Okay so this will be the only disclaimer for the whole story. No, I do not own this story, duh. Also feel free to tell me how you feel about the story all comments and suggestions are welcome. Enjoy!

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That night, I was so nervous. I walked back and forth in Edward's room, nervously biting my nails.

"Will you please stop that," Edward said sitting patiently on the couch.

"I'm just so…" what was I. At first I thought I was nervous, but now I'm not so sure. I could be excited or scared. No, not scared. I knew there was nothing to be afraid of.

"Just relax," Edward said coming up behind me, and wrapping me up in his arms rocking me back and forth gently. We stayed like that for along time; just soaking up each others love. I adored moments like this, where we could just be with each other. Not having to say a word and still feeling love for each other. It was like heaven.

I hated that he had to hold back. That he couldn't hold me with all his strength and kiss me with all his passion. I hated having to be handled like a china doll.

"Are you sure this is something you want?"

"Edward, please. We've been together for three years now. I've already gone through a year of collage. I'm a big girl. I'm sure this is what I want." Just like I would have wanted it three years ago, when I was still younger than you, I thought.

But, after being with Edward for three years I learned a couple of things. Number one, he loves me. He truly loves me body and soul, rarely do I ever have worry about that. Number two, I learned not to be so afraid of him. There are still times when his growl, his lust for blood, or his over protectiveness scare me.

Like when we went to Chicago last year, to visit his old neighborhood, and I almost got robbed. I was so sure he was going to kill the man. He pushed him against a brick wall and started to slam him against it, again and again. Only when I started to cry did he stop.

I'm constantly amazed at the extant of his power, but it is kind of a turn on to know he could kill me in an instant. Is that weird? I hope not.

I deiced to go to Argosy Collage, in Seattle, so I could stay close to Edward. Not that it mattered; I could have gone to Antarctica and Edward would have been there in five minutes, visiting me every day.

Edward decided not to go to collage, again. He would live with Esme and Carlisle and when I was done with collage I would move in too. Then we'd move and Edward would go back to collage to become a doctor, and work as a partner with Carlisle.

I had to admit that it could be nice having an extremely hot boyfriend. Every time he came to see me, every day, all the girls would stare wide eyed and gawk at Edward in all his Godly glory. I was fine when they just looked, but I got so upset when they stared hitting on him.

"Oh, Edward, tee he he" then they would gently touch his arm and bat there stupid wide eyes, and Edward being so oblivious would just smile, which of course didn't make the situation any better!

"Bella," Edward asked looking concerned.

"Sorry,"

"Are you okay? You had this really weird look on your face. And you started breathing heavily,"

"Fine, I'm just ready to get started," and I was. The sooner we started the better. Right now every one was out hunting, so no one would be hungry. Edward had just come back and they decided we needed a little privacy before we got down to business. I don't know why though. It's not like we could really do anything.

"What did you tell your father?" Edward asked after a few more minuets of hugging. I could tell he was nervous.

"That I was going back to school a few days early."

"What if he tries to call?"

"I told him to because I would be really busy, and that I would call him when I was all settled."

"You're getting to good at lying," he joked

"Yah, well it's your fault."

He chuckled and smiled that little half smile that drove me crazy.

"What?" I asked. I couldn't stop smiling. Now that my nerves were calming down I was so excited.

"Nothing,"

"Edward Cullen tell me now."

"I just can't believe you've grown so much."

"Well you're a hundred and five years old. That's like eighty five years you've got on me. Give me some time to catch up."

"It's just that, well do you remember that first year we started dating?"

"How could I forget? I moved away from the only home I'd ever known, fell in love, was savagely attacked by an evil vampire," Edward tensed up at the mention of the attack. I know he was still blaming himself for every thing. It didn't matter how many times I told him that it wasn't his fault he still blamed him self. I held him close hopping he would forget I said anything at all, "and I went to my first dance."

"Well, you also always second guessed yourself and you were never afraid of anything."

"I'm still not."

"I think you were afraid of that spider, in the woods the other day." Edward said laughing at the memory.

"Did you see that thing? It was huge, and it snuck up on me." I stated defensively.

"Yes, Bella the thing was huge. How did we ever get past it?" I started blushing like crazy. A habit I had been trying to break for years, but Edward could always make me blush, "But, what I was saying is. I am so happy that you stick up for yourself now, and make your voice heard."

He smiled and I felt my heart start beating rapidly. I wondered if that would be the last time that would happen.

Apparently he was thinking the same thing. He stared at me, "Are you absolutely positive this is what you want? I mean after this there is no going back. You do understand that don't you?"

"Edward, please, of …"

"And then there are three day of excruciating pain. Can you handle that and…?" I leaned in and gave him a full kiss on the mouth.

"Stop trying to scare me. Like I said I'm a big girl. I can handle this. Besides, as long as your there to help me through it I can do any thing."

At that moment Carlisle, Easme, Rosalie, and the rest came in. They walked in at a normal pace, "Edward, Bella we're here."

"Are you ready?" Edward asked.

"Yes, but can I ask you a favor?"

"Anything,"

"Can I have a kiss for good luck?"

"Hmmm…I don't know," I pulled his face close to mine and I gave him a kiss instead of waiting for him to be done joking. He kissed me back but like always held back for my safety. I couldn't wait for the time when we kissed and I wouldn't have to worry about dieing.

Edward grabbed my hand and led me down the stairs, where his whole family was waiting around the couch that Alice had set up for me. It was blue; the one that Edward liked so much on me and it was right next to the piano, so Edward could play music for me.

"Are, you ready?" Alice asked bouncing over to me, throwing her arms around my neck.

"Yah, I guess." I said staring at everybody.

"What do you mean you guess? Can't you ever be more excited about things? Your whole life is about to change!"

I started smiling and whispered, "Okay, so I'm really, really, really, happy Edward finally caved."

"I don't know why you're whispering," Edward said from across the room, "I can still hear you, and I didn't cave."

"Oh yes you did." I said teasing him.

"I just got annoyed with you asking me every day.

"Exactly, you caved," said Alice joining in.

"Guys come on," Rosalie was sitting on the piano bench, "Let's get this over with,"

Alice yanked me by the arm and drug me over to the couch, "Lay down," she instructed.

I did as she told me and tried to get comfortable. Which wasn't hard considering this couch was made for me and my comfort.

Edward came over and sat on the floor taking my hand into his, "Are you okay?"

"Yah fine why?"

"Your heart is beating really quickly."

"Oh, yah, well I'm excited."

"Not scared."

"Nope," I giggled shaking my head with unnecessary force so my hair flew every where. He grabbed my face and I looked into those perfect eyes. He looked at me with concern, then with love. He kissed my forehead, then my nose, and then he fond my lips. It was a gentle tender kiss, sweet but passionate.

At this point I was oddly aware of everyone in the room, and I blushed, for the last time.

Then, without a word he moved to my neck. I felt his cold breath on my skin. But he didn't bite me.

"Edward," I asked

Still he didn't move. So I grabbed the back of his head, and he allowed me to press it to my neck. Then he bit me. I took in a sharp breath. He started to pull away but I kept my hand on the back of his head letting him know I was okay.

He kept drinking I was worried he wouldn't stop. He wrapped one of his hands around my waist and pulled me in drinking more hungrily.

"Edward!" Carlisle's sharp voice made Edward pull away.

"Sorry," he said smiling looking into my eyes, "You just taste so good."

I smiled happily back at him, then I felt my stomach tighten and I took in a deep breath, the familiar pain came rushing back to me. My whole neck felt like it was on fire. I tried to scream, but nothing came out. My eyes darted around the room and I panicked. I grabbed onto Edward's hand.

"Carlisle," Edward yelled, sounding very scared.

"She's okay," he said sounding very relaxed, "Esmae go get some cold water, and lots of it."

"Relax," said Carlisle, "It's going to be okay," he was looking at me with kind eyes, "If you stay tense it will be harder for the venom to flow through you."

I took a deep breath and let my body ease, "Better," he asked. Actually, I did feel a little bit better. Now it felt like someone had only set a small fire on my throat instead of a really large one, but I nodded for Edward's sake.

When Esme got back with the water Carlisle dipped a cloth in it and placed it on my throat. Then started checking my pulse and making sure everything was going the way it was supposed to go. Then he started giving every one orders.

"Jasper, I want you to start making Bella feel more relaxed. Alice, just sit here and talk to her, Emmett start preparing things to go hunting. She'll need to eat when she's done. Esme keep the water coming. Rosalie, go to my study and grab the purple vase out of the cabinet."

"What do I need to do?" Edward asked obviously anxious.

"Play something on the piano." If I wasn't in such pain I would have laughed at how quick Edward was to oblige. He ran at lighting speed over to the piano and started playing something very quickly.

"Edward, slowly," Carlisle said, "Play something soothing."

There was silence for a minute, then he played me that song had he wrote for me all those years ago. Instantly I began to feel much more at ease. I was still in a tense amount a pain, but I felt so much better.

Suddenly I felt the pain spread. It shot strait down to my chest; it was the second worst pain I would feel during my transformation, you can imagine where the worst pain was.

When the pain initially hit, I screamed like all hell was about to break to louse. My body started to thrash about and I screamed for all I was worth. At this Carlisle called Emmett in to help tie me down.

All of day two went pretty much like that; me yelling, everyone running around trying to make me more comfortable, and Edward trying not to panic.

On the third day I could actually feel the mussels and bone changing in my body. My stomach knotted up and felt firm, the bone in my arm felt larger, and my face. Well, it just felt like every thing was being rearranged. I guess that's what needed the most work.

Then there was nothing…