A/N: I know that some of you are waiting for me to update In Blue, but I'm having a really hard time with it. I'm still working on it though. In the mean time I thought it'd be better to have A fic than NO fic... So there ya go. Thanks to Sams for convincing me it didn't suck THAT bad. ;-) Love, Lynn

Revelations of an addict

I don't think we're soul mates.
I don't think we're meant to be together, and have always been.
I don't think it was written in the stars.
I think this is just what we both want.

I don't believe in fairytales, prince charming sweeping me off my feet.
I don't believe in love at first sight.
I don't believe in faith, or destiny.
I believe in us.

I don't want your everyday committed relationship with you.
I don't want a lovely home cooked breakfast every Sunday, or chocolate when I have my period.
I don't want small notes on the bathroom mirror, or on the dinnertable.
I want you.

I don't expect you to give up meat.
I don't expect you to push aside your life for me.
I don't expect you to work your schedule around mine so we get to spend time together and have dinner at the same table every night together.
I expect us to just be.

I don't need you to be romantic.
I don't need you to bring me flowers and tell me you love me every day.
I don't need you to remember our anniversary or the very first time we kissed.
I need to be with you.

I don't think I'd die if you weren't around me every day.
I don't think two people in love don't need to work on a relationship to make it work.
I don't think it's going to be easy, nor do I want it to.
I think I love you, and that you feel the same way.

I don't believe that once you start something everything will work out.
I don't believe in dinner parties or family outings.
I don't believe in the fact that everything happens for a reason.
I believe in love.

I don't want you to break all of your habits.
I don't want you to make your world revolve around me, around us.
I don't want a stroll through the park, a big wedding and lots of babies.
I just want you to be there for me, wrap your arms around me, after a particularly disturbing case.

I don't expect anything else than mere comfort with each other.
I don't expect moonlight and rose pedals, candlelight and romance.
I don't expect an engagement ring or expensive jewellery.
I expect a shared comfort.

I don't need you to declare your love for me in front of everyone.
I don't need the world to know that we are together.
I don't need to wear a ring to know I'm yours.
I just need your trust on this.

I don't love to have late night strolls on the beach.
I don't love to spend my nights talking about my feelings, and yours.
I don't love to entwine our fingers when walking down the street.
I love you, and to me, that's all that matters.

And that's why I'm writing you this letter.
And that's why I'm not telling you all of this to your face.
And that's why I won't pick up the phone when you call me.
And that's why I left early today.

I love you, that's all there is to it.
I love you, and if you don't love me back that's okay.
I love you, and I'm glad I told you.
I love you, I just… love you…