A/N: Hey guys, this is a first-timer so enjoy also I don't own anything from the Teen Titans franchise...

Prologue

She ran as fast as the night would let her, tearing past any leaves that swayed in her way. Her knees were throbbing and her chest ached from the quick intake of the harsh cold. Broken twigs and jagged rocks cut through her feet as she picked up her pace, unaware of the black clouds growing overhead.

She wouldn't stop. She couldn't stop. If anything, she pushed herself further, unable to hold back the tears that streamed down her face.

She looked back and heard the shouts and quickening steps. Turning back, she saw the edge of the cliff and smiled.

"Raven!"

Raven unexpectedly turned to see the Titans mere steps behind her, all out of breath and drenched from the heavy rain.

"Raven!" Robin shouted once again, "Raven this won't bring him back!"

Raven stepped closer to the edge, and looked down to the crashing waves.

Lifting both of her arms, Raven slowly turned around to her once team-mates.

Cyborg instinctively stepped closer to Raven, one hand held out to her.

"Rae, don't do this. He wouldn't have wanted this. Please Rae!"

Raven could not hold it any longer; she felt the last weeks grow inside of her, within her and finally didn't care to control it anymore.

Pierce black eyes shot through Raven as she let out a spine-curdling scream.

Without a second thought, Raven let herself fall back, only to hear the sudden cries and shouts of the titans.

She was free now: free from the regret, from the dark hours, the soy-based eggs, the insensitive jokes, the maddening laughter and the toothy grin.

Raven was finally free of Beastboy.

Or so she thought.

Chapter One – The beginning of the end

A week or so later…

"How can you tell she's even alive?"

"Look at her. She's breathing. Stop being so worried, the worst is over."

"I don't know Cy. How could she do this? To the team? To herself? To me?"

"She thought you were gone. We all thought you were gone."

An uneven silence crept into the dark room.

"I was gone. But…I-I didn't know Cy. You saw, I was gone. I don't even know how I'm here or why I'm back."

"I know. I know…I think you should go get some sleep, you haven't slept in days."

"Nah, I'm fi-"

"No your not. Go get some shuteye. I'll wake you if any of her signs change."

"Cy I don't think I can leave her, what if she wakes and-"

Cyborg slammed his fist into a nearby table.

"God damn it Beast, you can leave her now. You've left her before. You left all of us. Rae just took the worst of it. But don't ever, ever tell her you won't leave her again. You can't do that to her, especially since you brought your blonde girlfriend back!"

"It's not the same!"

"It's worse Beast! Why'd you have to do that to Rae? Especially to Rae!"

"I love her Cy. I do. I swear I do."

"No Beast, you loved her. Loved…I don't know what you feel anymore."

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"Raven, I love you."

Raven let out a sarcastic snigger

"I'm sure you do Beast." Raven stood up and brushed off any sand that was caught in her robe. She began to head back to the tower when Beastboy reached for her wrist and pulled her to him.

"Beastboy, let go", Raven whispered, looking at the dark sand that wrpped itself around her feet.

"No. I mean it Rae, I don't know how else to say it. I just know. Rae, please tell me you feel the same."

From the dim light of the moon, Raven could see Beastboy's dimples dance as he forced a smile.

"Tell me Rae," Beastboy pulled Raven closer into his arms. "Tell me Rae."

Raven slowly shook her head.

"I can't Beast. I can't feel the same way. I can't let myself."

Beastboy let go of Raven's wrist and lifted her chin, locking his eyes with hers.

"Rae," Beastboy pleaded, "I can't live without you. Whether you like it or not."

Raven closed her eyes and felt Beastboy's hands reach her shoulders and then hold her face. Beastboy slowly traced Raven's lip with his thumb.

"Rae, I love you", Beastboy whispered, as he slowly leaned into Raven's lips.

"Beastboy!" Raven shot up, panting and drenched in sweat. She slowly rubbed her eyes and waited for her eyes to get used to the surprising darkness.

She groaned once she realised she was in the Titans personal aid room.

With a long sigh, Raven threw off the thick blanket that loosely covered her and gently tried to get out of the bed.

"Ouch!" Raven felt a sudden pain in her right rib. Lifting up her long, white robe she saw bandages covering most of her stomach and right thigh.

"Rae?"

Raven quickly turned around and saw Cyborg sitting up from a couch, yawning.

"Rae, w-what are you doing? You shouldn't be getting up, go back to bed", Cyborg said through a yawn.

"Cyborg how did I surv…how did I…who-"

Cyborg lifted up his left hand and silenced Raven's growing questions. Unable to look into her eyes, Cyborg let his head fall into his hands.

"Rae…his back. Beastboy's back."

Raven began to feel dizzy and nauseous.

"Cyborg…don't. Why? No. No." Raven felt like she was going to throw up, her whole world seemed to cave in. Cyborg quickly went to her side and put a hand on her shoulder.

"Rae, you're not well. Go back to bed. Come on, I'll make you some of that creepy tea you like so much."

Raven didn't budge.

"You're lying Cyborg. Why are you lying to me?" Raven yelled.

Her blood began to boil.

"Rae, I'm not lyin-"

"Raven!"

Raven held her breath. She was imagining it. She was. She knew it.

Beastboy slowly stepped into the room, locking his eyes with Raven.

"Get out of here Beast!" Cyborg shouted. Beastboy turned his gaze to Cyborg and glared.

"I'm not leaving Cy!" Beastboy yelled, running his hand through his tangled green hair, and moved even closer to Raven.

"NO!" Raven cried and felt something within explode.

She summoned all her power and charged it at Beastboy.

"Rae, don't!" Cyborg roared, running to Beastboy.

It all happened in a flash. Before anyone's eyes could adjust, Beastboy and Cyborg were on the floor, both unconscious.

Robin and Starfire came rushing into the room, both stunned at the sight of Raven mid-air, her eyes glowering at her victims.

"Raven what did you do?" Robin asked, approaching Raven.

Before Raven could even acknowledge Robin's question, an abrupt shriek came from the doorway.

"Beastboy!"

Terra ran to Beastboy and gently lifted his head into her arms.

It was all too much.

Raven's black eyes rolled back into her head, as she swiftly fell from the air onto the floor.