Title: circles
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter.
Rating: T for language
Summary: round and around it goes. it's a circle of hatelovehatelovehatelovehate . | Lily/Lorcan | freeverse
Author's Note: The fact that this piece is capital-less is purposeful.
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you slap him
then you kiss him
slap him
and kiss him again
round and around it goes
it's a circle
hatelovehatelovehatelovehate
whoops
you're not supposed to end with hate
hatelovehatelove
{hate}
it's a habit you've fallen into
a rut
a circle
you're stuck
(going round and round)
forever
[and ever and ever and ever]
and you've just got to stop the hating
because it always comes back up again
{hatelovehatelovehatelovehate lovehate}
"lily, i love you!"
he tells you and you laugh
[andlaughandlaughandlaugh]
"i hate you."
you tell him
and then you kiss him
"i love you."
you say
and then you walk away
"lily?"
"i hate you!"
you yell back at him
because hate always comes back up again
(this circle will kill you)
some days you really do love him
you're convinced that he's the one
other days you truly hate him
you hate his crooked smile
and his messy blonde hair
and his big blue eyes
[why can't he just be boring?]
and then there's a ring
(another damn circle)
a ring with a diamond
a boy with a hopeful smile
[a crooked smile]
"marry me?"
"lorcan…"
"lily."
lily scamander
lily&lorcan
lorcan&lily
[it sounds alright]
and he's downright perfect for you
[most boys won't put up with your antics]
but you clearly don't have a rational bone in your body
so you say
"no. try again another day lor. today's just not right."
"do you hate me today?"
"no."
then leave him kneeling in the garden
(you runrunrun through your circles)
he tries again
[you knew he would]
but you're too fond of his crooked smile
of his hopeful eyes
of his rag-tag blonde hair
so you tell him
no
[you're just not in the mood]
and ruffle his hair affectionately
and smilesmilesmile
and then you make him buy you ice cream
[because you're in the mood for that]
and then he asks again a few weeks later
and again a few weeks after that
and you get into a rut
(circle)
he keeps persisting
and you keep refusing
till one day
[after you say no again]
he says
"fine. i'm done. have a nice life lily."
and you're shocked
[you shouldn't be after all – you've been giving him heck for months]
and soon you're following him
pleading with him
begging to be taken back
because you may be fickle but he's everything to you
you're jumping through hoops for him
(just more circles honey)
chasing and chasing
(round and round in circles)
saying
"please lor, i'm sorry. i love you. i love you, i love you, i love you!"
"no lily."
"i hate you!"
(it always comes back, doesn't it?)
"see! that's why we're done!"
"but i don't hate you. i just say that."
"all the bloody time."
"i love you."
"you've said that before."
"it's true."
"will you go out with me lily?"
but since you're so obviously the most irrational creature ever, you say
"no."
he smiles at you
[his crooked little smile]
"marry me?"
he asks
and you smile because maybe you've found your way out of the circle
then you slap him
(the circle's back)
"that a yes then?"
he asks you
you smile a little more and say
"of course it is."
and then you kiss him
because you've found you like your little circles