Title: Drops of Jupiter

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?
One without a permanent scar
and did you missed me
while you were looking for yourself out there?

Drops of Jupiter by Train

Chapter 1: Love until we bleed

Nick.

"Uncle Nicky!" Exclaimed the four year old girl, waddling over towards the window, her blond hair was tied in two messy pick tails. The small girl looked towards her favorite uncle with curiosity, her eyes following his gaze. The sun was just rising from behind what she called the "flower hill" leaving an orange tint to the sky which would soon be replaced with light sky blue. Fearing to take another step she stood there the room in complete silence but she dare not make a move.

The small girl had only ever seen her uncle like this once in her life, she was just a baby and the memory was foggy but she could make out the same sadness that shinned through his dark orbs. Most people would think a child her age wouldn't be able to pick up those types of things, but there was a lot adults didn't know about the blond girl. But yet the world underestimates her because of her age. The small girl now finding the courage slowly walked over to her uncle tapping his shoulder slightly making him wince from the touch.

"Yes Bela?" he asked trying to muster the best smile he possibly could. But his smile wasn't right, like a photo left out in the sun to long; it's changed its color and looks sort of distorted. But he tried knowing he couldn't even fool a four year what chance do I have to fool Joe? Even I can't even make his kid think I'm okay? He asked himself. Nick turned his body towards the small girl tearing his eyes away from the sky.

"What do you need sweetie heart?"

"Nothing I just wanted to make sure you were okay"

He laughed to himself; Bela was always the type of child none of them could understand. Although having a mother like Selena it isn't a surprise that she turned out such a caring person even at this tender age.

"I'm fine, trust me. Why don't go and get some more sleep?" he suggested. Bela looked at him with a look she could have only inherited from selena that "Okay but I know you're not okay" look. Nick watched the young girl disappear from his view. He waited until he heard the soft footsteps against the wooden floor disappear before letting his smile fade. Once again he let himself gaze towards the backyard. And if he closed his eyes he could see her, in his mind a perfect imagine. She may be gone but she's always in his mind be that sixteen year old girl he fell for.

Not being able to stand it any longer, he stood up opening the sliding door stepping into the green grass of the back yard. The wind blew softly against his face, and he could hear her voice in the wind.

"Nick I love you"

"I can't stay don't you understand!"

"Please don't make this harder than it has to be"

A single tear fell from his eye, falling down his check. He could taste her; smell her in the area around him, why not? They'd spent so much time in his yard and everyone knew it. They all knew that when he gazed out to watch the grass remain still he wasn't actually looking at the grass, he was looking at her. It may have hurt like nothing else; but he wouldn't trade the memories for anything. And he'd never want to forget them.

Nick sat down in the grass, lying down so he could feel the wetness against his back. The sky was blue, the orange having left, and Nick was sure everyone would be up soon. So he closed his eyes, and slowly he fell asleep to the sound of the wind calling his name and whispering smoothing words to him.

"Nick wake up" a female voice called softly rubbing him arm genteel. He squinted his eyes letting light in; he could just make out the shadow to know who it was. He nods his head, rubbing his eyes from tiredness "yeah okay Selena I'll be right in". She nodded before retreating back into the house, her black hair moving slightly in the window as she goes. He'd often joked how weird it was that both Joe and Selena have black hair but Bela was blond, though he knew Selena would never cheat on his brother.

Joe and Selena had been together for seven year, and seemed to get stronger every day. Two children, two jobs and they still seemed to make time for each other, something most couples don't seem to be able to do. Nick had once wanted what Joe had more than anything, but now that seemed like a distant memoirs. Like a photo that you can't remember taking no matter how hard you try. Nick stood up taking a deep breath before entering the house, most probably to have yet another fight with Joe.

He didn't want to fight with Joe, but his older brother just could understand that he didn't want to be like him. He could hear the shouts that irrupted from his brother when Nick told him that he was planning to leave college.

"And what exactly are you planning to do with your life?" Joe had asked

"I don't know" had been Nick's response.

"That's my point Nick! I understand you're confused but that's what college is for, it helps you find out how you want to be"

"Can't you just respect my wishes?" Nick had pleaded, why couldn't Joe just understand? Nick had thought to himself.

"I can't respect something I know is wrong" Joe had answered, ending the conversation by walking out of the room, leaving Nick to stand there like the complete fool he felt he was.

That fight had only been a couple of days ago and Joe had yet to stay a word to his younger brother. While Nick enjoyed the silence he didn't enjoy the glances Joe would throw his way. But apparently Joe had decided to speak even if it wasn't exactly what Nick wanted to hear at the present moment

"What your bed not good enough now" Joe was sitting at the kitchen table when Nick entered.

"Joe!" Selena scolded, but Nick held his up to her telling her that it was alright.

"Not that's it's any of your business but I couldn't sleep so I went outside for someone fresh air and fell asleep" It wasn't a complete lie, but Nick knew if he'd told Joe the truth about wanting to be closer to her. Joe would just sigh and book Nick another appointment with Dr. James and Nick wouldn't have it; the guy was crazier than Nick himself!

"Would you like some breakfast?" Selena asked breaking Nick from his thoughts. Nick looked her way, glazing at her delicate features before muttering "No thank you" and heading up stairs. From the stair case he could hear the silent fight between them, they were trying to be as quite as possible but both being passionate people it rarely worked out for them.

"Selena for god's sake! His 21 his got to get over her sometime"

"Like it's that easy for him Joe, Miley meant everything to him"

"Don't you think I know that, but she's not coming back and Nick has to move on!"

"When did you turn into such a Jerk?"

Nick didn't want to listen anymore, heading towards his room. He knew his brother was right; he'd have to move on as some point. But didn't he understand how hard it was to get rid of the memoires that felt like a permanent scar. He closed the door behind him only to find both Ben and Bela sitting on his bed playing one of his bored games. He smiled as Ben accused Bela of cheated, while the blonde merely shrugged her shoulders and told her older brother to deal with it.

"Hey why don't you both go down and get something to eat? Uncle Nick has to change" Nick suggested. Bela gazed up at her uncle and knew what that single meant, the four year old elbowed Ben who nodded and they both stood from the bed.

"It doesn't matter I won anyway!" exclaimed Bela as they headed for the door

"No you didn't!"

Nick couldn't help but laugh as he herd their chants all the way down the hall. They sounded exactly Joe and him when they were kids, though Joe and he had a bigger age difference. But that didn't seem to bother his brother at the time who didn't mind Nick tagging along. It was Joe who'd taught his younger brother how to catch a ball or ride a bike. Joe had been looking out for Nick his whole life, and Nick knew Joe cared about him more than words could express. Siblings were for life, and Joe took that literally. When their mom had died (their good for nothing father having run off long before that) Joe came back from living in the city, taking a job so Nick could continue high school without interruption. And Nick knew even though his brother always said he wouldn't have meet Selena if he hadn't that Joe gave up his dream for Nick.

A writer and Joe were good to. Now Joe worked for a commercial company; a nine to nine job that often meant having to fly to different parts of the country. All Nick wanted to do was be able to make Joe proud but also feel like he wasn't letting himself down, that was easy thought than done.

Walking over to his chest of drawers he pulled out a clean pair of track pants and a base ball t-shirt before heading for the shower.

Miley.

Home was the only word Miley could think of as she stood in front of her child hood home. Nothing had change since she left expect her mother had changed the mail box from "Cyrus" to "Lovato". Miley winced remembering that she hadn't even come to her mother's wedding having been to outraged to even think about jumping on a plane and attending. She was surprised how that one thing could make her look at the house completely different, she didn't even know if her mother would want her here.

After all she had a new family know, with consisted of two new daughters and probably grand kids. She knew Demi well enough to know the girl would be having kids as soon as possible; of course there was age difference between the two. Miley had always gotten along fine with the Lovato family, but her mother actually marrying the man! That was completely different, that would be like erasing her father, something she just couldn't stand for.

"Miley your fathers been died since you were eight! Don't I get to be happy?" her mother had pleaded into the phone, that cold November afternoon. Miley could remember the rain as it pounded against her apartment window, the wind hollowing like wolves hungry.

"Can't you be happy without a man?" she had asked pacing the floor.

"What is this really about Miley? Me marrying someone else or that fact that you hate yourself for leaving" Miley hadn't even responded she just hug up before saying something she would inevitably regret. That was the last time she'd made any sort of contact with her mother and that was over two years ago. Now she stood there not having the smallest idea what she doing apart from the fact she felt empty, numb.

She made her way up the path her knuckles coming in contact with the door. She waited, after five minutes Miley was about to turn around and go back to where she'd come when the door open. There in the door way stood a girl with long brown hair, which now had a blond tint to it the woman didn't look that much older than Miley. Her eyes widened in shock but more surprise at the girl that stood before her.

"Miley?"

"Hey Demi"

Miley's noticed her voice sounded rough, as though she parched even though she felt perfectly fine. There was silence for a moment time unfroze and Demi pulled Miley to her enveloping the younger girl in a hug.

"It's been way to long Miles" Demi said when they detached using the Nickname Miley hadn't heard anyone call her in a long time.

"Yeah it has" she answered not quite knowing what to say.

"Well come one in"

Miley couldn't remember a time when Demi's voice didn't seem happy lucky I wonder what that feels like. She asked herself as she was led into the house. Apart from baby toys that scattered across the living room floor nothing had really changed inside the house either, more pictures had been added; like Demi's high school graduation, college graduations, and Madison's middle school photo.

Madison Demi's younger sister would be in her senior year Miley thought trying to calculate the age difference between them. From the corner from her eyes she could see Demi taking her in, trying to finger her out. Go ahead and try! Miley mentally laughed to herself, Demi didn't even have a chance, after all if Miley couldn't even finger herself out what chance did Demi have.

"Demi who was at the door?" asked the voice of none other than Trish Lovato. The blond woman walked into the living her breath taken away by what she saw. Miley could see it in her mother's eyes, the hurt that glazed over them for a moment.

"I'm sorry I should be here" she muttered heading for the door.

"NO!" her mother exclaimed, grasping Miley's wrist enabling her from moving. Miley expected her to shout or scream, she didn't expect what happened next. Trish let out a sob, and threw her arms around her daughter clinging to her as though she would fade away at any moment.

"You don't know how long I've waited for you to come home"

"So you don't hate me?" Miley asked in a timed voice afraid to hear the answer.

Trish took a step back looked into her daughters eyes which were filled with pain, longing. She took Miley's hand in hers, rubbing smoothing circles with her thumb.

"I could never hate you, Miles"

Tears escaped Miley's eyes falling down her tanned skin. Then something inside her broke, she wrapped her arms around her mother and began to cry "Mom am so sorry!" she cried. Trish didn't say anything just let Miley weep in her arms, letting her broken child let all her anger and sadness out through the tears that fell.

"Your forgiven just promise your won't leave home like that without telling me"

"I promise Mom"

The day went passed fast. There was allot to catch up on, and Miley was more eager as Demi filled her in to everything that had happened in her absence. Demi had gotten married and had a daughter named sage who was five years old. She'd meet her husband while she was away at college and the two decided to move back to Texas to start a family. Madison just like Miley had thought was in her senior year at high school, Demi gushed on about how like Miley she was.

Demi had then gone on the explain how soon after Miley left her father and Madison had moved in. Demi even described the wedding which sounded perfect, just the way Trish had always wanted. Miley couldn't help but smile at thought, her mother and father hadn't been able to afford the traditional wedding.

Demi then went on to prod Miley of what living in New York was like, Miley tired to give details without giving away any of the bad stuff. Miley noticed Demi making a special effort not to mention any Jonas, even though she almost slipped up once. Selena had been best friends and Miley speculated they still where. She wanted more than anything to ask about Nick but bite her tongue every time she felt herself about to ask.

After dinner Miley told everyone she was tried and returned to her room, that hadn't been touched since she'd left.. Once she heard Demi and Sterling who wasn't a bad good to her relief saying goodbye. She climbed out of the window, she remembered how she would sit on the roof for hours just looked up at the sky. Miley felt someone watching her, slowly her gaze fell from the night sky towards the house that sat opposite.

There was only one window lit, and their looking out at the window was finger. Miley could just make out the curly hair to know who it was. Their eyes locked for a moment, her blue with his dark brown. Then the light turned off suddenly and Miley could no longer see the figure. But one looked was all it took to for her to make up her mind

I still love him

Now we're bound to linger on
we drink the fatal drop
then love until we bleed
then fall apart in parts

Until We Bleed (Feat. Lykke Li)

Authors Note: OMG I'm back. I've had serious writers Block with the rest of my stories, but I'm going to try and update "I fall as hard as I try" soon I promise. Please let me know what your think of this story. Should I continue it or not

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