Disclaimer: I dont own any characters, they belong to Ms. Meyers

Summary: she hated the way he treated her. She wanted out, but she didnt want to hurt him.

Chapter One

God I hate the way he affects me, watching how he holds her. Wishing it was me, hating the fact that it wasn't me. Cold arms wrapped around my middle making me jump at the sudden tempeture change.

"Whats wrong darling?" his un-needed breath moved a shiver down my spine and to the tips of my fingers. Unwrapping his arms I hugged my chest and walked away closer towards the edge of the cliff,"Bella?..." I turned my head to the sound of his voice, the wind moving my hair around a little bit, his un-needed breathing stopped.

"I'm fine, just a little tired thats all." turning on my heel I walked passed him towards the house. Hearing his laughter reach my ears, I shook my head trying to fight back the tears that threatened to fall down my face, "Edward, I'm ready to go home." A second later I was by the car and then in the seat, the non exsistent sound of the engine starting up soothed my racing heart. Edward watched me out of the corner of his eye. Laying my head against the cool window watching rain drops creating a strange but mystical pattern on the window. Breathing deeply I closed my eyes and concentrated on my breathing. In. Out. In. Out.

"Bella..we're here." quickly lifting my head up I pressed my hand up against my eyes and got out of the car. Cold fingers wrapped around my wrist and I froze, "Whats wrong?" His question penetrated my mind and I just shook my head.

"I'll tell you later." and with that I shut the door and walked towards the front door, unlocked it and walked inside. Tossing my shoes into the corner of the room, I slowly made my way to the kitchen, I stopped at the door and looked around. Bright yellow cabnits attatch to the white walls seemed to stare at me yet have no eyes. Step by step I walked towards the sink and got a glass of water. It was icey and was tasteless. Everything seemed to have lost its taste now and days. The tears that I fought back now came back with a fight at full force. Spilling over the brim of my eye lids, my vision suddenly became blurry, turning around I hurled the glass cup towards the opposist wall. It shattered sending shards of blue glass around in a weird pattern on the floor. My head pounded and I slid to the floor. Clutching my head I let out an earth shattering scream, sobs racked my body and I rocked back and forth trying to calm down.

Small arms wrapped around my shoulders and I knew who it was. "I'm sorry Bella." I looked at her and leaned against her instead, her hold on me becoming tighter but not too tight.

"I'm falling for him Alice, I hate that I'm feelig like this. I mean, I'm with Edward. I should be happy that I'm marrying him in 6 months, what is wrong with me?" more tears fell and silence enclosed us for a few minutes before she said.

"Its cause you love him."

hey you guys its good to be back on here, after some good ol'e fashion soul searching i've decided to take down one story at a time and either redo and make better if delete so tell me what you think of this new one and let me know :)

-Melissa aka Kaliy-moon97