closing the door.

I looked back and my only thought was, "I'm gonna miss everything but at the same time, I don't regret anything…it was for the best….we both changed. It's just wasn't there anymore." Then I saw color coming back but it wasn't bright as the colors that I was seeing when I was with Haru-san. It was just the normal color like others would see.

As I stand by the train station with all my belongings, I turn on my phone to dial Nii-chan's number.

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"Hello? Misaki, you there?"

"Nii-chan...hi. How are things at home?"

"Everything's been great Misaki."

"And the baka-rabbit?" I asked loudly, in hopes that hentai guy would hear me.

"Who you calling baka, eh...Misa-kun?!" Somebody else answers...

"No one...baka" I grin as I try to feel his murderous aura from over the phone but then I recalled the last statement, "Hey! How many times do I have to freaking tell you that I hate that stupid nickname...you better stop calling me that, BAKA HENTAI!" A tick mark found its way to my head.

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No one answers and I feel triumph over the thought of pissing him even more...

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"You little brat...why I gotta..."

"Now, now Usagi...if you don't stop...I'll be putting green peppers in between your food, you like that?" I heard Nii-chan snatched the phone back.

"No..." Yes, victory...I smile widely

"Good...now be a good rabbit and finish your manuscripts..." I heard sighing from the other side then footsteps moving far away...

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"Misaki, you still there?"

"Yeah, Nii-chan...I'm still here." I answer

"Good...now, Misaki...stop pissing Usagi off...you know he still has a lot of work to do." I can see Nii-chan frowning.

"Gomen...I was just teasing him, you know how he pisses me off when you two got together. It was...it was just payback for the 4 years of my college life."

"Still...I don't wanna be in the middle of any of your fights with him and you guys better be careful...or you'll see my bad side. You don't want to see my bad side...don't you, Misaki?" Nii-chan said devilishly. I felt chills as I remember when I saw it the first time.

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"By the way, why did you call so suddenly, Misaki?

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"Uhh...Misaki?"

"Oh, I almost forgot...Nii-chan, I'm coming home and will be staying there for a while till I find an apartment just right for me. Will it be okay if you get ready for my arrival?"

"Sure, Misaki but...weren't you staying with your boyfriend, Har… "

I cut him off by saying, "Nii-chan, Haruhiko and I broke up. We talked over about the present and we both agreed to stop what was between us…."

"But…"

"But we're still friends, I can guarantee….it's just wasn't there anymore….Look, Nii-chan….we'll talk about it once I get home, okay? The three of us…tonight." I said

"Oh, alright…..We'll be seeing you, travel home safe, okay?"

"Yeah Nii-chan…bye." I ended the call as soon as my ride home arrives ever so quickly.

"Well, I'm home….." I thought. I step in front of the door with all my belongings and rang the doorbell while looking out into the dark. "Why do I feel like that I arrived at the wrong time?" I waited for like a whole ten minutes. "Don't tell me those two are having it…." I thought and reached for the duplicate key in my pocket. I fit in the key and the first things I heard when I open the door were….moans and the smell of love.

"Oh, boy, I knew it…" As I brush my hand in front of my face. I carefully tiptoe up the stairs into the guest room and drop all my stuff into bed then an idea suddenly came to mind. I grin, "Well, time to catch two naughty rabbits into the act….."

I stand in front of their door and slowly slip my camera through the door. I snap a picture without flash and I saw they were rocking in the bed. Perfect, I slip the camera again. "Say, CHEESE!" I thought. 1…2….3…and SNAP! Surely, a bright light momentarily made itself known and I heard surprise gasps. "Who's there?" I heard Usagi's voice.

"Crap!" I thought and scrambled into the guest room quickly with my camera and removed the memory card for…..blackmail plans. I laugh inwardly. Then I heard voices outside of the guest room, I hid the camera back into my bag and act like I was just taking all my clothes out.

BANG!

I felt someone crash into me and did a head locked on me but I twist my body and kicked his ass into oblivion. "Looks like learning self-defense was worth it after all." As I clearly let Usagi know a bit on the world of pain then I was hugged from behind. "Misaki, you're home!" I relax in Nii-chan's arms. I saw the clock and I saw it was minutes till 7. "Nii-chan, Usagi, I bet you guys haven't eaten yet so have about I cook for tonight." Pretending that I didn't know what happened earlier. "Sure, I would love to taste my little bro's cooking once more." I smiled.

I wiggle my way out of his arms and walk towards the door but not before being stopped by Nii-chan. He gave me a look and I answer, "I know….after dinner." He nods. I was going to pretend nothing happened but I couldn't help myself. "Oh and Nii-chan, I think you guys should take a quick bath, you guys stink!" I pinched my nose to show that I mean it and they both blushed.

You know, now I really hate family meetings, I can really feel the tension rising among the three of us. Nii-chan shows me a look that I know all too well.

"Usagi….like I told Nii-chan earlier on the phone. I….I broke up with Haruhiko."

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"I moved out of our apartment this morning and I'll be staying here until I find an apartment that fits my taste…" Usagi nods to let me know that he was listening.

"Now, it might seem that we're just taking a break, giving each other space but no…we talk about it and we agreed to stop what was between us. So either way, he broke up with me and I broke up with him…" I look away for a bit.

"Go on….." Nii-chan encourages me.

"We broke up because…..we changed by…...a lot and very recently, we both felt different like the love wasn't there anymore. Our last kiss proved it….the spark…it wasn't just the same anymore. We were seeing dull colors around each other and only when we broke up does the light shined on us….." I look at them and surprisingly, they smile at me.

"Well, I know my brother and I used to fight but ever since he fell in love with you. He changed…..so what if you're not with him anymore. He'd still be the same and Misaki, I've never got the chance to thank you for removing the strain in our relationship so…thank you." Usagi shows me one of his rarer smiles but I knew he was honest about it.

"You've matured since the last time I saw you. As long as you guys ended it in good terms then I have no problem with it. Welcome home, Misaki." Nii-chan said and I went over where the two were sitting, and hugged them in gratitude.

"Thanks you guys…" I yawn suddenly feeling tired. "Well, I better turn in for the night. I had a rough travel from there to here." I make my way to the stairs but not before shouting, "If both of you are going to continue what got interrupted earlier, just make sure I won't hear the bed creaking back and forth or…..the sexy little moans you make Nii-chan or the groans you make Aki-kun when it feels…so tttiiiggghhhttt! Goodnight…." I quickly shut and lock the doors but it felt good knowing that they were blushing so red downstairs right now.

I took a quick shower and I lay down my bed, drained of energy. "3 whole years and after all that, single again, huh?" I thought. "No matter, I'm just glad we ended in good terms." I added as I found my eyes shutting on their own. "Goodbye, dull colors….we'll meet again soon….."

Revlis:

Done…gosh I feel so nervous and scared and excited and I don't know how this story is going to be in the middle, in the end…..anyways….hope you guys like it….see ya and this is Revlis, signing out…..

P.S. I don't own the picture by the way...