In My Dreams - Prologue
by Chiharu (girl@chiharu.nu)
Disclaimer: Grrr. *bark* O_o Haha, just kidding.
Author's Notes: I don't know why I keep doing this. I already have 4 other stories that I'm
*supposed* to be working on... but I guess I can't help it. I love Sess/Rin... but there are rarely
any fics about them, compared to Inu/Kag, so I decided to write one up myself. Hopefully, I'll be
able to update soon... but I doubt it.
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'I'm 18. 18. I'm officially an adult. Or... I should be. Girls my age at the villages has already started
a family of their own. I want a family... a husband... kids... everything. I want a family. But... the
only person I want to start a family with is...'
She sighed. There was no way that her Sesshoumaru-sama would feel the same way as she did
him. In his eyes, she was a mere child. He had raised her ever since she was a small girl. She was
his little pup. His property. All she wished now was to be his. And she meant HIS.
She thought hard for a moment.
'Then again... Sesshoumaru-sama has been quite distant with me lately... come to think of it, he's
been distant with me for the past few years... ever since I discovered that I...'
Staring at the sunset, she let out another heavy sigh, leaning her head to the left, resting it lightly
against the tree.
"I've told him once how I felt about wanting a family. He just growled and walked away. I don't
want that to happen again. I don't want him to be mad. But I... I still don't see anything wrong with
a family. They make you feel safe and secure... not that I don't feel that when I'm around
Sesshoumaru-sama... it's just... I want my own kids too. I doubt anyone will want me though,
espeically Sesshoumaru-sama..." she stopped, blinking at herself.
Oh, great. She was so desperate that she was beginning to talk to herself.
"What am I saying... me... a family... that's out of the question. It's even more so when you add
Sesshoumaru-sama in the picture. He always said that they were useless. He said family was a
burden and weakness, so why would he ever... consider one... especially with *me*?"
Her eyes slowly began to blur, and soon, the sunset had became glassy in her eyes. "What is
WRONG with me... why can't I just be content being with Sesshoumaru-sama the way I am now?
I should feel honored... I'm the only human he's ever bothered to deal with..."
Her small hands balled up into a fist, her nails digging sharply into her skin.
"He hates humans with a passion though. He would never start a family with one. He'd rather die...
but what about with a female demon?"
She stopped again to think.
"No... he doesn't need it. He doesn't want it. He doesn't want anything to do with love... and love is
a weakness. Overall, he doesn't need anything... he doesn't want anything... it's true... demons ARE
indestructible. They don't need anything... HE doesn't need anything..."
Then after a few minutes of silence, Rin fell asleep, breathing lightly against the tree.
And from far off, Sesshoumaru looked as if he was in deep thought.
"A family...?" His face was scrunched up, his expression confused. "Why the hell would she want a
family? They're nothing special."
But deep down, he knew why. He knew all along. He knew ever since the day he found out she was
able to carry a child. Before that, he hadn't ever considered it. Hell, if someone was dumb enough
to come up to him and ask him about having a family, he'd probably kill them without a question
because of their stupidity. But now... he was actually thinking about it. More like it, considering it.
With her. Rin. A human.
Fuck.
He *had* become soft. Over the years... unconsciously, he had fallen into a rank of weakness. Not
physically, but emotionally. Well, that is, only with her. To others, he was still the same old demon
lord Sesshoumaru.
No... he couldn't let that happen. He couldn't let himself fall into mating with a human. A naive girl.
He was a DEMON lord for crying out loud. He was cold, silent, strong... strict, something she was
not. She was just an ordinary human...
...Wasn't she?
If she was... then why had he saved her so many years ago? Why had he cared? Why had he even
BOTHERED?
...WHY?
He growled. He knew that he cared for Rin. But love?
...Perhaps. Maybe to a certain point.
No. He did not. He couldn't.
His face became emotionless, and he stood still, almost as if he was about to attack a prey.
He had made a decision. A decision to get rid of Rin.
Forever.
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o_O Don't ask if you get confuzzled. I just wrote whatever popped into my head as I went along.
Everything will probably clear up later... so, um... review! ^_^*
by Chiharu (girl@chiharu.nu)
Disclaimer: Grrr. *bark* O_o Haha, just kidding.
Author's Notes: I don't know why I keep doing this. I already have 4 other stories that I'm
*supposed* to be working on... but I guess I can't help it. I love Sess/Rin... but there are rarely
any fics about them, compared to Inu/Kag, so I decided to write one up myself. Hopefully, I'll be
able to update soon... but I doubt it.
* * *
'I'm 18. 18. I'm officially an adult. Or... I should be. Girls my age at the villages has already started
a family of their own. I want a family... a husband... kids... everything. I want a family. But... the
only person I want to start a family with is...'
She sighed. There was no way that her Sesshoumaru-sama would feel the same way as she did
him. In his eyes, she was a mere child. He had raised her ever since she was a small girl. She was
his little pup. His property. All she wished now was to be his. And she meant HIS.
She thought hard for a moment.
'Then again... Sesshoumaru-sama has been quite distant with me lately... come to think of it, he's
been distant with me for the past few years... ever since I discovered that I...'
Staring at the sunset, she let out another heavy sigh, leaning her head to the left, resting it lightly
against the tree.
"I've told him once how I felt about wanting a family. He just growled and walked away. I don't
want that to happen again. I don't want him to be mad. But I... I still don't see anything wrong with
a family. They make you feel safe and secure... not that I don't feel that when I'm around
Sesshoumaru-sama... it's just... I want my own kids too. I doubt anyone will want me though,
espeically Sesshoumaru-sama..." she stopped, blinking at herself.
Oh, great. She was so desperate that she was beginning to talk to herself.
"What am I saying... me... a family... that's out of the question. It's even more so when you add
Sesshoumaru-sama in the picture. He always said that they were useless. He said family was a
burden and weakness, so why would he ever... consider one... especially with *me*?"
Her eyes slowly began to blur, and soon, the sunset had became glassy in her eyes. "What is
WRONG with me... why can't I just be content being with Sesshoumaru-sama the way I am now?
I should feel honored... I'm the only human he's ever bothered to deal with..."
Her small hands balled up into a fist, her nails digging sharply into her skin.
"He hates humans with a passion though. He would never start a family with one. He'd rather die...
but what about with a female demon?"
She stopped again to think.
"No... he doesn't need it. He doesn't want it. He doesn't want anything to do with love... and love is
a weakness. Overall, he doesn't need anything... he doesn't want anything... it's true... demons ARE
indestructible. They don't need anything... HE doesn't need anything..."
Then after a few minutes of silence, Rin fell asleep, breathing lightly against the tree.
And from far off, Sesshoumaru looked as if he was in deep thought.
"A family...?" His face was scrunched up, his expression confused. "Why the hell would she want a
family? They're nothing special."
But deep down, he knew why. He knew all along. He knew ever since the day he found out she was
able to carry a child. Before that, he hadn't ever considered it. Hell, if someone was dumb enough
to come up to him and ask him about having a family, he'd probably kill them without a question
because of their stupidity. But now... he was actually thinking about it. More like it, considering it.
With her. Rin. A human.
Fuck.
He *had* become soft. Over the years... unconsciously, he had fallen into a rank of weakness. Not
physically, but emotionally. Well, that is, only with her. To others, he was still the same old demon
lord Sesshoumaru.
No... he couldn't let that happen. He couldn't let himself fall into mating with a human. A naive girl.
He was a DEMON lord for crying out loud. He was cold, silent, strong... strict, something she was
not. She was just an ordinary human...
...Wasn't she?
If she was... then why had he saved her so many years ago? Why had he cared? Why had he even
BOTHERED?
...WHY?
He growled. He knew that he cared for Rin. But love?
...Perhaps. Maybe to a certain point.
No. He did not. He couldn't.
His face became emotionless, and he stood still, almost as if he was about to attack a prey.
He had made a decision. A decision to get rid of Rin.
Forever.
* * *
o_O Don't ask if you get confuzzled. I just wrote whatever popped into my head as I went along.
Everything will probably clear up later... so, um... review! ^_^*