Authors Note: this may be a one shot depending on how people react to this story.
Chapter 1: Pretending Prologue
Shuichi's P.O.V
I closed my eyes, another day, more stress, more hurtful comments, no love. I sighed quickly and pushed those thoughts away. I sighed and rolled off the bed and noticed Yuki wasn't their no surprise their. For a long time he hadn't being coming to bed or talking to me, it really hurt and if I saw him in the morning he just said something hurtful and walked away.
That's when I discovered the truth one night he was sleeping around with different people every night and I just didn't care anymore and that's when I discovered my new addiction cutting myself, it seemed to release my unwanted pain and hateful life.
I walked to the bathroom another day, another cut to add. I wore long sleeves to cover my cuts and scars .I looked at the razor I sliced it quickly over my arm and cried out as the blood pooled out of my wound I washed it quickly and pretended nothing was wrong I slipped on my long maroon colored shirt and as usual pretended nothing was wrong.
Every night Yuki would sleep with me he would use me, throw me away he didn't care all I was to him was a cheap fuck, I just didn't care I stayed beside him just for company not for any specific reason anymore the supposed love we shared was fake and cold as a brick of ice I no longer saw the warm honey colored eyes of Yuki, I just saw the cold eyes of a sarcastic man.
I headed down the stairs to see Yuki cooking he eyes me curiously at my sleeves and said harshly "You know brat its hot out" I smiled cutely and pretended nothing was wrong "I don't care I like long sleeves" I said quickly covering any lies. He moved toward me and grasped my chin harshly
"I'm going out later so don't expect me when you get back" he said kissing me harshly, my hand lashed out and pushed him away he looked at me curiously and moved forward and I cried out
"Going out to fuck another woman behind my back again, you don't think I know what your doing it pains me that all you see me as is a another conquest" he moved his fingers harshly against my face and slapped me hard I cried out as I landed on the cold tile floor he pulled me up by my hair and said with an agonized tone "Please stop" he moved forward
"Brat listen and listen well I'm not fucking anyone behind your back so stop accusing me every fucking day" he dropped me with a thud, I winced from the drop and watched him disappear and laughed softly to the air
"What happened to us Eiri am I so disgusting to you"? I said softly getting up brushing the dirt off myself and I headed toward N-G records
Just pretend, just pretend everything's alright and it'll go away.
I couldn't tell anyone about Yuki's behavior toward me I winced at the bruise forming on my forehead from the drop and sighed softly as I entered the building we started recording as we finished I noticed hiro's concerned face
"Shuichi is their something your hiding" he uttered softly I nodded no and headed out pretending everything was alright I headed home to find the house empty, I climbed into the bed and stroked Yuki's side of the bed, How many night's has it being since I've held you? How many nights will this pretend love go on for?
I heard the door close and an angry growl and the laugh of a female voice I winced and closed my eyes pretending wishing it would go away. I heard the girl ask
"What about that kid in your room"? I looked up and heard the laugh of Yuki he sounded drunk his voice was slurred as he spoke the next words
"Oh him he's just my cousin" I winced and my tears gently fell out of my eyes and landed on the bed he's just my cousin. I heard the girl scream and Yuki grunt and the woman laughed hotly and she left the apartment I heard the door slam and the bedroom door open up quickly I shivered in disgust at Yuki as he towered over me
"Brat see I told you I wasn't cheating" he said in a slurred matter. I winced as he roughly placed me on his lap and I felt his hot breath on my ear his hands trailed over my arms and he seemed to snap out of his drunken state when he saw the marks on my arms
"What is this"? He screamed I shivered lightly how could I reply? "Tell me" he screamed, I winced I'd be better if I told him it's not like he'll remember "I cut myself" I said simply he shook a little and held me close gently
"Why"? He said simply his fingers digging through my hair "because I'm sick of the way you treat me, I'm sick of life, why do you care? all you do is fuck behind my back" I said in disgust and he let me go tears dribbled out of his eyes and he backed away
"I'm sorry" he said quietly leaving me in the bedroom alone.
"I'm sorry Yuki" I uttered quietly to the air quietly and closed my eyes and dreamt of a life where I was happy and free where I was not alone where I was loved.
Authors note: So what did you guys think if I get enough reviews Ill contuine?