Dear Scott,
You were a wonderful brother. It is so horrible that you had to leave us. We will miss you so much. But I will miss you too much to put in words. I enjoyed the wonderful talks we had together about nothing in general. I enjoyed the times we thought we wouldn't get through, but we helped each other get through. I enjoyed your smiling face, your pissed off face, your 'oh no you didn't' face, and all your other funny faces. I enjoyed you.
Why did you have to leave us so soon? You were just starting to understand the world and it's wonders. Why did you have to leave me? John won't help me as much as you did. You understood me. You cared for me because I was me. But I don't know if I can still be me anymore... I wish I could have gotten over to your 'Bird fast enough to save you. If only I could have. This is all my fault. It should be me dead because I choose not to come right away. I am so sorry.
I know I never told you this enough- I love you, and I will always love you. I can't believe you're gone and I keep expecting that you're going to walk through that door any minute asking why everyone is so sad. I feel like crying and I never feel like crying. I didn't know that I would need you this bad after you were gone.
Our job is a scary job, but I never expected any of us to die on the job. This was a huge thing the effected all of us so bad. I take back every mean thing I said to you. I never really meant any of it. I just- wish I could tell you how sorry I am in person. I was a jerk to you a lot and you just kept your temper with me. If only I knew how it would feel inside after you died. I don't remember what I said to you before you died, but I hope it was nice.
I wish I could just have five more minutes with you. Or even better, a chance to re-do everything. I'm sorry for everything. I love you brother.
Love,
Virgil