Disclaimer: I do NOT own WWE or its Wrestler's

Warnings: Slash and suicide

I was walking threw the hallways of the arena. I was hoping to find my bro Cena so that we could hang out and maybe train together. But the main reason I wanted to see John was because I've had a crush on him and have had one since I met him. While I was searching I found Punk. "Hey Punk have you seen John?" "Yeah he's in the locker room with Randy, Cody, Ted and Mike." "Thanks bro I owe you one." I made my way to the locker rooms but stop short one I hear talking.

Ted: "Hey Cena, why do you hang out with that loser Zack?"

Cody: "Yeah he isn't even good at wrestling. Do you like him?"

John: "Hell no he sucks! He's just a pathetic, screw up loser that I wouldn't even spit on. The only reason I hang around with him is so that he doesn't do anything too stupid."

After hearing that I bolted out of there. I know that as soon as I ran that they heard me but I didn't care. I thought he was my friend and actually cared about me and that one day I might even tell him I like him but not anymore. The guy who always says "Hustle, Loyalty, Respect" Just broke his rule of loyalty. I couldn't take being there anymore; I had to go to the hotel or anywhere far from here.

I got to my hotel room and was really thankful that my hotel roommate, Dolph, was out with the other guys because I couldn't handle anyone seeing me like this. As soon as I got inside I collapsed and sobbed. It was bad enough knowing he would never like me the same way as I liked him but it was even worse that he didn't even consider me a person that he would spit on. SPIT ON! I mean seriously that is just horrible. "If he doesn't like me and won't ever like me why should I be alive I'm not worthy of anything." I went to the bathroom and thought if this was really what I wanted. The only down side to my plan was that Dolph would have to be the one to find my body.

I got a razor from the drawer and cut small but deep cuts on my wrist. I wanted to die but I needed to feel something other than the emptiness in my chest. Someone was knocking on my door so I had to stop and only have my left wrist cut. When I open the door I see someone I wish I hadn't. I saw John, even just seeing him reminded me of what he said and made me feel like I was going to be sick. "Hey…uh… Zack can I come in for a sec?" Without even thinking I let him in and I went to sit on my bed forgetting about my bleeding wrist. "What do you want Cena?" Is all I could whisper after what had happened. "Zack I need to apologize for what I said about you in the locker rooms. It wasn't true." "If it wasn't true then why did you say it? People already think that I'm stupid and just a joke but I thought you were different I thought you were my friend." I wanted to get him to leave more anything right now. He looked down to my wrists and had a look of pure shock when he saw what happened to my left wrist. "What the hell happened to your wrist Zack?" "What do you think happened? Since I'm so worthless I thought I should do everyone a favor and just die." He didn't respond he just looked at me shocked. This was my chance to get him to leave, to get him to go far away so that I can die in peace. "Cena the reason I did this wasn't only because of what you said but also because…I love you. I've loved you since I first met you and I haven't stopped liking you." I was starting to feel really dizzy probably from the emotional train wreck I'm on and blood loss.

I was waiting for John to just leave me because he felt disgusted but he never did. He left but I knew he was still inside since I didn't hear the door open or close. He came back a few minutes later with a First aid kit. I didn't want him to bandage up my cuts but I didn't have the energy to fight him off. After he bandaged me up I could hear him talking on the phone with someone.

John: "Hey Dolph, it's Cena."

Dolph: "Oh hey Cena not that I don't like you but why are you calling me?"

John: "Uh it's about Zack… He um tried to commit suicide. I think you should come back to your hotel room and see him."

Dolph: "I'm on my way now don't let him do anything stupid."

When they were done talking I could see Cena's face had tears running down it. But that didn't stop me from asking him "Why did you say all those mean things about me." I still had tears going down my face while saying that. "The guys wouldn't stop bugging me about liking you and how we spend a lot of time together so I snapped and said all those things about you. But I promise you that none of it was true."

I was exhausted and the blood loss was getting to me and I was going in between conscious and unconscious. Right before I was completely unconscious I heard a faint "I love you too." But I might have just dreamed it up. Not too long after I passed out John left and Dolph came in our room. As soon as he got in the room he kept on asking me why I did it. After I told him everything and I mean everything. He came up to me. "It's ok Zack. He said he didn't mean it and you said that you heard someone say I love you too. He was the only one here." "I was half conscious it was probably just a dream." I wanted to believe Dolph about Cena maybe liking me but I didn't want to get hurt again. Dolph did everything he could to make me happy which is why he is one of my best broski's.

I went to the arena the next day with Dolph and Cena grabbed me. I was too shocked to say anything but I did hear John apologizing and saying that he loved me and that he would never do anything to ever hurt ever again. It took a while for it to register in my brain but when it did I couldn't help but smile like a idiot because I had the guy I loved and I got my broski back.