I was watching the confidential for Doomsday and this popped up. I apologize in advance for feelings that may or may not have been inflicted by my words. Stay strong, Whovians. Maybe we'll be over it forty years from now.
Imagine, you love someone or something more than anything. Anything. More than money, more than your mum, more than life itself. Imagine that you would give anything- anything- for this person or thing. Imagine spending every waking hour with this person or thing. Imagine doing amazing things, all the time, without a care in the world as to responsibility or taxes or boyfriends or money or mundaneness. Imagine living your life like no one else does- completely, utterly, and totally, free. Imagine you have everything you never knew you wanted. Imagine you have more than you could ever need. Imagine being the most fulfilled you could possibly be. Imagine living the best life you could possibly live. Imagine seeing amazing things, and meeting amazing and impossible people and imagine going to amazing and impossible places with an amazing and impossible person who is anything but impossible but more than amazing. Imagine knowing everything, but at the same time, nothing. Imagine seeing the whole of existence itself and still not understanding it's true magnificence. Imagine helping people, saving people, even, from dangers so far beyond things the average you would see. Imagine seeing the limitless stars every night out your window, imagine every night being a clear one, imagine super novas black holes planets stars suns moons whizzing by your sight every night as you dozed off. Imagine not being so wrapped in tv internet cell phones smart phones iPods iPads that you miss the beauty in life. Imagine eating more-than-exotic foods from absolutely everywhere. Imagine being just a kid who narrowly escapes death a few more than a couple times. But always living. Imagine living, at any time and space in the whole of the universe, alive, with the person or thing you love most in the universe, all to yourself.
Now. Imagine getting a job. Imagine watching the telly. Imagine eating chips. Imagine going to bed at night and seeing clouds covering the sky. Imagine waking up at the same time day after day. Imagine going to the same job day after day. Imagine coming home at the same time day after day. Imagine the biggest pleasure in your life being the internet. Imagine feeling completely and totally alone, all the time. Imagine feeling forgotten, useless, helpless, all the time. Imagine being so confined to one space in time. Imagine sitting down to supper every night with the family. Imagine being told what to do by your mother. Imagine walking everywhere- never running. Imagine not having a hand to hold. Imagine life as it is for most: meaningless. Imagine having nobody to love with all of your heart. Imagine being ripped away from everything you've known, everything you've done, everything you've lived for. Imagine getting the life knocked out of you. Imagine being dead, but with a heartbeat. Imagine thinking that you would spend your whole life doing one thing, only to have it torn away from you in the most violent fashion possible.
Imagine your life, the way you love it, gone. Imagine it.
Now you know what it feels like.
Now you know how it feels… to lose The Doctor.