Summary:
The story of Derek and Karen and the obstacles they must overcome in order to be together.
"Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy; anger, tears, laughter. It's when you want to be together despite it all. That's when you truly love another. I'm sure of it." –Unknown
A/N:
This is my first try at writing fanfiction so be nice. This is has not been beta'd so excuse the mistakes.
Dpov
What was I thinking when I tried to get her to sleep with me? If I'm honest I figured she's green, which translates to being eager to please, and in my experience that equals sleeping with the director for a better shot at getting the part. I am the director, Derek Wills, and she Karen Cartwright, rejected me. And believe it or not, I respect her more for it. She knows she's talented, maybe not exactly how much, but she knows she has what it takes and only wants to be recognized for it, for her talent.
And now, I watch her during rehearsals, and I see Marilyn Monroe. I'm not sure if it's because I'm attracted to her or because she is supposed to be Marilyn. For the moment she is acting as Marilyn while we wait for Rebecca Duvall to show up and be the star. See after the auditions we selected Ivy as Marilyn, but after she bombed the workshop we decided we needed an outside source to be the star. So now Rebecca Duvall is Marilyn and Karen is her understudy. As I am watching her sing I feel this deep connection to her. I can't explain it but I wish I could explore it; with her, preferably naked.
Kpov
Why is he watching me like that? The ensemble is always teasing me about the way he looks at me. They think Derek wants me. I don't think he does, I mean he did once but then he moved on to Ivy, and besides I'm with Dev. I usually don't see what they are talking about. But today I do. Today Derek is looking at me like if he's a starving lion and I'm a piece of meat. And I don't understand why. Sure from the beginning I thought he was attractive, I'm not blind, but I have Dev, although things aren't that great at the moment, I still love him.
A month later
Kpov
As I am packing for the previews I can't help but feel relieved. Dev and I have been fighting nonstop or so it seems. We fight about everything; my schedule, my friends, and even Derek. Apparently Dev has jumped on the Derek wants Karen train so now Dev doesn't want me anywhere near Derek. But hello! He's my director I can't avoid him and besides If I'm honest, I don't want to. Derek is not so bad anymore and I almost consider him a friend. Leaving for the previews is like a godsend, a much needed break from Dev and it will give me a chance to think things through without Dev's constant questions and accusations.
"So I'm all packed, I'll text you when we get there, is that okay Dev?"
"It has to be, right?"
"Dev I'm leaving, I don't want to fight"
"You're right, I'm sorry, I'm just going to miss you."
"I'll miss you too"
I give him a hug and can't help but sigh inwardly. Even now as I am getting ready to leave he can't help but take a jab at me. Will this ever get better? I'm not sure if I even want this anymore. We say our goodbyes and I get a taxi to the studio where we are meeting everyone to get the bus to our destination; Boston.
Dpov
Outside the studio
Oh good everyone is on time, well everyone except for Rebecca, but that's to be expected, she's a diva. I look to the left and notice Karen. Why does she look upset? To the others she probably looks happy and just a tad nervous, but to me she doesn't. Something is wrong and I know it, she's not crying or frowning but I can read her. I have to hand it to her; she's playing her part perfectly, smiling at the right moments and answering with enthusiasm when asked a question. But if you know Karen, like I do, her eyes and body language tell you what she is not. She's edgy and upset but doesn't want anyone to know. Umm I'll have to think of an excuse to get her to sit next to me on the bus so I can speak to her.
Kpov
What is Jessica saying again? Stupid Dev even when he's not here, he still manages to ruin my day. I can't stop thinking about our goodbye this morning. He's known that being in a musical on Broadway has always been my dream and goal. And now he's acting like I changed my plans without telling him. I can't help but wonder if he being supportive of my career was just an act because he didn't think I would get a role. There's a tingling on the back of my neck, the feeling of being watched, but not by just a random person; it's the feeling I get when Derek is watching me. Sure enough I look up and lock eyes with him. We both don't look away, for what seems like minutes, but in reality was only a couple of seconds, he winks at me before he looks away though, and I instantly feel better. I can't explain it but something about him makes me both nervous and calm at the same time. It doesn't make sense. Derek just knows when I need to be coddled, or when he needs to be firm with me, in order to snap me out of my moods. We are so in sync it's scary. Dev and I used to be like that.
A/N:
So there it is. Let me know what you guys think and if I should continue it. I would appreciate any feedback. Thanks.