Author's Note: Alright guys, so I want to clarify, this is the sequel to If This Was Forever. I'm not ending the story, it's just becoming a sequel. This is still mostly in Dean's point of view, and Cas is in the first chapter. I will post this chapter as a new story and it'll be called Beyond What Was Forever. The sequel's first chapter.
Chapter 1
The day that changed Dean's life was the day that Cas had been reiterated into Dean's life; Dean had been on the streets that day with his partner that day, Ruby Cortese. They were driving around town when they received a call for a domestic dispute. Dean and Ruby were the ones to respond, and when they reached the address, they headed up to the apartment that was called on. When they reached the apartment, they knocked, but there was no answer, so they knocked again and still no answer. They were about to walk away but then there was a scream that echoed from the apartment. Dean looked at Ruby and then he kicked down the door.
"Police Department!" Dean shouted as he walked into the apartment with his pistol drawn and Ruby doing the same behind him. They came around the corner and into the living room, and Dean froze. In the living room was Cas with a man standing behind him with a pistol to Cas' head. "Put the gun down and step away from him," Dean ordered.
"This is a simple argument between me and my boyfriend. So go away and let us deal with it. Now!" the man shouted the last word, which just made Dean just step closer to Cas and his boyfriend.
"Unfortunately, I can't do that. Not with you holding a gun to his head. I just want to make sure that he doesn't get hurt, and you don't get hurt. So please can you put the gun down and we can talk about this like civilized people." Dean kept his gun pointed at Cas' boyfriend's head as he hid behind Cas. Dean just gave Cas a look that asked Cas if he was alright. Cas nodded slightly in a quick jerky movement, as if he was trying to make sure that his boyfriend didn't think it was a movement at all.
"Well, if you would go away, he will be fine."
"Well, I can't be sure of that unless you put the gun down and we talk about this. What's your name?" Dean asked as he looked the man in the eyes.
"Dominic. My name is Dominic Williams," the man said as he pulled Cas closer to him.
"Alright, well, I'm Dean, Dean Winchester. Now, if I put my gun away, can you do the same?" Dean asked Dominic.
"Yeah, I guess. You first." Dominic ordered. Dean gave Ruby a look, and he holstered his pistol. "Her, too." Dominic ordered.
"Sorry, she can't do that until you put yours down, it's the rules Dom. Just put yours down and she will follow you." Dean stated. Dominic started putting his gun down and he threw it across the room and he slowly let go of Cas, which had Dean diving across the room tackling Dominic. "Dominic Williams, you are under arrest. Anything you say can and will be used against you in the court of law." Dean finished going through the Miranda Rights, and he handed him off to Ruby. Dean then walked over to Cas and pulled him in his arms. "Babe, are you still with me? Cas, look at me. Do you need an ambulance?" Dean panicked when Cas didn't answer.
Finally, Cas' sapphire blue eyes met with Dean's. "Dean, what are you doing here? I thought you were in Kansas City."
Dean wrapped his one arm around Cas' waist as Cas flinched. "You're hurt." Dean grabbed his radio, and he asked for an ambulance at Cas' address. He looked back down at Cas and said, "And for the record, I thought you were in California, so right back at you, baby. How long have you been in Overland Park?" Dean questioned as he rubbed his thumb down Cas' jaw. Cas turned into Dean's hand, and Dean pulled Cas closer.
"I've been here for about two years now. I moved out closer to Gabriel but then two years ago Sam started going to Stanford, and I ended up as a third wheel and decided that I had better just go since they probably wouldn't notice if I left anyway. So I decided I would go here, since I still needed to finish school and it was close to home and I could still go back and forth to see my mom. I met Dominic about six months after I came here, he didn't start getting violent until we moved in together about nine months ago. I didn't know what to do, darling. I just didn't know what to. After my dad, started beating me, my mom kicked him out after a while, but then Dominic started beating me, I just started thinking that I deserved it, Dean. I deserved it, Dean." Cas said as he started to drift off.
"Babe, look at me, please, stay with me. I need that ambulance at that address that I gave earlier and I need it now." Dean shouted into his radio, and he went back to Cas. "Cas, baby. Please. Open your eyes, now." Dean shouted as Ruby came back in the room with the paramedics. The paramedics pushed Dean away from Cas. "Ruby go back to the precinct and I'm going to head to the hospital with Mr. Novak. Paramedics, you should know that he is epileptic, so if that helps with anything I thought that you should know that." Dean stood up and the paramedics nodded at him.
Ruby walked out of the room and went down to the squad car, and she drove to lock up to process Dominic. The paramedics loaded Cas into the ambulance and Dean crawled in afterwards and took a seat in the ambulance. Dean took Cas' hand on the way to the hospital, and when they reached the hospital the paramedics and the doctors pushed Dean out of the way. Dean walked over to the waiting room and waited for the doctors to come over and talk to him.
A half an hour later, the doctors finally came over to talk to him. "Officer Winchester, correct?" the doctor asked him.
"Yeah, that's me. What's up, Doc?" Dean asked.
"You came in with Castiel Novak, right?"
"Yes, I did. How is he doing? Is he alright?"
"Yes, Mr. Novak is doing alright in recovery. You may have just saved Mr. Novak's life with the information about him being epileptic. Thank you for letting us know that information, or we might not have been able to help him. Are you a friend of Mr. Novak?"
"Yes, he and I used to be close friends, but we grew apart after high school. He's going to be alright, Doc?"
"Yes, he should be able to go home tomorrow, just a couple of scraps, bruises, and a few bruised ribs. But he should be fine in a couple of days, though he will be sore for a while."
"Okay, thanks, Doc. Can I go in and see him? I need to get his statement about what happened this evening?"
"Yeah, I can take you to go see him." Dean followed the doctor through the hospital until he reached Cas' room.
"Here you are, Officer." The doctor walked away, and Dean slowly edged his way into the room and stood by his bed side. Dean reached down and rested his hand on Cas' cheek. Dean's thumb slowly drifted across Cas' cheek, and he didn't stop as he pulled the chair up next Cas' bed.
"I'm sorry, baby. I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you, baby. I won't do it again unless I have to, baby. I promise you that. Okay, I'm staying here with you until I can't be there anymore. So don't you leave me, baby. Please, stay with me," Dean whispered. His one hand was caressing Cas' face as his thumb traced across Cas' jaw and cheek. His other hand reached over and captured Cas' hand that rested on the bed.
Dean sat in the chair until Ruby showed up in the hospital room to pick him up because of the end of their shift was coming up. "Winchester, shifts going to end soon, so we got to get going whether Novak is awake or not. Sorry, but we have to go." Dean looked up at her and nodded.
"Yeah, I'll be out in a second."
"Hurry, Winchester." Ruby walked out of the room, and Dean pulled out his note pad and wrote Cas a note. It read: I'm sorry, baby. I have to go back to work. If I'm not back by the time that you wake up, I will be back. I promise, baby, I won't leave you again. Love, D
Dean folded the piece of paper and placed it in Cas' hand. Dean then leaned down and kissed Cas' forehead, and Dean slid his hand down Cas' face and he walked away. He met Ruby in the car and he climbed into the passenger seat. Ruby didn't say anything, she just pulled the cruiser out of the parking lot and towards the precinct. She didn't say anything until they were halfway back to the precinct.
"Winchester, how do you know him?"
"I don't want to talk to you about him. Just leave it, Ruby." Dean just looked out the window and hoped that she dropped it. Unfortunately, she didn't.
"Come on, Winchester. You cannot give me that shit. After making me process that asshole, you owe me some answers. And I want the answers now, Winchester." Dean turned and looked at her with scolding eyes.
"I don't talk about him, and I am most definitely won't talk about him with you, so don't ask and don't try it again," Dean said as Ruby pulled into the precinct and parked the cruiser.
"Fine, but you will tell me about it. I don't care when but you will tell me about it sometime, Winchester; you owe me that."
"Not going to happen, Cortese," Dean said as he stepped out of the cruiser, and he walked into the precinct. Dean walked into the precinct and clocked out and changed into his street clothes. Dean then walked out to the Impala and drove back to the hospital. When he got there he walked straight to Cas' room and peeked around the corner of the door to see that Cas' was awake and staring out the window.
Dean was about to back out down the hallway, when Cas said, "Dean, aren't you at least going to say hi before you just back down the hallway and never see me again." Dean cursed under his breath as he walked into the room running his fingers through his hair. Dean walked up to Cas' bed and just stood there and shoved his hands into his pockets. Like he didn't know what to do with Cas.
"Are you going to stand there like an idiot or are you going to sit down and talk to me? I would prefer the sitting and talking rather than the standing like an idiot," Cas injected as he ran his fingers through his already messy hair, and Dean shuttered since that motion coming from Cas always turned Dean on. Dean sat down to hide the erection that was slowly bulging his pants.
"Cas, I…uh…I…uh." Dean was speechless, and he really didn't know what to say to Cas, about anything that has happened. At least if he was in uniform, Dean would know what to say, since he would be asking Cas about what happened that night, but now he was speechless.
"I have managed to drive the great Dean Winchester speechless. Dean, come here." Cas said as he reached his hand out to Dean, and Dean took it.
"Babe, I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry. This is my fault. I figured after my father was finally in prison, and we were safe to be together that everything between us would be great, but then you got accepted to that college in California and I got accepted to Kansas City. I didn't know if I could deal with having you half way across the country, and not knowing what was going on with you and seeing you all the time. That and after we started going to the parties together and I was always drinking, I was… I was," Dean stuttered as he lowered his head so Cas couldn't see his eyes.
"Dean, look at me, please." Cas pleaded as he placed his fingers under Dean's chin and tried to make Dean look up at him, but Dean wouldn't budge. "Dean, what are you thinking? Please, tell me, Dean. Tell me why you did what you did to me. It's important to me, darling." Cas tried to get Dean to look up at him again, and Dean, not having the will power to not look at Cas, just let Cas pull his face up.
"I didn't want to hurt you, baby. I couldn't handle seeing you in so much pain if I were to be the one that hurt you. I didn't want to become my father, babe, and my father almost killed my mother out of rage. Hell he almost killed me too, and I couldn't live with myself if I ever did that to you. So I did what I had to. I told you at graduation that we could continue our relation through the summer and then go our separate ways so we could each have a decent college experience, and then I picked a fight with you every chance I could get. I hoped that you wouldn't want to be with me and you would hate me if I pushed and prodded at everything that you did. I wanted you to realize, without hurting you, that I wasn't the right person for you. I wanted you to find someone better than me to be with, someone who would be worth living for. Obviously, you didn't do that though; you went the opposite way, to someone who beats you, and it's my fault that you are in this mess, baby, and I promise I won't ever leave you again as long as you want me here, in your life. I just want you to be happy and I realize now that, me doing what I did wasn't the right way of doing that. I'm sorry,"
Dean started off low enough for Cas to hear, but as the speech progressed Dean's voice grew to a whisper, and Dean slowly started to lean down and place his head down on Cas' bed so his voice was muffled by the sheets on the hospital bed. Cas barely heard what Dean had to say, but he received the general clarification of it: Dean blamed himself for what had happened to Cas, and it wasn't his fault at all, it was Cas' for not breaking up with the asshole after he beat him the first time.
"Dean, darling, this wasn't your fault, alright? You can't blame yourself for some stupid decision that I had made because of something that was totally an easy fix." Dean turned his head slightly and Cas could see why Dean had pushed his face down onto the sheets that were on Cas' bed, Dean had started to have tears collect in his eyes, and Cas knew that Dean hated to show what he was feeling, even if it was the right thing to do.
"Oh, darling. Come here," Cas said as he attempted to pull Dean onto the bed next to him, and Dean, getting the hint, crawled onto the bed and just laid next to Cas without touching him, completely afraid that he will hurt Cas if he touched Cas in anyway. Cas just pulled Dean closer to him and he wrapped his arms around Dean as he was now laying on Cas' chest. Both Dean and Cas fell back asleep as they were curled around each other on the hospital bed.