Got It Memorized?
Chapter One: Burn, Baby, Burn
Roxas...
You were the only one I liked. You were the only friend I had. I had hoped to be with you, to stay by you for the rest of my being. I had my heart, or should I say my hopes since I do not have a heart, that I would see your face every day.
Why did you leave? Why did you leave me? Who was I supposed to fight beside? To burn my fire for? Without you, I am more incomplete than I already was. I need...I really need you with me.
My flames, they had always burned for you, they will always continuing burning only for you, but now I can't summon my fires with my adoration for you. The only flames that burn now are that of my anger and fury. I do not want this. I want you! Roxas! Come back! Come back to me please!
I call out to you but you don't even remember me, not my name, not my spirit, not my flames. Do you know how much it hurts to see that my existence mean nothing to you when you mean to me more than life? Was I nothing to you to begin with that you can forget about me so easily? I was not even a bit important to you?
I tried, I called to you with all I can. By force, I showed you the fire that is only meant for you. I urged you, but nothing worked.
I don't have a heart. A nobody has no right to anything. I wasn't supposed to exist but it was because of you that I did not want to simply fade away. Searching for my heart was not my reason in Organization XIII. It was so I could be with you, help you in any way you wanted me to. I am that devoted to you. I admit I am sick, the illness of love seeping through my veins in blazes. I am not capable of doing anything else but think of you, think of us, what we used to be, what I want us to be.
How can I make you remember me? We were best friends, weren't we? I never told you how much beyond that that I felt, but did you have to crush all my hopes by not even remembering my name, my flames?
I am deeply wounded. Why? Why? Why can't I make you remember me? Doesn't my flames, my inferno presence remind you of maybe a little of me, trigger anything?
I'm frustrated I tell you! Why won't you come back? I'm not worth even a pint of your memory? Am I to you, really nothing? I don't want to be nothing, not to you.
I feel so deprived, so lonely. And that is why I am currently in the arms of another man. Roxas...Roxas...I promised to myself that I will love only you but I...I am so...so cold...My flames cannot burn on its own. I needed you. You didn't come.
But do not worry. My heart still belongs to you, wherever it may be...I have a feeling that it is with you already. He is only a substitute. I call out only your name, your name in beautiful swirling red blazes.
Roxas...