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When I walk down the streets I can see the hate in other people's eyes. I feel their stares on my back. For so long I didn't know why I was hated by them. Why they treated me this way. I though I had done something bad to deserve this loneliness. But now I know. It's because of what I am.
I am a demon. In the eyes of my elders that's how I am seen. I didn't ask for this. I didn't ask for my childhood to be taken from me or for a demon to be housed inside of me. Nobody asked me. I don't want this. I just want to be like a normal kid, but then again maybe my destiny won't allow me to be 'normal'.
I hate my life. And I hate the fact that this brings me down. That I'm so weak that I can't just ignore their stares. But I'm tired. I'm tired of smiling when I really want to cry. I'm tired of acting like it doesn't bother me, like alright. Because I'm not.
It's not like I'm asking to be popular, or anything like that. I just want to be acknowledged. Maybe just a nod or a smile from others. That's all I want.
I need to be stronger, louder, and annoying to even get a second glace in my direction, and still its hateful. But I smile and play it off as a joke. But the truth is, that I'm smiling through my tears. I cry for myself, because no one else will.
In a way my smile is my greatest strength. I can fool people with my smile and pretend I'm alright. Over the years I've become a master at hiding how I feel. I can keep my emotions in check. I never falter. I never slip up.
In other ways my smile is also my greatest weakness. I keep my hopes and fears bottled up. I never really let people get to know the 'real' Naruto. I don't want others to know that I'm suffering, that I'm in pain. I want people to think I'm a stupid trouble maker, because that way at least they know who I am.
The thing that is most painful to me is that people wouldn't care if I died. I'd be just a fleeting memory of some nobody. Its painful. It's painful to feel like you're denied the right to exist. But I'll keep smiling. Because my smile is my greatest lie.
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Author- This is my first naruto sotry so I hope it wasn't too bad. Its just a general outlook on Naruto the character.
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