WARNING* maybe spoilers in here if you have not watched the season finale

OMG! O.M.F.G! WHY!? Just WHY!? *holding in a sob* I just seriously can't not get over that finale, it's generally upset me (I know crazy), I just am really not happy, I loved everything about that episode apart from that devastating ending, it's one thing reading fan-fiction about that ending but to actually see it happen in an episode is so horrible and the Tasha scene has me angry like what the heck! I just need some good jeller moments to really take my mind off that, like right now as I'm lying down trying to get over it sort feel like it's giving me anxiety (ahaha crazy again), I would literally rather go through jeller season 2 and jeller Berlin angst rather than that ending, it's got to me big time and it's a tv show and a tv show that I love, so right now, in this moment I am really really not liking Martin Gero or any of the writers, lost a tiny bit of faith in them but I love the show. Right rant over (I think,just gotta try and get some sleep coz my head has exploded *sigh*) / really don't know if I can handle season 4