Diclaimer: I do not own any of the Gintama Characters ok?

Chapter 1: Sorry.

Kondo Isao was a man of immense patience and virtue, especially when it came to his beloved, a "delicate" flower Otae Shimura. Kondo had been pursuing her for years, relentlessly but to no avail. His feelings of pure love and admiration was met with kicks, punches that sent him flying into walls, broken noses, bleeding from his cranium, he even ended up in the hospital a few times well but that didn't deter him from pursuing his one true love! Nope not Kondo aka Gorilla-san, he was positive his feelings were getting through to his beloved, he could feel it.

He just finished up his rounds with Sougo and Toushi, so he went and bought flowers for his flower. He grinned as the shop keeper asked him if the flowers were for his special lady.

"Er well….. yes you could say that ahahahahahahaha!" He laughed putting an hand behind his head. Some whispered as he passed, talking loud enough for him to hear.

"You see that man there? He is that stalker Shimura-san was telling me about!"

"Eh? He's a shinsengumi? Oh my! How the great shinsengumi has fallen to have even criminals on their team."

"Poor man, he just won't give up on that girl, it's obvious she doesn't love him like that."

"What an idiot, how many years has he been pursuing that young lady and to no avail, some men just can't accept no."

Kondo tried to ignore them, like he usually did but for some reason, the words were hitting him hard tonight. He clutched the flowers to his chest, thanked the cashier and walked out of the store. It had been about 4 years since he had been pursuing the maiden Otae but yet…. He didn't know how to get her to open up to him. Every time he saw her he felt his heart thump like crazy, those butterflies in his stomach didn't ever seem to go away.

Little Brother Shinpachi grew to accept him….. somewhat….. well at least he didn't get pissed when he tried to call him his little brother instead he just said

"I'm not your brother." And walk off. Sougo and Toushi didn't know why he even bothered to pursue Otae, as far as they were concerned she was a lost cause and he needed to move on. Of course they ended up arguing about her and eventually gave into his point of views. He saw it, that pure light that emitted from her the sweet soul she is ever since that time when they first met she told him she would accept a man with a hairy buttocks and all. He was sure it was meant to be…. It's just that she needed a little more convincing that's all.

He approached her brothel, bouquet in hand and ready to proclaim his undying love for the thousandth time and asking her to marry him again. He approached her just like he always had, and she looked at him with annoyance on her face just like she always had. Then she would say

"Ah! Who let a gorilla in here? Some one call the zoo and ask if they lost it!" she said with a mocking smile on her face and others around started to laugh. He felt a pang in his chest, strange…. That never happened before. He shrugged it off

"Otae-san I have come to profess my undying love for you!" he said handing her the flowers with a stupid grin on his face, she took them and started sneezing. Her eyes became instantly swollen and everyone around her cringed at her…. Well let's just say not as pretty face. She looked in the water's reflection and shrieked in horror.

She stood up and clenched her fist as she silently shook in anger, Kondo sensing approaching danger panicked and started apologizing quickly

"Ah! O-Otae-san I I I am sorry! I didn't know you were allergic to carnations! I swear I didn't mean to-

"….leave." she whispered trembling in silent anger. He tried to explain what had happened, fearing that the beauty's anger was going to manifest an hundred fold

"I thought you would have liked them, I swear if I knew you were allergic I would not have bought them I would have gotten irises instead and I-"

" LEAVE!" Otae semi screamed and looked at him, he was shocked to see tears cascading from her swollen eyes.

"What… have I done to deserve to be harassed like this? All I wanted was to live a worry free life and become rich with the money I earned, open a small business that would expand and make me a millionare. Marry a nice husband have two children, a son and a daughter and then as I got older live with him by the sea side…. Away from all the troubles of this life." She glared at him with bitterness and continued "But…. You, why won't you leave me alone? All I want is peace and quiet, don't you understand? I'll never love or even marry a guy like you!" She yelled and threw the flowers in his face.

Her words cut him deeper than any katana he ever had been cut by, none of her violent episodes compared to the words she just spoke to him because he knew it was coming from her heart.

Without another word Kondo stood up and walked out of the brothel. He walked in silence not even noticing where he was going. If he had been in his right frame of mind, he would have been able to tell that he was walking farther away from town and into the forest surrounding the town. He came closer to the fast flowing river, closer and closer he drew near to the rapid fast flowing waters. He halted as he felt his toes touch the rivers cool water, it was beckoning him gently as the waters brushed against his feet.

"you… seem to want me more than Otae-san will ever want me…. Perhaps it's for the best if I allow myself this one selfish bit of happiness…. " He thought as he plunged into the fast flowing currents.

Just like what he heard of when you are about die, he saw his life flash before his eyes from when he was just a small baby with his mother and father, to when he met Sougo and Toshi at the doujo, the Odd Jobs Crew, the Shinsengumi members all cheering at him and chanting captain. He felt his heart break at their happy faces, knowing very well what would be their reactions at the news of his approaching death.

'Sougo, Toushi….I am sorry that you had to put up with this idiot and that I won't be able be there for you anymore…. Take care…. Of our shinsengumi…."

As he was about to take his last breath he saw the person his heart ached to see the most

"Otae….. san…. I….am sorry…. I will always… love…."

And then there was nothing but silence….

A/N: I hope you liked the first chapter. Read and Review and tell moi what you thought of it ok?