Disclaimer: I do not own Gossip Girl. If I did Nate and Jenny would already be together.
Despair. Shame. Regret.
Those seem to be the only emotions I'm capable of right now.
You know that feeling you get when your watching a horror movie and right after the scary part where you involuntarily give a cringe worthy impression of a scream queen, you feel foolish and embarrassed of your reaction.
Well that times ten is how I feel right now.
I shouldn't of went after Nate. I shouldn't of tried so ruthlessly to break-up him and Serena. And most importantly I shouldn't have gave my virginity to Chuck.
But I can't blame him.
These are my mistakes and I can't pin this on anyone but myself.
Not Chuck for taking the virginity of an admittedly desperate 16 year old. Not Dan for not being there for me when I needed him. And not dad for being so absorbed in his problems with Lily to see my desperate cry for help.
I can't blame my punishment for being exiled to Hudson on them. They're just trying to help me.
And when I return, I will make it up to them.
I will atone for my mistakes.
"Now boarding Platform 42 to Hudson."
A/N: Okay this is the prologue to my new story. I already have six chapters completed so I will update this again next week. Also if your one of those people that listen to music while reading I'm creating a fan-mix for this story. For this chapter Nobody's Home just seemed perfect. What do you think? And remember reviews are love3