Title: Mr. Satan's Thoughts

By Leah Beth Sinn

Summary: An introspective look into Mr. Satan, from his POV.

Disclaimer: DBZ belongs to a Japanese guy and is licensed by FUNinmation. The song Inside us All is performed by Creed and belongs to them.

Author's Notes: At the end.

Rating: G

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When I'm all alone

And no one else is there

Waiting by the phone

To remind me I'm still here

It's been years since Videl left the house. Years since she and Gohan wed. Years since the birth of my grand-daughter. Her wedding was held here in this house not a week ago. The house seems so quiet now, compared to the day my dear Pan-chan got married to that Briefs boy.

The phone rings. It's probably someone wanting to speak to the famous Mr. Satan.

"Hello?" I ask into the receiver after picking up the phone. "Satan residence."

"Oh, sorry," the voice on the other end of the line says. "I dialed the wrong number."

Beep...beep...beep...beep...

I put the phone back in its cradle. So much for being famous.

When shadows paint the scenes

Where spotlights used to fall

And I'm left wondering

Is it really worth it all?

While I'm in a contemplative mood, I might as well think about the past. The first thing that comes to mind is the Cell Games. And how I lied to everyone and told them that I had beaten Cell. That's when I had become really famous. I almost blocked from my mind the real memories of that day. That is, until Gohan, the real savior of the earth, asked my permission for Videl's hand in marriage.

Before I would say yes, I told him that I had to ask him a question. I asked him why he let me take the credit for beating Cell. He told me it was because I was already famous and he was a nobody 11-year old boy. No one would have believed him anyway. So he let everything be.



Now, I'm wondering if I should have let "well enough" be. If I could go back and change things, I would, but I can't. And now, I have to live with the guilt.

There's a peace inside us all

Let it be your friend

It will help you carry on

In the end

There's a peace inside us all

People say that once you find peace in your actions, you won't regret them any more. I thought that I had found my peace a long time ago. But I still regret my actions about the Cell Games. I guess I really didn't find peace after all. But I'm still trying. I guess it all comes back to that old maxim: If at first you don't succeed, try, try again.

Life can hold you down

When your not living up

Can't you hear the sound?

Hearts bleeding out loud

My thoughts keep straying to my dear Pan-chan's wedding last week. Her heart was pounding so loud, I could have sworn that I heard it. Trunks too. They were both nervous. Especially Trunks. With threats of bodily harm from Gohan, Goten, and Goku if he ever hurt Pan, who wouldn't be scared. But he has nothing to worry about. He assured everyone that he would rather die a horrible death than hurt Pan. And I could tell that he was telling the absolute truth. Trunks may be many things, but he's not a liar.

Although the names change

Inside we're all the same

Why can't we tear down the walls?

To show the scars we're covering

I'll never get used to hearing Pan being called Mrs. Briefs. That's the boy's mother, not Pan. She'll always be Son Pan to me. And even after all these years, I'm still not used to hearing Son Videl. I guess she'll always be Videl Satan to me.

But they haven't changed at all. Being married to the strongest man on earth hasn't changed Videl at all. Having the last name Briefs hasn't changed Pan any, and I don't think that it ever will.

These girls--no women--will never conform to society. The total opposite of me, and of that, I'm glad. They wouldn't be the same, and I don't think that I could stand it if they were any different.

There's a peace inside us all

Let it be your friend

It will help you carry on

In the end

I'm getting old, and I'm still not at peace about what I've said and done in my life. I'm trying, though. Videl, Gohan, and Pan have been helping me to get over my guilt. Hopefully, soon I'll be able to forgive myself. I've already been forgiven by others. First thing in the morning, I'm going to the TV station. I'm going to tell them what really happened the day of the Cell Games.

I'm feeling peaceful already.

There's a peace inside us all



Fin

A/N: In all of my reading experience, I've never seen a story about Mr. Satan. So, I decided to write one. I hope you liked it, even if you don't like Mr. Satan. Personally, I really don't like the guy, but this story needed to be written. Please review this. Thanks.

Love always,

Leah Beth