CHAPTER 1
NEW BEGINNING OR NOT?
Hello to the JILY shippers...
Guys this is my first jily fanfic on and its going to be crazy... Help me and guide me through the bumps and all suggestions are welcomed. I wanna know what you wanna have and its sure gonna be there in my story.
All the main characters are sake of our lovely queen of magical world aka J K ROWLING and everything is well fanfiction my fiction (lol) and all the rest itty bitty characters are my magical creations(hope u guys love them too)
And I take no credits , I repeat , I take no credits , zero , null , nada , none...
So Happy Reading!!!
Hakuna matata...
The prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets...
The loveliest eyes have cried the most...
The kindest heart hearts have felt the most pain
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CHAPTER -1
A New Beginning or Not!!!
And Lily Evans sighed. Smiled but sighed. This was a new year, a new year in her world, her magical world. She couldn't take the hurt and painfull memories of her other world there. She was known to be perfect there and she has to maintain it that way.
She looked out of her window as the houses of Coakworth passed by. Eyes wandering outside but actually searching for just one thing, one sign that it didn't actually happen. But nothing got the attention of Lily Evan's eyes or her mind.
Neither the park where she learnt to run nor the elementary school she went to before things changed for her. Magically. Her mind wandering from nothing to everything yet focused on just one episode of her life that she never thought would actually happen to her. She had often considered it as a sheer possibility but truly saying never had thought it would occur in reality. She was too scared to even confront herself. But now that she has to face the reality , and it wasn't just a thought but the truth of her life , it hurt her. Hurt her so bad that even the sky started to shed tears.
Her eyes landed on her other side and she was met with the sight of her father driving the car with a bittersweet , ambiviant smile and she knew the reason behind it.
Mr Henry Evans, a very sincere yet funny man, tall and muscular with chocolate brown eyes and dark brown hair and who loved her daughter too much that he could see through her. He knew what was going on with her, inside her because he knew what the trouble was or who the trouble was. And Lily knew it too, so she turned her face again towards the window.
"You alright, honey?" asked Mr Evans.
"Yeah, just tired, didn't got much sleep last night and had to wake up early, so... yeah, that's it." she replied.
" It's not about what happened with..." started Mrs Rose Evans from the back seat but she was cut by Lily.
"Mom, I don't wanna talk about it. Please ...just leave it the way it is, it doesn't matter , okay?" 'But it do matter, a lot actually' said the voice inside her but she ignored it.
The rest of the ride was silent aside from the pitter patter of the rain. When they reached their destination , Kings cross station , her father parked the car in the parking lot, picked up her luggage and the family continued their way towards platform 9 and 10 again in an unusual awkward silence. When they reached near the spot Mr Evans did the only thing he wanted to do at the moment. He puts the luggage on the ground and tightly hugged his daughter, because he believed sometimes all you need is a hug and whispered , " It's gonna be alright honey. It's gonna hurt for sure, but it's not gonna hurt forever. You know that, right? "
Too emotional to say anything Lily just nodded in affirmness.
Taking it as a positive sign he continued, "Always remember we love you and are always here for you , always beside you, Always... What happened between you two , may be it was meant to be, people come in our life for various reasons honey, good ones to help us and wrong ones to give us lessons of life. May be he was a wrong one."
All she could say was , "May be."
" You are going to be okay. You are going to start a new year, your final school year, and let me proudly say it again, new year as a Head Girl, you are going to study hard , enjoy with your friends , win the housecup for your house and be a role model for others." said Mr Evans.
" Well, you forgot one thing there, Mr proud father" said Mrs Evans with a humorous smile.
Mr Evans turned a bit , but never loosened his hold around his daughter and raised an eyebrow questioningly to which Mrs Evans simply replied " And decline the proposal of the Potter boy in many more new and innovative ways." which made all three of them chuckle .
Seeing the genuine smile on his daughter's face he let go of her and she went to hug her mother a goodbye.
" We love you, hun." said Mrs Evans.
" I love you too , mom, a lot" replied Lily.
"Promise to write to us?"
" Twice a week. Promise," she replied with a smile, "untill and unless Tuney doesn't get a hold of any letter."
"Then, that's not a thing to worry about since she runs out of the room and sometimes house when the owls come with the delivery. "
Saying a final goodbye with several hugs , jokes and promises to keep on the other side of platform 9 and 3/4 she ran through the barrier between platform 9 and 10 to start her seventh and final year at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry, in hope of leaving pain and aches and broken heart behind. But little did she know things like that are never left behind. Pain stays. It aches and aches untill it gets healed properly.
This summer break wasn't bad at all. It was worst of worsts. She never had any idea of ending it like the way it did. First she had to deal with Tuny and her Tuna aka her boyfriend Vernon Dursely. He was always at her house and ofcourse he too hated even the very existence of her just like her sister. Moreover to what she had to listen to Petunia gushing over that whale she called her boyfriend , she sometimes had to listen and sometimes even witness their make out sessions as , let's quote it again "he was all-bloody-ways at her house." As this was not enough misery, all her friends from Hogwarts were spending time with their family travelling around so she couldnt get away from the two not so kind people she was related to. She missed magical world. Sure she was of age now and could do magic at home and she did get Daily Profit and Witch Weekly but she missed seeing people like her.
Her muggle friends were all to keep her sane. If it wasn't for Alex and Candice, her parents and some occasional letters from her friends she would either have been in a Mental Asylum or worse in Azkaban.
But the thing that had her broken now was the fact that he wasn't there now .There was a barrier between them now. And that was what the worst thing was. Every year Lily would wait for the term to end so she could spend more time with him , be with him so they could do all the crazy shit together because he was with whom Lily Evans could be whoever she wants to be . But now she could not do that because there wasn't a they anymore now. It was only her. And it hurt.
Her head was pounding now as she took in the new scenario now. Funny, how much different the two worlds on the opposite sides of a wall could be. But even this couldn't keep her mind to stop running in circles. She couldn't help but think about what happened and what more or less could have happened if...
"EVANS...oye Evans..."
The sound of someone calling her name awoke her from her trance. And now she regretted not moving too fast because she wasn't in any mood to deal with this particular someone.
James Potter came running towards Lily Evans like a dog who was bringing the ball thrown by his master back. And all of a sudden Lily was swept off her feet as James Potter now picked her up and started spinning her around in circles. He was just so happy to see her after almost three months now.
"What are you doing Potter, put me down this instant." Lily shouted over the noise around her.
" Your wish my command, my lady" he replied with his most charming smile as he put her down.
Once she was sure her head wasn't spinning anymore and she wouldn't fall as she starts moving, she glared up at him and took in his image. She noticed that his jet black hair were in his usual unrully manner, sticking up in all the directions, the same rectangular glasses hiding his hazel eyes , the same cocky grin plastered on his face, a tan on his pale skin but he has grown up yet again and that too with a natural good built. 'Damn, would he even stop growing before he becomes a half mountain troll, he is six feet now.' she both exclaimed and wondered in her head.
"Don't look up at me like that now, I guess I was just too happy and excited to see you again after... forget it... I just wanted to-"
Rolling her eyes, taking a deep breath , she puts her hand in front of him to signal him to stop. She wasn't in a mood to shower him with some witty responses at the moment. " Stop Potter, just stop... Please... I'm so not in a mood of ...urghhhh... just stop okay..." she almost seemed to beg now . Then she turned around leviated her trunks , held the cage of her barn owl Athene and left.
And he let her go.
James Potter just stood rooted to the ground. He watched her as she walked off. He watched as her hair bounced with every small yet fast step she took towards the train. He watched as she headed straight towards the door of the Hogwarts Express without giving anyone the friendly smile everyone was used to see on her face , as she just ignored the pair of third years fighting across a pole she crossed on her way.
He used to notice those details that no one else noticed about her, call him a creep or whatever you may want but those little details were missing today. Her emrald green eyes didn't had the usual twinkle in them and even had bags underneath them, her auburn red hair weren't straightened like usual, her walk didn't held the poise, her shoulders were slumped , the usual amusement she always had on her face when she takes a look around the magical platform everytime was missing, she wasn't smiling , at all , her 5.4" feet tall and curvy figure didn't radiate the usual confidence and presumptuousness, and much to his dismay her eyes seemed sad and hurt. All he could think at that very moment was, his Lily was hurt. And he couldn't stand that fact.
" Something's not right, ...something's wrong" he said more to himself.
" Well something is obviously wrong if it isn't right Prongsie..." came a voice of Sirius Black. In response James just glared up at him.
"Woah woah... nice stag nice stag... you don't wanna hit your master now, do you?" asked Sirius with an amused grin.
" Shut up and be serious for once, padfoot"
Sirius opened his mouth to say something but the boy with the glasses beat him to it "And no I am Sirius Black pun intended!"
" I wasn't going to say that..." Black exclaimed loudly but one look from James and he shuts up with an eye roll and stuck his tongue at him in a childish manner.
"So mature" was all James could reply and was again lost in his thoughts of a certain red head.
Sirius Black stood there , his grey eyes held amusement , flicking his dark long raven hair , sending flirty winks in the direction of passing girls, wondering what had gotten his best mates knickers in a twist so sudden but then asked himself 'Really padfoot? There's only one thing or one person who holds that power on James , must have encountered with the flower' he mused. He looked at his best mate mate again and saw the seriousness and grimance on his face and was taken back for a second , he puts his hand on his shoulder and gave it a light squeeze, "James , what's it?"
" It's Lily , padfoot"
"It's always Lily , Prongs, care to be more specific, huh?" Sirius replied with an eye roll.
" She seemed to be different"
"That I noticed my friend, summer has grown her curves ...Ouch... what was that for? he whinned as James hit him in the guts.
" Don't even say a word about her like that," James said very seriously "even my best friend doesn't has that right, besides I am not talking about physical change in her padfoot , she is always gonna be the most beautiful and wonderful girl in my eyes, it's just..." he trailed off not sure what to say anymore.
" Just what?"
" She seemed hurt and sad , she didn't even shouted at me, at all"
" Isn't that great? She didn't yelled at you, shouldn't it be a good sign, or progress or something?"
" You aren't understanding padfoot, She . Seemed . Sad " he said word by word. " It wasn't like her, it was as if she is in a great pain,she seemed hurt."
" You sure ?"
"I don't know... okay .. I just ... nevermind " sighed James .
"Well , we will think about this later , for now let's go find Moony and Wormtail... " said Sirius. To lighten up his best mate he messed up his already messed up hair, punched him in stomach, hit him with a jelly legs jinx and ran away laughing leaving a cursing James behind.
James couldn't just believed his best friend, but it surely did worked to take his mind off Lily as he started plotting a revenge plan on his way towards the train. It didn't took him too long to find the compartment where his fellow marauders were seated.
Peter Pettigrew was sprawled on his seat. His short and chubby figure in a full display, his blonde hair covering his forehead . He was finding something in his trunk it appeared. "Do you have my chocolate frogs , Moony?" he asked their werewolf friend.
"And why would be that, Wormtail?"
At the seat beside the window sat Remus Lupin or Moony as always with a book in one hand and chocolate in other . 'Always the sincere one' thought James and lightly chuckled . Remus had grown up. He was now 6'2 in height, his sandy brown hair flecked with grey combed perfectly, his green eyes burried in the book in his hand and his pale skin full of scars. It pained James how the other three marauders couldn't be with him at the last full moon. There were more scars then regular ones. The wolf must have hurt himself there without any diversions they usually made in their animagus forms.
Yes, James Potter, Sirius Black and Peter Pettigrew were unregistered , illegal animagi. But they didn't did it for fun and kicks and adventure purpose, they did it for him. For their best friend. To take some pain and misery away from him during the time of his transformations. Remus was always a bit distant from the others , always hiding something it seemed and when they came across the truth, not that he was doing bad job at keeping his secret , but some secrets are meant to be revealed at some point to some people. You can't hide something that big from those who really love you, so when at the end of their first year they figured out his secret , all the three of them wanted was to help him and then one day during their third year the most not so serious person aka Sirius Black came with the theory that if they can't be humans and be with him why don't they be animals and be with him. Ignoring all the protests of Remus they devoted all their spare time to learn about being animagus and were finally succeeded in their fifth year. If there was one thing the three of them were really proud of , it was at their success of helping their friend during his worst days even if it puts their life in danger or the threat of being put in the magical prison Azkaban, but they didn't care.
"Looks like Moony has already began to study for NEWTS. Don't worry Moony you are gonna pass, we won't let you fail." said James in casual yet amused manner.
Hearing the voice of their fellow marauder the other two turned their heads to face him.
"Well, well I cant risk that now Prongs , could I, after seeing your tantrum about how much you will miss Hogwarts that you don't wanna leave it?" he replied with a light chuckle.
" You know how to hurt a man's pride , don't you Moony ?" came beguiled voice of Sirius Black and James pounced on him so quickly that he didn't had time to turn and run or fire a hex at him. They both toppled and fell on the hallway outside their compartment , James on top of Sirius.
"Rape , rape, bloody rape , help meeee save meeee" shouted Sirius in a high pitched girly voice, to which James just gave a look, so Sirius continued his melodrama ," I know I said I love you Prongsie , but not like that , I am a man."
When James understood that Sirius isn't gonna be serious anytime soon, he contributed in his act. " But I do love you Padfoot and look now I have you under me. Finally after all this wait, I know how you look at me like I am the best thing that happened to you, let me love you Padfoot, let me cherrish you"
"They have g... gone i.. insane this t.. time...hahhaahahahaaa" came a cracked up voice of Pleter.
"Okay, you just destroyed my image of manliness in front of everyone Prongsie, and you are gonna pay for that, now get the hell up from me" he almost roared at the last part
" Not untill you say ' sorry James I am an ugly idiot and you are the most fantastic and amazing and handsome person at Hogwarts'." James replied with a sardonic grin and held his torso to the ground more tightly.
Sirius seemed to think for a moment and then lifted his head, motioned James to come near which he compiled and licked his face.
James jumped up and started wiping his face with disgust "ewww... yuck yuck yuck... ewww Padfoot you are such a dog, urghhhh..."
" Now is that even a question Prongsie? I am a big black handsome dog" he replied with a wink and ran pass the crowd yelling "I am a dog , I am a dog"
The crowd that had gathered around him roared with laughter, inside their compartment Remus was clutching his sides and Peter was rolling on the floor laughing .
Even in this roar of laughter James heard that one laugh that had the magic to make his day and knowing that somehow he was the one to make her laugh he felt light inside. He turned his head and there was Lily , laughing along with others and that was all he needed to see and all he could see at the moment . His trance was broken as she turned and left yet again and went inside another compartment with her friends. He made a mental note to thanks Sirius for this hustle bustle he caused that made her laugh.
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To be continued...