Wow, it has been a while since I have written a DA piece! Yet again, another song fic! I have used the song "Somewhere in between" by Lifehouse (lyrics from www . songmeanings . net). This is a beautiful, angsty song and I just had to use it. I would definitely recommend listening to the song while reading. It is just so perfect.

Logan POV

Early S2

Disclaimer – I own nothing!

Somewhere in between

I hate the night, it brings doubt. I slowly move into the kitchen, the soft hum of the wheels breaking the delicate silence. As I move through, I press the play button on the CD player in an attempt to fill my empty apartment.

I can't meet

Losing sleep over this

No I can't

And now I cannot stop pacing

Give me a few hours

I'll have this all sorted out

If my mind would just stop racing

I'm not thirsty, but I fill a glass of water anyway before moving into the lounge. I move to the window and gaze down on the city I work every day to protect. She is probably out there, driving through the streets on that bike of hers. I shouldn't do this to myself, but I can't help but think of her. I can't remember a time when I had something more important to think about.

Cause I cannot stand still

I can be this unsturdy

This cannot be happening

I hate this effect she has on me, the way she manages to get into my head. Sometimes I wish I could forget about her, about how I feel about her. I will go for days believing that and one day she will walk into my apartment and all those thoughts will go out the window. I've lived without Max before; I don't want to live like that again.

This is over my head

But underneath my feet

Cause by tomorrow morning I'll have this thing beat

And everything will be back to the way that it was

I wish that it was just that easy

For so long, we wasted time. We tiptoed around our feelings, afraid of loosing what we had. If only we had just been honest, it would have been so much greater. Those precious moments, the night before she was taken back to Manticore, was probably the best and the worst of my life. It felt so perfect, so right. And now when I see her, I know what I am missing out on. All because I had to save the bloody world.

Cause I'm waiting for tonight

Been waiting for tomorrow

I'm somewhere in between

What is real

Just a dream

What is real

Just a dream

What is real

Just a dream

The only place we can be together now is in my dreams. When I dream of her, there is no virus. Most of the time I don't even kiss her. Instead, we dance together, walk hand in hand, even just lie on the couch curled up as we watch a movie together. Just being together, being free. Nothing holding us back.

Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in

Don't be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again

I don't want to run away from this

I know that I just don't need this

I love her. I always have. Part of me tells me I shouldn't, that I need to move on. But I don't think I have ever loved someone like this before. All I want to do is make her safe, make her happy. That's all she wants for me. So why can't I? Sometimes life is just plain unfair.

Cause I cannot stand still

I can be this unsturdy

This cannot be happening

Enough torture for tonight. Slowly I glide through the apartment again, pausing by the stereo and listening to the final lyrics flow through the speakers.

Cause I'm waiting for tonight

Been waiting for tomorrow

And I'm somewhere in between

What is real

Just a dream

What is real

Just a dream

What is real

Just a dream

What is real just a dream

Another day gone. Another night gone. And I survived. I wipe away the last of my tears as I climb into bed, praying for sleep to come and take me away from this broken world to somewhere in between, where we can be together.