He was Mr. Unattainable.

He had to be the hottest, sexiest, most interesting, nicest, coolest, need I go on? He was my friend which had to make it the worst. He was also dating my friend which made it even more bad.

But what did I know maybe he was just one of my best friends which made him seem like a god. Or maybe I had just a crush. Or maybe I was in love, I mean what do I know it's not like I have been before.

I don't know what it was about him, maybe it was because he dated girls who I came to be friends with. Or maybe it was because he was a bit older. I don't think I'll ever know. But what I do know is it's not fair.

Not fair, well honey life isn't fair. I know that's what your thinking. But the thing is my life has always been fair. I've always had a boyfriend if I wanted one. I've always been spoiled but I just can't seem to get him.

I know he thinks of me as a sister but the thing is I'm not-his sister I mean. I'm just not. Why is it that he can like one of my friends but he can't like me.

Or a better question why does he become mad and nasty whenever I have a new boyfriend. It's not because he's jealous believe me I thought of that. It's not because he likes me I've told you, I'm just like his little sister. I have to wonder though if there is a reason for his rude acts. I mean he freaked out above all means when I liked his best friend.

Forget it Ruthie, he doesn't like you. Just move on.

She was Miss Unattainable.

She was pretty and she was smart. And I had to be an idiot and not realize this before. She's not my little sister Mac was right. I never thought I'd hear myself say that. I mean it was apparent that something was going on there but I just wouldn't see it. Or maybe I couldn't see it?

Then Sandy had to come along and now I don't know what's going to happen. I mean first of all Meredith, cool and sweet and nice but it was a mistake saying I love you. I mean I don't love her that was obvious when she mentioned Ruthie.

Meredith said her name and all I could think was this isn't right. First I make the biggest mistake of my life-Sandy I mean. Now I can't get out of it, and of course I can't tell Ruthie because well then something bad will happen.

It doesn't really matter what that bad thing is but for certain it'll be bad. I don't understand it because last year Ruthie Camden meant nothing more to me then the girl who lived in the house I was staying in. We fought a lot I remember that, then we became friends that was great, having a friend-girl that wouldn't judge but would listen about all my girl problems. That was good.

But then something happened she started having her own boy problems. I should have been fine with it, ready to help just as she was with me. But the thing was I completely wasn't. Harry, Vincent, Jack all three of these names stung me. And sadly I really didn't get it.

Mac did he definitely got it. He knew Ruthie wasn't always going to be a fourteen year old girl. He knew she'd grow up he knew she'd get older, he knew if she was that pretty then she could only get prettier. But me being the idiot I am just didn't see it.

Every guy I know seems to think Ruthie's "sexy" but none of them actually know her. None of them had to share a house with her let alone a bathroom when she was cranky in the morning.

So why is it now after I got a great girlfriend and I got myself into the biggest problem of my life that I finally realized what a great girl the girl next door was.

The girl next door is a bit of a ploy seeing as she doesn't live next door. But still she was supposed to be the little sister, she wasn't supposed to be like this. Nothing was supposed to be like this.

Forget it Martin, she doesn't like you. Just move on.

A/N Really short one shot that kind of popped into my head while I was reading a book. I'm still writing my other story don't you all freak at once.