After All We've Been Through

by lelianas

"He's all I have now, I know it sounds stupid and cliche but we both have to rely on each other, to survive. We can't falter in decisions and I can't act childish anymore, like I was with you. I'm sorry I got you killed Riley." Ellie's journal through her journey with Joel, documenting her feelings and experiences through the whole ordeal. Rated M because game is rated M.

1. My Turn

Entry 1-

Riley gave me this journal, a bit before my birthday. Sorry buddy but I forgot about you after well I'd rather not even write it. Marlene has been keeping me safe. She says that she's going to take me out west, where the Fireflies have labs there, her or someone else. You know what she tells me? 'Don't be scared Ellie, everything will turn out alright.' I'm not scared of clickers or runners and I tell her this but she shakes her head and tells me that it's not the clickers I should be afraid of. Whatever the hell that means.
She comes back some days with this worried look on her face telling me I'm not going west today. I want to though, more than I've ever wanted anything else. Besides having you back, Riley. I want them to find out why I'm like this, why I lived instead of you. I want them to say 'hey kid I know you're only fourteen but killing you and finding out why you're like this could be the secret to saving mankind' and I would accept it, letting them dissect my brain or whatever. My turn will finally come, and you won't be alone any more Riley.