Alone in This World
What else can you do when fate separates you from your big crush? Nothing more than loneliness. It's since august 13 from last year I'm alone, thinking about her every single day. Her name is Tanya. We had a really good relationship. But, guess fate wanted us apart. Now she is far away from me, living somewhere in this world, while I'm here in New Hampshire, with loneliness as my only companion. Next month I start classes in Dartmouth, and it was 1 month ago Tanya left me, we were going to have classes together, everything paid by me. Remembering when she left me hurts.
*Flashback*
Tanya: Edward, I have something important to say
I had just entered our apartment, she was waiting for me in the living room
Edward: Uhm, sure honey, what's going on?
I went to her and tried to kiss her lips, but she got away
Tanya: This is serious Edward, please, take a sit
She tapped the couch on the spot next to her for me to sit, I did what she asked me for. She looked sad and she was looking at the floor, I tried to read her face, but she was hiding her emotions.
Tanya: Edward, I have to leave, I'm sorry, It's not I don't love you, it's just, I can't keep this going on. I love you so much, and I'm afraid I can end hurt, this is too much for me, this is new for me, and I cannot keep up with this feelings, I'm so sorry for this, but I have to leave far away from you, and try to forget you, although it might be impossible for me, I have to leave.
I was in shock, I could not find my voice Edward say something I said to myself, but nothing came out, I could not say a thing, I could not convince her to please stay, that we could go slowly through our relationship, but that she had to stay, but I couldn't and suddenly she was away, I went to our room, and her things were gone, everything about us was gone, no more Tanya, I sighed and in less than a second I was on the floor, I wanted to cry, but nothing would come out. Nothing.
*End of Flashback*
I felt a big hole in chest when I thought about her, I was in so much pain, since the second she left I will never go through this, my life is miserable and nothing will ever change this.