Hi i'm Ally Dawson i'm not one of those girls that cuts herself or who has abusive parents. I'm just normal but my story means a lot to me because I may not have gone through all of those things but i did go through my own fight and lets just say it was not close to easy!

I just started grade 10 and I was so set on creating a new image for myself instead being that painfully shy girl that not many people remember or give a second thought about, I wanted to be one of those girls that everyone knows, the girl that everyone yearns to know or hang out with. Let's just say it did not turn out like I dreamed it would. It was the total opposite I had so much trouble talking to these people yet they all knew each other I literally started freaking out in the first 5 minutes of class all I wanted to do was leave, and oh don't get me started on lunch that was like my biggest nightmare coming true! But I think god finally gave me a break when he made me bump into my best friend Trish. Let me just say were nothing alike she's loud and doesn't care about social status she only cares about what she thinks of herself, me not so much. Well lets get back to my not so great life. She bumped into me and the only thing I could manage to get out was "you have the same hair as my little sister". I totally freaked even a little attention on me makes me want to hide in a ball and wish like life never happened. But her reaction was way different than what i thought it would be she started laughing her head off and I was basically just pushed into the crowd like I've been there friends since forever. I was so confused I didn't answer and I said nothing it's like I just went mute. But they didn't notice they just kept on talking to me like I knew everything about them! After that me Trish became inseparable until she got her stupid new boyfriend Trent I hated him, and it just wasn't the same hanging out with the girls I couldn't open up to them and, laugh like an idiot or just get all personal. Let's just say it got boring REALLY boring.

So I set off to find some other people who wouldn't mind me tagging along just anyone different, that got me out of talking about lip gloss, boys and, clothes! I mean yea I love all that stuff but sometimes you just want to change the topic, talk about something that doesn't involve squealing or giggling like a bimbo. This time god wasn't so sweet it took me two weeks to find someone who would even say hi to me. That was until our P.E teacher decided to pick our partners for us instead of letting us choose, and I got paired up with the one and only Dez! Trust me I really did not expect this friendship to work out but boy was I wrong. Once you look past all the kookiness he's got a huge heart and, a sick sense of humor. I actually started the talking in P.E when I noticed him wearing a guns and roses shirt need I say more! We became like brother and sister after that always hung out, he used to check and interview every boy that asked me out, and we had our brother sister fight moments those were something to watch:D He got hit by a car 2 years later he didn't make it. I cried a lot, and stayed in shock for 3 weeks the funeral is where I really broke down. Everyone tried to calm me down it didn't go so well. My mom told me that I gave Trent a black eye. 2 months after the incident Trish said that she didn't want to be friends with me anymore because I wasn't the fun sarcastic ally from before, now I was the depressed downer Ally. That day I lost all my friends. That was also the day I became a totally new Ally the one who blocks everyone out, who pretends the world doesn't exist, the Ally that doesn't believe in love or friendship who knows that nothing good can ever last. Until I met a annoying blonde named Austin Moon...