This is a Dark Mimi poem. She's struggling with a deadly disease; counting the last few days of her life. One-shot poem. I'm just warming up for my super Mimato coming this summer. Oh, and about the him, you can put Tai, Matt, Joe, Izzy or anyone you fancy. Keep loving me!
Helpless
She raised up her chestnut brown head and looked up weakly at the computer screen. Attempt to redial 9. If she couldn't even connect to the net, how was she going to e-mail him and tell him? She hadn't the courage to face him. After all, these were her last days… the last days of Mimi Tachikawa…
It's burning me inside; I'm dying to let go
My fake smile, my laugh; all a mere show
Sometimes I ask him why? Why me?
I want to live, Isn't that obvious to see
For me every sunrise is just a sunset
Pain and agony are my friends; humility is my pet
Nobody knows that I'm dying every day
It's a deep dark secret that I choose not to give away
The darkness of my world is eating up my light
Before I've begun I know I've lost the fight
I know that my life is a big wasteland
It'll get wiped away, like footprints on sand
People laugh, they talk and so do I
But still I cannot stand with my head held high
Every time I look up, I'm forced to look down
Every time I try to smile, it turns into a frown
This reality, I just cannot bear
Who am I to say that I don't really care?
It's really very hard to count your days
When you have cancer, there aren't many ways…