Freddie's pov
Right now my mind isn't doing what its suppose to be doing so all I do is run. I can't deal with what just happened and I won't accept it. As I keep running through the white and bright halls all these images pass through my head. The times I tried to run away from her the times I hated her. All the times I walked full of hope that the last time I walk out of here it would be with the person who loves me more than anyone ever could.
5 minutes ago
I slowly open the door and walk to her bed. I look at her face she's tired, she fought but she didn't win. She grabs my hand and I lay beside her.
''Hey mom'' She looks up at me and smiles like she always does.
''The doctor woke you up with that call didnt he'' I nodd.
''Yea.. I probably look awful'' She puts her hand to my face and rubs my cheek.
''You should take better care of yourself'' I give her a little smile.
''Maybe but..''
She sighs and tries to sit up straight and I help her move the pillows so she's comfortable.
''No I don't wanna hear that, youre always busy taking care of me ,or your girlfriend ,or your college points ,or your job. You gotta start thinking about yourself mister''
''Yes I'll try to take some time for myself'' It made me smile that even in this kind of a situation she still managed to be the way she's been her entire life, worrying like a crazy person about me.
She gave my hand a little squeeze and says ''Ýou know I love you right'' I nodd ''and that I'm proud of my little man''
I chuckle ''Yes mom I know, I love you to.. a lot and im gonna think about you everyday. You know you have an irreplaceble place in my heart''
I'm starting to lose it but I can't let her see me like this now. I need to hold it together show her im gonna be okay.
''You know I wouldn't go if I knew you weren't ready to stand on youre own Freddie'' Tears were forming in her eyes but I knew she wanted to be strong.
We just laid there for a while untill her hand started losing grip and the heart monitor started beeping slower and slower. I got up from the bed the moment she stopped breathing I turned around to look at her one last time but I knew my mother wasn't there anymore.
Present
I finally got to my apartment and I don't even know how I managed to drive my car here. I opened the door and tried to close it as silently as I could because Sam was still sleeping. I didn't feel like telling what happened right now I was gonna tell her ofcourse but I need time for myself now I will tell her in the morning. I took my coat and shoes off and walked to our bedroom. I didn't have the energy to change so I crept in bed. Sam was peacefully asleep and snoring a little. I snuggled into her side and warmed up a little. I couldn't close an eye I felt awful my head is so heavy and I can't stop my tears anymore. I feel the exhaustion getting to me and everything turns black.