In the past couple of weeks, I've been more surly than ever, but it's not like many people can tell even my family and friends have troubles at times. They'd tell you that the last couple of months I've been so much happier than I had been since his first love. I had an air to me that was a lot like I was before her death. If you ask them what's wrong with me they'd only be able to answer, "I don't know," because I won't tell them what happened. They don't even know what had been the source of his happiness.
"Derek Tobias Hale, stop sulking right this moment," a loud a loud and obnoxious voice booms behind my bedroom door, but I don't want to get up from my little nest I had created for myself... So my older sister decided that she'd let herself in, "Derek this is enough. I don't know what happened, but we're worried. Is this another Kate thing? I told you to let me get to know people before you get serious about anyone?"
Whimpering like a wounded pup I shake my head, "No… He's nothing like Kate. He loved me… I thought he did at least, but when he found out that I'm a… you know… he freaked and kicked me out of his house. He won't answer any of my calls or messages, Laura I feel worse than I did when I had lost Paige. I don't know what to do with myself."
"Ohh… Derek, is he your mate? How'd he find out?"
"I think so… I'm not really sure, really. Though my wolf rather likes him a lot.I might have flashed my eyes at a kid who wouldn't stop picking on his daughter. They wouldn't stop so we both got upset."
"A parent, Jesus Der you know how to pick them to don't you. How old is the pair? Where's the mother?"
"She abandoned the baby with him and his father. Ran off with a simple note saying that she had no plans to take care of the baby. He's 22 no wand his little girl is going to be 4 soon. I already have the present and everything. I even told him I'd put in a good word with Erica so she can plan the party and everything the guy attracts all kinds of people."
"Would you still do all of that for him even after what he did?"
I look at my sister as I nod my head slowly but seriously, "Of course, I would. Laura, I love him, even after my big reveal and his reaction. I think I'll always love him."
Laura stares at me and she must wonder how we're related, but she always said that there still is a great kindness in my heart that the wrong kind of people is drawn to. I know she wants to check Stiles out, but I can't let her. She'll try whatever she can to figure out who it is, but he doesn't want to be part of this world so he'll be my sad lil secret.
" Der, leave please tell me who's this?"
"No Laura. you're scaring away even more and I don't want that."
" What do you mean Derek? He kicked you out of his home and you want to act like that never happened. Do you really love him that much?"
"Laura, he's my mate. I just can't find it in myself to be mad at him. A bit disappointed, but I'm not mad. Now get the hell out of my apartment. I'd like to be alone."
"Oh for fuck's sake, Der. You've been cooped up in your apartment for way too long. I can cover for you at the office and thank god you can do most of what you do on your computer, but this is getting to be too much. You know what I'm calling our mother."
At the mention of our mother I shoot up from my bed looming over my sister as I shout, "Don't you dare, Laura, or else I'll tell her about your little occurrence."
"You wouldn't," it's not uncommon for us to challenge each other, but there; something a bit more violent in the air at this one.
Laura's shoulders sag in defeat for now as she sighs, "Fine. We'll put this on hold for now, but I swear if you don't come into the office for work on Monday I'm calling our mother. Though she has enough on her plate with Sheriff Stilinski since there seems to be a rogue werewolf running around town."
"A rogue wolf… where has it been spotted?"
"The college, that cute little bookstore you love downtown, even close by the sheriff's housing district… Why?"
At the mention of being close to the sheriff's home, I race to my dresser pulling on clothes as fast as my body will allow me.
"Oh my god those are areas where your lover boy hangs out, isn't it?"
With a sigh as I put on my shoes, "Yes, I met him at the bookstore, he's still at the college for a few classes, and from what I know his apartment is on the edge of the housing district where the sheriff lives and he goes for runs."
Laura gasps as she looks at me, "Well aren't you the little stalker."
"I didn't stalk him. I was dating him. I went on runs with him, I met him at the store, and he was always complaining about classes and how it cut time he had with his daughter."
"Oh my gosh you two are just too cute. You know what it's going to be my goal to get the two of you back together and through your fucking mess."
I end up stooping down to a child by sticking my tongue out at my sister as I race out the door as if my life depended on it…. In a way it does. The sad tale that most wolves would die with their mate or they could even go mad. That's not something I could put my pack through again. It's bad enough that Uncle Peter went a little crazy when his mate had turned him away and stayed with the family practice. Though another problem is I might be a beta, but I had created my own little personal pack within my mother's pack that I've been in charge of for a couple years. The 3 betas seem to listen to me better than my mother their true alpha. Right now though I'm not sure what kind of leader I am since Stiles and I broke up…. Did we break up sure he's been ignoring all forms of communication and I've been wallowing in my own self-pity for how long?

I find myself circling the woods around Stiles and his father's homes wondering just how I had let myself fall into this mess all over again. After Paige died I had drilled into my head that humans are weak fickle creatures that are fragile beyond anything in the world, but ever since I first met Stiles he has been anything but that. Stiles is a walking contradiction in more ways than 1, but that's what made him so special and how it was so easy for a simple human like him to weasel his way into my life so fast… Plus him making me fall in love for the first time in a long time.
Right now patrolling the 2 houses I wouldn't care if I died as long as I knew Stiles would live a long happy life with his lil girl. After checking on the sheriff's house and not finding any kind of strange scents I head back to the woods near Stile's apartment, where I find a faint scent trail that I lose a few yards away. Sighing I make his way back to my car I parked a block or so from the apartment.
"Derek," I hear someone call out to me.
I turn around to see Stiles standing there looking awkward.
"Stiles…" I'm standing there looking at Stiles as if it's the first time I saw him and him shined as bright as the sun.
"Derek, what are you doing here? Have you been the one running around outside the apartment and my dad's house?"
"Only cause a rogue wolf is running around out here. I've been trying to track him, but I haven't had any luck. Have you noticed anyone new to the area?"
"Why should it matter?"
"Well it's custom for a new wolf in the area to get the okay by the alpha, but there's still some that ignore it."
"I'm guessing the ones that ignore usually mean trouble," with me nodding my head he sighs, "Do you have an idea of what the wolf wants?"
You, "No, not really. All I know he's been spotted in this area plus the school. So I was a lil worried about you and Clare."
Stiles gives me a look, "You're lying to me, your eyebrows did that thing they do when you lie. You'd be terrible at poker."
"He's been everywhere you spend a lot of time at I'm worried that cause I was close to you that he'd be after you. It's probably my fault." Like everything else Paige dying and Kate trying to use me to kill my family for being what we were born as, but I guess we're something that the world will always fear.
"Derek, umm… Clare misses you a lot."
I feel as if he had shot me with a wolfsbane arrow right in the heart, "I miss her too"
"She told me to tell you that even though I'm not being nice to you she expects to see her for her birthday."
I smile sadly, "She's a sweet girl to care about a monster like me."
I Stiles scent changes to something that was worried about something close to guilt, but before I can say anything my phone goes off.
"What?" I answer cause I could have changed everything in what's between Stiles and me.
"Sorry to bother you, but we have some trouble it seems that someone broke into your apartment and threw stuff around. We need you come back to make sure nothing is stolen."
I sigh as I look at Stiles who's scent is still smelling guilty and a bit as my sisters would put it angsty, plus something else but I can't tell what exactly it is.
"I'll be right there, Issac. Just keep an eye on the place," I hang up and look at Stiles. "Sorry someone apparently broke into my apartment. If you still have my number or email just message me the details and I'll see you then."
I turn to leave when I hear Stiles call out, "Wait." I turn around and lift up an eyebrow, "You should come over sometime tomorrow. I have off and Clare and I just have a movie marathon planned."
I nod my head, "I'll see how this whole break-in is and I'll talk to you later."
"You could always call my dad," Stiles calls after me and I simply lift my arm and wave at him as I climb into my car.

As I walk into the broken apartment buildings front door, "Well I think I'll have to call this in."
Isaac nods his head, "I was waiting for you to give the okay too, but there's the slight issue that it might be a slight feral wolf. Can't you tell by the shape of the hole in the door."'
"Not too much, it's pretty busted to pieces. How's the apartment door looking?"
"Just as bad. Though it seemed they changed forms when they got inside which is the only bright side of this mess. Everything is tossed. How long have you been gone?"
I shrug my shoulders, "Maybe most of the day. I left shortly after Laura barged into my home."
"Derek, did you really lose track of time? That was this morning over 12 hours ago."
"Really… Man, I guess my lazing around the house has been pretty unhealthy."
"It's more than that, Derek," I hear Erica call out towards me, "You've been downright emo."
I flick her off as I look at her, "Well thank you for volunteering to clean up this fucking mess."
She doesn't even challenge me instead she sighs and starts picking things up while Boyd and Isaac follow her. As we they pick up the common area I go into my room and notice the small little box that I had kept Clare's present in and also a few items left from Stiles.
"Well shit," I mumble.
"What?" I hear the 3 other betas yell from the other room.
"Well, I think I know what's missing. The box I had a present and such in."
"For the guy, you were dating right. We had an idea you were seeing someone, but Laura told us."
"Of course she did. Did she tell anyone else?"
They shake their head as they look at each other, "Not that we know. She said because we're closer to you it'd be good to know what was going on, but also she knows you'd never trust her again."
I nod my head glad that Erica also seemed to have kept her mouth shut on who's little girl party I had helped plan and pay for.
"By the way, Derek is the deal still up on the table?" Erica asks as finds herself leaning against my bedroom doorway.
"Yes, of course. You still keep our deal I'll keep mine. I'm sure the fashion department will love their new edition. Just prove to them why you should stay and you're good."
She nods her head as Isaac walks into view, "I called the police they're sending someone over to look at the damage. Though I'm not sure what humans will be able to do about this mess."
"Cause there are still other people in the building though they are all from our community, but they need to know that we take their safety seriously. I do still own this place."
It's a couple minute when Sheriff Stilinski walks into view and I can't help but mumble to myself, "Shoot me, now."
Erica giggles a lil as makes herself scarce. Isaac, Boyd, and Erica give their statements as I give my own.
Though Stilinski gives me a hard look as he asks, "Where were you when this happened?"
Great another white lie to tell to Stile's father… fuck my life, "I was taking a walk in the woods. I thought I'd need some nice clear air after staying indoors for over a week."
He nods his head as he tells Parish to head down to the station and how he'd meet him there. At the same time, Erica is pushing my other betas out of the apartment.
"Derek, we both know that this apartment is supposed to be warded so I have to ask what happened?"
"I'm not sure. Like I said I went for a walk after being cooped up for so long and then I got a call from Isaac telling me someone had broke in. Though he didn't say what the front doors looked like."
"Your mother filled me in on the rogue wolf. I'm not happy about this much like I'm not all that happy to see you. I'm not going to push you to figure out what the hell happened between you and my son…"
"He found out," I interrupt sheriff to tell him.
"He found out what?"
"What I am. He found out then kicked me out while throwing my stuff out his window. Though apparently Clare still wants me to go to her birthday party."
I watch the older man in front of me give a gentle smile, "She's a sweet girl. She does miss you and Stiles might not admit it yet, but he misses you as well. My boy though hasn't really let himself be happy since his mother died. I'll tell you a lil secret cause I like you, prove to him that even being what you are that he's perfect the way he is, you truly love him, and you plan to never leave him. Just don't be like that witch Heather did. Look son Clare loves you like another parent. She's a lonely girl who had closed herself off from the world cause she noticed her father had done the same. He had stopped dating after no one really stuck around like you had after he introduced Clare."
I nod my head as I chuckle, "I know. He flat out told me on our first date that he had a beautiful little girl before he had stormed out of the restaurant. I had to race after him to tell him that I didn't care. I spent a lot of time proving that… Didn't I?" I didn't mean for my voice to sound weak, but I needed to know.
"You had you see my son he likes to sabotage things when they're getting good not believing he deserves them or that they should happen. It's been like that ever since his mother first got sick and I certainly not help with how I was after she had died. You brought out that piece of him that he was missing. He's just being an idiot Derek. Just give him some time and he'll snap right out of it. Just remember what I told you to prove to him that you love him, you won't leave, that he deserves you, also that Clare will be put in front of anything else in the world even him if it ever came to it. I know that sounds tough, but she's been his entire world since he picked her up for the first time. He loves you Derek why else would he let you so close to his little girl." After what he said the sheriff… No, umm Noah as he tells me to call him had left saying he'd call me if they got any leads. I didn't expect his call to tell me that Stiles and Clare are missing the apartment building door and his apartment door both look like mine. The only difference between our apartments is there seems to be a bit of blood in Stiles'.