I Never...
A/N: First Song Fic. The song is "Here With Me" By Michelle Branch.
"I never will forget that look upon your face..."
I promised myself that I wouldn't get hurt. I told myself that I would not get attached. I saw that look he gave me as he began walking away. He turned around just to make sure that I was alright, to make sure that I wasn't crying. Or corse I am. I wouldn't be who I am today if I hadn't learned how to hide my feelings from people, from myself. It's been my safety mark, my mask.
"How you turned away and left without a trace..."
As he turned the corner leading back to the office I knew. I knew that from this moment on, it was all going to be different. We each knew that the other felt. We each knew what had happened. It was something hat we couldn't always hide. It was something that we weren't always willing to hide. But just like that. We had to forget. We were made to and without a trace our relationship was gone. Only fragments of it allowed to be stored into our memories.
"But I understand that you did what you had to do..."
At times I forgot why you left that say. But then it all comes back. The memories, the hurt, the pain, the heartbreak. It all comes back, flooding back over me like a wave washes into the shore. I feel like I am drowning. To many emotions at once and I don't know which one to deal with first. They surround me attaching from each side and then there gone, they've vanished. Just like you did. They took everything out of me and all I am left with is this numb feeling of going through the motions, but not really feeling anything. And then there's you... You have a family. Someone, something to go home to at night. That's why you left. That's why we are over. That's the reason why I cry myself to sleep each nigh, wishing you were here to hold me. You were able to move on, you were able to bring life to yourself again. But I died inside. I can't move on knowing that the man I love, and that love me has a family and has been given a second chance. While I am lying here in my bed, once again crying myself to sleep. Because unlike you I can't move on. I am stuck on what once was, and what can't be again.