Dear Sirius,
How I wished many times that I could've told you how much I love you. But it wasn't meant to be I suppose. The day you fell was the day that I'd wished I'd died. There were a few times when I'd dream that it was all a nightmare and I'd wake up in your arms again to you telling me that someday we would get the chance to grow old together.
I'd tried a couple times to follow you beyond the Veil, but they wouldn't let me. Remus would grab me and shake me and then we'd both be on the ground crying our eyes out until I tried again.
Two months after you died I found out that I was pregnant. I felt conflicted. I didn't want to be. I wanted nothing more than to go to bed one night and never wake up again. Strangely enough it was Severus who brought me back, back to the land of the living. He showed me that I'd been a fool and that I needed to live, truly live. He told me that I needed to live for my baby, for our baby. Somewhere along the line I fell in love with him.
Five years have passed and our little girl has just turned four. I still miss you, though not as often as I used to. Severus has been good to me and to my daughter. I named her Serena Eileen. She looks just like you. I tell her about you sometimes, and it makes her happy.
I wanted to write to you now because I needed to tell you that I'm okay. It was hard at first but I survived it all. The war is over and life is moving on. New life is growing. Severus and I expect our first any day now. I hope you're happy for me. I know you would wish that you're here with me now, but I am happy. I have Serena and Severus and my next baby will be here soon.
I'll always love you, and miss you, and I'll remain forever,
Your Athena