My Yearning Heart
Chapter 1
My Life
Note: Here's another new story for you guys. This one is definitely going to be a bit of a stretch since I haven't really ventured into this area before so be sure to wish me luck. I hope you guys enjoy and be sure to let me know how it goes.
My name is Alexandra Belladonna and I'm approaching my 40's. Life hasn't been too bad for me. There's really nothing that I can complain about. I was given a beautiful baby girl and now, she's grown up to be an even more beautiful young women. Unfortunately, the man who helped me with this task left me for another woman which made me raised her all by myself. However, I enjoyed it this way. I was able to show her everything. I guided her down the right path and I always get to see her smile. Since, it's just the two of us, we get to share everything with each other. As she's gotten older, it doesn't even seem like she's my daughter, but more of a little sister.
Right now, she's attending a private school called Beacon Academy and is entering her second year. As for me, I was lucky enough to find a job there as the school nurse. That job isn't very taxing. I always get someone in there asking for medicine or is feeling really horrible. I try my best to be open to everyone, but there's always those few who ask me for weird things. Being the nurse, I have a lot of down time on my hands and sometimes, it's hard for me to stay awake. Thankfully, coffee keeps me up, but this is where the students get weird. They walk into my office and ask me for coffee, completely out of random. Personally, I know that coffee isn't very healthy, but I choose to drink it anyway. On the other hand, I try my best to not give them any so that they don't acquire an addiction.
Other than that, everything is perfect. My daughter always visits me in my office which always puts a smile on my face. Even though she's getting older, she still has time for me. This was a sign that I did something right. Now, all I can hope is that the rest of our days together will remain like they have been. No surprises, but things that the two of us can handle together.
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The first day of school finally came around and Blake and I made our way to school. As we made it to campus, she immediately ran to the front gate to meet up with her friends. They hugged each other and had smiles on their faces as they reunited after a long summer. Something that surprised me was that they waved back at me. Apparently, I wasn't weird enough to avoid a simple hello from my daughter's friends. I calmly waved back and made my way to the teacher's lounge.
When I got there, a small meeting took place to make sure that everyone knew what they were doing for this upcoming year. All I could do was smile and sip my coffee. The first bell of the day rang and everyone departed. I grabbed my things and headed off to my office, better known as the nurse's room. I quickly grew a love for that room. There were nice, big windows on the far side of the room that opened up to the sport fields. Inside, there were four beds and tons of room to move around so no one would feel claustrophobic. In the far corner was my desk where I spent most of my time. Since it was the start of the year, there wasn't really much to worry about. All I could do was sit back and wait for something to happen.
Half of the day went by and nothing happened. Everything was going according to plan. Why would someone come in on the first day of school? Suddenly, the lunch bell rang and I could hear the sound of doors opening from inside my room. I braced myself for what was next.
After a few more seconds, my door slid open and in ran a whole bunch of students. They all had their lunch and smiles on their faces. They screamed my name and ran right at me. Ever since I started working here, my room was always a place to eat lunch because occasionally, I brought food for those who forgot to bring lunch. And apparently, they just liked to eat with me.
As lunch went on, I overheard all kinds of conversations about summer and how everyone was busy having fun. Some of them went to the beach while others got to travel around the world. Honestly, I was a little jealous because all I did was stay at home and do nothing. Even though this may seem pretty boring, resting over the summer is smart since the school year can get pretty hectic. I looked up at the clock and saw that lunch was about to end when my door slid open again. I turned my head and saw Blake walk in with one of her friends.
"Hey mom, I don't know if I introduced you yet, but this one of my friends I made. This is Yang." At first, I couldn't believe it. This girl was beautiful. I mean, she couldn't compare to my daughter, but she was definitely beautiful.
"Hello, Ms. Belladonna. Blake talks so much about you so I was wanting to meet you."
"Well, here I am. How are classes going for you?"
"Eh, not too bad. I wish I was taking different ones, but what can you do?" I smiled.
"How about you honey?"
"Pretty good. Yang's in a couple of my classes so that's a good thing."
"Oh, that's nice." Suddenly, the bell rang to return to class. "Alright, everyone, get out of here. You don't want to be late after lunch."
"Bye Ms. Belladonna."
"Is your room always like this?"
"Yeah, I still don't really know why." Yang smiled. "Well, it was nice to meet you Yang. I hope we can see each other again."
"Please." The two of them walked off and I shut my door and walked back to my desk. I totally realized that I didn't even get to eat my lunch. I chuckled to myself as I opened up my lunch and began to eat.
For the rest of the day, nothing else happened. I eagerly waited for some kid to walk in with some of injury of illness, but no one did. I had a feeling that this year was going to be a pretty easy year for me. The last bell rang and everyone made their ways off campus. I packed my things and locked up for the day. As I did, some of the students said hello to me as they walked passed me. I said hello back and walked to the front gate where Blake was waiting with one of her friends. As I neared them, I noticed that it was Yang.
"Hey mom!"
"Hi girls."
"Is it alright if we walk Yang home?"
"Sure, do you live far away?"
"Not really. From what Blake tells me, I actually live pretty close."
"Oh really? Then let's get going?" As we started to walk, the two of them immediately struck up a conversation. I couldn't get them to shut up they were talking so much. I was actually quite impressive. Usually, high school kids don't talk this much. They're usually on their phones or just silent, but they were talking. I couldn't help but pump my fists. I taught Blake right. Social interactions are so important in this world and she was doing it perfectly. They talked all the way until we finally made it to Yang's house. As said goodbye to her, she leaned against Blake's shoulder and kissed her on the cheek. After she made it inside, we headed home, but I was still curious as to what happened. "Um, Blake, what was that?"
"What was what?"
"Don't you what me. Why did Yang kiss you on the cheek?"
"Because she's my friend." We made it home and Blake quickly ran to her room, but I was able to stop her before she could.
"I know you're hiding something from me."
"No I'm not."
"Blake, I know it may not seem like it, but I've been your mother for a long time. I know when you're hiding something from me." I walked next to her, but she bowed her head to avoid my eyes. "You gonna tell me what it is that you're hiding?" She was silent for a second, but my constant staring worked in the end.
"Okay, okay! Yang and I are dating." There was a long pause. I know I said that I didn't want any surprises, but this was definitely considered to be one.
"I see," I said calmly.
"You're… not mad."
"I don't really know how I could be. I had that phase when I was younger. The more important question is this: Does she make you happy? Can you make her happy? Do you two actually love each other?"
"Um, mom, that sounded more like questions than question."
"I know, but those are all important. Can you answer those with an honest answer? If you can, then there's no point in me being against it." Blake took a deep breath and finally looked me in the eye.
"She makes me feel like the happiest person in the world. I constantly try to make her happy and she appreciates my attempts. Also, I've never felt this way with another person before. She's just so perfect. I don't know why, but she just is." I smiled and started to walk towards me room. "Was that honest enough?" I stopped and chuckled to myself.
"You're making dinner tonight. Haha!" I quickly ran to my room as Blake whined.
It was hard to believe, but I had to accept it. This was Blake's first love so mistakes were destined to be made. However, if she was truly in love with her, I would be there to support her and Yang. Fortunately for her, she has someone like me. When I was young and in love, my parents were never around and they didn't even want me to fall in love. So I promise to make her first relationship something to remember; both good and bad.
After we finished dinner, which was delightful, we headed off to bed. This was by far the worst time of the day for me. When my ex left me, he took nothing with him except for his clothes which means that I was forced to sleep on a king-sized bed. I hated it. It was comfortable, but I hated it. The feeling on loneliness filled my room. I've been contemplated on switching out this bed, but for some reason, something is telling me to keep it. Especially after hearing about Blake's relationship, that thing is telling me to keep it even more. I stared at the ceiling, tossed and turned, and waited until something finally felt comfortable. The thought that comes every night never seems to leave me alone. I never know how to answer it and it bothers me until I finally fall asleep.
Is it too late for me love to someone?
End of Chapter 1
Ending Note: I hoped you guys enjoyed this new story. Be sure to let me know what you guys think. Also, be sure to check out the special story I have planned for this Sun March 15th. It should be good. Anyway, thanks for stopping by and more is on the way.