* writer's note. this is my first fan fiction. please be nice. also, do you think i should combine the thoughts and dialogue from each chapter into one? or just leave it as sections published seperatley?*
Chapter 1 thoughts
Beck-
I'm torn. Between the girl I have and the girl I want. iI love her. But I'm dating someone else. Someone else I also love. It makes me feel dirty inside. Like, somehow, by loving her and being mesmerized by her beauty, I'm cheating.
I could never cheat. I'm not that kind of guy. Plus, I wouldn't be able to stand the consequences. But every second that I see her I feel so guilty. I should just move on, or, rather, move back. But I can't stay away.
When I talk to her… I feel so nervous, so … giddy! Even more when she talks to me. This kid of happiness should be illegal.
Jade-
He likes her. He still loves me, but now he likes her, too. I have to hate her. Be mean and vicious to hide my jealousy. I have to show him off every chance I get. I don't know what I'd do if he left.
I have to keep him interested in me. But how? I'm not nearly as great as her. I know I pretend to be, but it's all an act. I suppose I AM a good actress. Still. I don't deserve him.
I don't like having to be mean to her. It's so hard. Much harder than with other people. She doesn't react like she should. She's too nice. But she's a threat.
Tori-
It must be so obvious that I like him. I just know everyone can tell. It makes me nervous. And scared. Because of her.
He likes me. I think. No I'm sure. Well, pretty sure. What should I do? How do I deal with this? I don't even want to Think about what would happen if he acted on his feelings. But I do. Every night he keeps me up, thinking.
What would she do? Would she resort to violence? Would she ignore me? Would everyone else? She must know. Deep down inside. It'll happen eventually. And she's scared, too.