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I'd always thought suicide notes had to mean something thought provoking and profound. They are, after all, the last thing you can say to others before you leave them. But right now, as I sit, looking at the bottle of sleeping pills on my kitchen table, I cant think of anything to say. I'm normally good with words. But right now...
My mind is blank. So i'll try my hardest to write down my thoughts.
Mai, I don't think I ever told you how much I admired you. You were so strong. So confident. Even though you've lost your parents, you carry on as if life is filled with hugs and puppy's with heart shaped candies. You found a new family at SPR and I'm happy to be part of it, even if you never knew that. I like to think you're the closest thing I ever had to a sister. I could never hate you. I leave you all my kimonos. I'm sure you'll look beautiful in them. You look beautiful in everything.
Naru...I loved you so much it hurt. My heart thought of nothing else but you ever since I met you. Seeing you so happy and carefree with Mai...well. I'm not going to lie. It broke my heart into thousands of pieces. I'll never be able to forgive you for that. But don't go thinking that you're the reason for me doing this. Although, admittedly you are part of it.
My brother is in prison. I just got a visiting order for him two days ago. Am I so heartless that I need to be ordered to see a member of my own family? I haven't seen him for 3 years, ever since he got put away.
My father never loved me. He was too busy with work. In fact, he only saw me as something to put on a pedestal and have his friends admire. 'This is my daughter', 'Isn't she pretty', 'She looks just like her mother', 'She's famous you know. Number one medium in Japan'. He has only given me one birthday card in my life. It was my 5th birthday but the card was for someone who'd just turned three.
You can sum my life up with three pieces of paper. A birthday card from a man who doesn't know me and has never loved me. A Christmas card from a man who I foolishly thought could. And a letter ordering me to see my brother.
It's sad but it's true.
I hope you can all forgive me.
Sincerely,
Masako Hara