Premature Death
Madness? Or Love? Hate? Or Forgiveness?
There can only be one… One to die… One to live… And the date for the Death is due…
10 years before the suicidal attempt…
The echoing voices, the screaming, the pounding, the hurt, she couldn't stand it. All the while, he did nothing to stop her. Staring, watching slowly, she paused, the impulses, her heartbeat, it was becoming too much. He had never meant to do anything to her. But he had brought the subject upon her… or rather the other way around. Now, she knew. Her daughter would be like him. More than she knew. Suddenly she fell to the floor. And still he did nothing but sit there with his head in his hands. She wept on. She could feel her daughter, squirming, lifeless, yet so alive in her stomach.
Her shoulders slumped. What would happen now? Both the Wizarding community and the Muggle community would do nothing. He wouldn't certainly inform any Muggle office of his condition, but then again, he wouldn't work for any Muggle job. She heard him sob, looked up to see his shoulders jump.
"You did this!" she shouted, "You're crying because you brought this upon yourself!"
He did nothing to reply. Just sat there, his shoulders still jumped. Tears flecked his jeans. Something wasn't right. Not that anything ever was. Something just always had to end up not working, coming through, or just had to be wrong! His whole life had been about being wrong… ever since that cursed year. Now, it would have to be relived, just not by him. He stared up at the figure on the floor, his face tearstained still as tears continuously made their way down his face.
That was when he replied to her accusation, "No, I'm crying, mourning, for our child who is going to have to relive what I've already gone through. And you have no clue as to how painful it is. To be an outcast! Merlin only knows the damn cure for it, to begin with. And I've gone through life living as a fucking outcast. Don't tell me that I'm crying because I brought this upon me! I shall never worry about myself as long as I live. It's all about everyone else's safety to me because of what I am!" He voice cracked as he spoke, as he sounded angry, harsh. Her glasses fell hard to the floor, one lens shattering. Her long brown hair flew to the side as she tried to pick herself up.
He went to her slowly, helping her up from the floor. She yanked her arm away from his grip and made her way down the hallway past the sofa and the rest of the furniture, entering the bedroom at the end of the hallway to wait out the night, to go to sleep, crying.
…A few hours later…
He found himself crouching next to a bed with his head held low, crying, even more tears coming, this time staining the white sheets of the hospital bed, a Muggle hospital bed. He clutched her hand tighter. He could feel her palm growing colder with every passing second.
"Kaitlyn," he said slowly, "Please, please, do not leave me. I am so very sorry." He shuddered before he spoke, "I love you so much." He kissed her lips and closed her eyes as the light faded from them. The light he always found so heart warming had left them forever, never to return. He took a deep breath before bowing his head. Someone came up beside him.
"We've managed to save the baby, sir," the woman said slowly. She placed a hand on his shoulder lightly as he looked up. "It'll be alright," she spoke quietly. Her voice was soothing.
"Lupin?" the voice came to him. It was the same girl, her soothing voice now a whisper. She had looked at the name on the clipboard.
He swallowed difficultly. "No, her last name was Phelps, not Lupin. We must have signed in as Lupin," he said quietly. "Can I see my daughter?" he questioned slowly.
"Yes, sir," she turned and led him to a counter where a baby, wrapped in blankets, slept. His heart almost melted at the sight. With shaking hands he picked her up. A small smile was playing around his face as he tried to think of a name. "A beautiful one is the only one you shall get," he thought, slowly going through many names.
"Selina," he whispered into her ear, "Selina Lupin."
TBC
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