FLASHBACK: August 15th 2006 (prologue)

He grabbed her hair and yanked and all she could do was scream, but that did nothing. A dirty sock reeking of mold was shoved into her mouth and his sweaty palm shoved on her mouth to prevent the scream that she desperately needed to release. Her skirt was hitched up around her waist and she had no room to move for they were only inside a car.

Her skirt was drenched with blood, sweat and tears. While he felt pleasure, she felt pain. His hair was sweaty and he was biting his bottom lip to keep from moaning out in triumph. She was doing everything she could to study every single feature on his face. She felt violated and... ashamed. Her dignity and strength was gone and all to a monster who calls himself a man! He finally removed himself from her and placed a chaste kiss on her lips "That was amazing babe, I'll see you back at the party" came Sammy's disgusting voice as he hopped out of his car leaving her staring at nothing in sheer shock.

He zipped up his jeans and started towards where the roaring music was coming from, and said in an alluring and sexy yet threatening voice that made her insides twist with sickness, "I'll see you soon".

It was then that something snapped and she knew she had to go inside and find Lucas.

She had come to the party with Lucas but had gotten so jealous and pissed off at the way he and Brooke had been flirting and making out the entire time practically in front of her, when he knew how she felt about him. Him and Brooke were official and there was nothing she could do about it. So she did what she knew how to do and got drunk. She met a guy named Sammy who was new and had recently joined the Ravens, she thought they had sort of connected but she couldn't have been more wrong there was only one thing he wanted.

She pushed open the glass door and walked on shaky knees through the laughing people who barely acknowledged her existence, her eyes spun around wildly in search of Lucas or a phone but neither was anywhere to be seen. Her breathing was erratic, her hair a mess which fit her dishelved and dirty appearance. Her skirt was covered in blood but no one seemed to notice this, it was like she was invisible. She shoved past a few more people shouting, "Has anyone seen the phone" but no one seemed to notice her hysterics.

"Has um…anyone seen the phone or Lucas?" she asked…she caught sight of Haley and Nathan who were chatting to everyone as Skills was playing a drinking game everyone yelling 'jug'. She practically flew over to Naley her breathes becoming less controlled. Their eyes snapped to her before they took in her appearance, the shock evident on Haley's face but Nathan lips were twitching and he could tell he was gonna bust a gut in laughter any minute. "Woah Sawyer had fun?" Nate asked a smile splitting his face but she didn't laugh back, it wasn't like that.

"Where's Luke?" she asked sounding on the verge of tears. Nathan seemed to not notice this but nothing got past Haley. "His upstairs with Brooke" she didn't even have to think twice, she flew upstairs towards Brooke's room bursting the door open and gasping audibly.

Lucas and Brooke were in Nathan's bed, and he was getting close and on the brink of an orgasm, he stopped immediately his blue eyes snapping to hers, "Peyton" her name on his lips came out choked and filled with emotion. She spun around wildly the vision of them burning red hot into her brain, running for the stairs and ignoring Lucas's shout of her name, stumbling, she gave a surprised yelp as she lost her footing on the stairs and desperately reached out towards the smooth wooden railing. Narrowly missing it, she let out a screech, like that of a parrot, as she tumbled painfully down the stairs hitting her head hard at the bottom as she landed, it was then that she felt it, some say that when you hit your head to hard that a screw can be knocked loose or something that you can never be the same again.

She felt the blood trickle down her forehead as she begun to get up shakily. She felt a soft hand on hers and instantly knew it was Haley, "Oh my god Peyton are you ok?" she sprung to her feet at the sudden contact. "GET OFF ME JUST DON'T TOUCH ME!" she shrieked as she bolted.

She ran past Haley and Nate and out of the house her vision blurring. She just had to get away, so she did the only thing she knew how to do…she shut it off.

Present day:

Rape is usually not about sex it's about the power and dominance the person feels. Peyton Sawyer never thought it would happen to her. She was wrong, and she learnt the hard way on that fateful summer night at Brooke's part. She couldn't of been more relieved that she was smart enough to take that morning after pill.

It had been aproximately one month 16 days and 12 hours since that day, and that feeling of being dirty or filthy still sat with her not going away. She didn't even remember how she had gotten home that night to be honest she didn't want to remember anything. She hadn't spoken to any of her friends since it happened and she hadn't spoken to Lucas either, she ignored his calls, his constant apology messages the lot.

Summer break was over now and that meant going back and facing everyone, she wouldn't have to worry about Sammy apparently from what she heard he wouldn't be coming back. She had shut down her Punk and Disorderly webcam and hadn't been logged back on since. 'Just count to 10' she thought to herself as she closed her eyes, getting herself of the floor of the bathroom where she had been in for about an hour vomiting, apparently this is what happens when you don't take your daily dose of heroine.

She only remembered the day after the event she had found Rick in Tric and he had offered her a free toke of heroine. It was much like you are drunk but better. If you leaned back it felt like she was falling. She felt lethargic . After the high ended she couldn't stop going back for more, she did anything Rick wanted her to do. She was just grateful it made the pain stop and it was then she knew what she had to do to stay strong.

She stood on shaky knees and her eyes snapped open taking in her sickly appearance in the mirror.

Her eyes were sunken in and her hair an overgrown blonde mess of curls in desperate need of a cut. Deep purple cuts scared her wrists, some fresh others old. She grabbed her foundation and smeared it on her face, she had to go back looking normal if she didn't want people to ask her questions about where she went when she ran out that night why she hadn't been answering her phone.

She had been numb to all emotions since that night and no matter how hard she just couldn't feel or wouldn't allow herself to. She finished her makeup and gave herself a satisfied nod before pulling on tight denim jeans and a red Henley. She smeared her lips with dark rouge lipstick, then packed her cheer leading kit in her bag before making her way out of the house and towards her comet.

It's her first day back at High School as senior, she had several new notebooks, a top she hated and a stomach ache.

She had actually managed to make it to school alive considering she had run pretty much every red light in Tree Hill. She walked casually into Tree Hill High and as soon as she did she had every bit of male attention and jealous prying eyes from girls on her. She let out a shaky breath closing her eyes and willing herself to continue. 'his gone I have nothing to be afraid of just shut it off" she thought to herself before opening her eyes again and walking with her head held high towards her locker. She was thankful that she hadn't seen any of her ex friends as she liked to put it and Lucas yet, she dialed her locker number and threw her cheer kit in there, her first lesson was English with Mr. Turner, great a class with all her ex friends.

She had managed to shut them all out and cut them off, she just didn't want anyone in her life who reminded her of that night. When she thought about Brooke's party she felt like she was being suffocated all the feelings would start to resurface and she couldn't breathe. So that was why she went out of her way to avoid it.

The thought of Lucas as well practically balls deep inside Brooke was enough to send her over the edge as well. the pain the memory brought back was unexplainable and crippling, it felt like a desperation feeling and a "what do I do now..." where you don't really know what to do with yourself. She felt lost, empty, raw, sharp, sensitive... and it's true what they said about that pain in the Pitt of your stomach, she could actually feel it.

She also felt like a lot of emotion was tied to her heart and left almost a weak, sensitive feeling in her chest, like pressure. It made her tend to curl up in her bed at night time, and just feel numb, not really there, just like a mid-dream feeling.

She was brought out of her reverie when she caught sight of Brooke and Lucas hand in hand. Walking down the corridor, suddenly that crushing weight in her chest was brought back and images of that horrid night and them to together choked her. She slammed her locker door shut with such a force it shook the entire row and started of casually towards the school bathroom convincing herself that it didn't affect her in anyway.

"Peyton" she heard his voice come, she stopped and forced herself to look into those deep meaningful warm blue eyes. As soon as her eyes met his she wished she hadn't looked, a breath caught in her throat as her eyes diverted towards Brooke and his entwined hands. She had nothing to say to them so she just walked past them and towards the toilets.

She had spent about ten minutes in the toilets well aware that she had missed the first ten of her lesson but she could care less, she felt sick and bloated. She reached her English classroom door and closed her eyes before opening it.

"Nice of you to join us Miss Sawyer, I hope you had a good summer" He said as she walked into the classroom. She caught sight of everyone working in groups, Brooke, Haley, Nathan and Lucas all sitting as a group in the back their eyes on her. Lucas and Haley tried to smile but she looked down before looking at the teacher. "Sammy how nice of you to join us also?" he said, she felt her blood run cold, she felt her whole body begin to shake at how close her was to her. Her head was screaming at her to run, but she was so terrified that she can't move. she can't run.

"Could you two both join Nathan's group at the back?" Mr. Turner said, she swallowed hard before forcing herself to nod.

"Hey fresh meat" she caught onto him say making a breath catch in her throat and she found that she could walk quicker. The fear crippling her sending her body into overdrive.

She walked shaky knees to the desk taking a seat next to Haley and moving over to create as much distance between her and them as possible. Sammy scooted in next to her, making her skin crawl.

She was aware of everyone talking around her but was too shaken up to even talk she couldn't believe he was even sitting next to her right now. Did her not know what he had done? "So yeah that's why I think Othello ended up driving himself mad" Lucas finished as he looked at her. There was a minute of awkward silence before Brooke broke it "So guys I'm planning on having a pool party tonight whose down for coming?" she asked looping Lucas's fingers with hers to spite Peyton.

"I'm down" Nate said as Haley nodded that she was coming as well. "What about you Sammy, Peyton?" Lucas asked as his eyes shifted to hers, "Yeah I'll come" Sammy said as she felt him turn and stare at her. She felt a feeling of disgust come over her.

"No" she hissed through clenched teeth, her hands balling into fists as she started counting to ten in her head. "Ok Peyton what the hell is going on with you, you haven't spoken to any of us in a month, you haven't answered any of our calls…" Lucas begun and she felt her stomach twist in fear, nerves and sickness all rolled into one.

"Maybe I just don't want to talk to any of you" she spat, getting worked up by the fact that Sammy and the ones who betrayed her most was sitting right next to her. It was like her worst nightmares come to life, "why what did we do?" Brooke asked faking the innocence in her voice. "Screw you, you know what you guys all deserve each other your all as SICK AS EACHOTHER" Peyton stammered her voice raising on the last part, "what's that supposed to mean?" Lucas asked his eyebrows knitting together in hurt.

"Look just calm down Peyton" came Sammy's voice as he placed a hand on her shoulder at that moment every single detail of that night washed over her, swallowing her up in a pit of darkness. She stood up so fast she almost knocked Haley off her feet. "YOU STAY AWAY FROM ME...YOUR DISGUSTING!" She shrieked at Sammy the fear evident in her voice as her eyes glistened with unshed tears.

Everybody's eyes in the room were now on her and all she could think was she needed to get the hell out. "Peyton" Lucas begun standing up to try and sooth her but she stepped away from him.

"Just all of you stay the hell out of my life" she choked out before bolting from the classroom… she ran to the school toilets and the first thing she did was lock the door, then puke. With one violent contraction the congealed contents of her stomach emerged in the morning light, nothing digested since the evening before. Peyton wiped at her mouth, acidic residue forming a shiny patch on her sweaty hand, and retreated to sit back against the toilet stall door, breathing heavily with her eyes shut tight. Praying by some miracle that everything would just go away.

A/N: Here we are. What do you think? All your feedback, ideas and suggestions have a huge impact on how the story continues let me know what you want to happen and I'll write it in.

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